Tuesday, May 29, 2007 - 3:40 AM
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Was nt able to sleep.. So thought of doing a video.. I dunno hw to realli do it.. My sis slp so cant help.. Hope it turned out well.. Do enjoy it.. Will edit it if needed!!
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Monday, May 28, 2007 - 4:29 PM
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Changed my blog song again.. Frm imagine me without you to song cry vs here without you remix by 3 doors down and Jay Z feat.. More to the remix version.. Hope u guys will like it..
Today i totally cant wake up, was very tired and i still had to go school.. School started at 9am but i had to go at 8am as i had to collect my report book.. Erm as i said before, i shld decided for myself which is gd and bad.. N-levels is realli very near.. And today i didnt go for tamil remedial instead i went for the maths remedial in school... I dunno wat the hell is gg to happen.. The tamil teacher for sure will be very frustrated but i dun have a choice.. I m weaker in maths compared to tamil... Today maths bridging was kinda funni.. Funni ppl.. Like hidayat and the two amirah.. Disturbed the bth amirah by calling them and when 1 turn, i will say no i called the other amirah.. Kuan yen is also funni.. She had been using a calculator which is corrupted all the way.. The calculator wunt gib decimal places, it will help u to round off.. And no wonder she score badly for her maths.. She had been using the same calculator all the way.. I and kaiying was fighting over the answers to know that kuan yen calculator was corrupted.. LolxX.. Pity Kuan yen!!
Tmr i will be having social studies, geography and art bridging... Frm 8am in the morning till 5pm.. Gonna be a tiring day.. But doing things which i dun like benefits me!! Thats a concept which i wunt forget.. I dunt like it, but i will have gain if i do it..
Ok.. Before i end.. Wat cums to ur mind when u heard the word " FRIEND"?? Was just sitting and considering myself.. Hw many TRUE friends do u have out there?? Hw many are realli there for you, hw many realli treat u like a true fren?? Just so many questions.. I dunno myself hw many true frens i have out there but i know that for sure there is summone, a true friend who is out there to share wit me all my tears and joy.. But never be a betrayer or a two headed snake.. Thats the worse.. No one will wish to have such a fren.. Just a piece of advice, Treasure those around u now, Beore its too late.. I really believe in those phrase.. When u are starting to treasure the person, Sorry is the word.. Its too late.. Again i m nt pionting to anyone and saying frankly to everyone.. So ask urself.. Have u been a true fren towards ur frens?? Hw many true frens do you have?? Do u think that u shld treat them like that??
Today is SIXIAN, Siew Koon, Swee Teck and Guo Mei b'dae.. Wish all of them HAPPI B'DAE especially to TAN SI XIAN!! May all you ppl wishes cum true.. And God bless U!!
Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 3:18 PM
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Hey guys, Hw did the meet the parents session go?? Sum may be normal, sum was nt bad, sum may experience hell.. I m yet to take.. I will take my report book on monday.. Watever happen just rmb to hang on and endure the rough road till the end.. I knew my results and i m very disappionted wit myself.. I did realli very badly.. My mum did not scold me but i think she shld.. She ask me to decide for myself which is gd and bad.. If i still go on like this, I wunt go far.. Anyway, i m realli gg to study till my N-Levels.. Enuff of slacking.. This whole of june i will go back for all remedial lessons even if i m nt choosen.. No use sit at hme and do nth.. Monday is my first remedial.. But a little confused on which one to go.. I have my tamil remedial at teck whye and i have my maths remedial in sch!! I m weaker in maths.. And if i dun go for maths, i cant do the re-exam and there is onli 1 maths remedial.. As for my tamil, there is only 1 remedial too.. If i dun go for tamil, the teacher is sure to call my dad and he is already expecting me to go for it.. Bth the remedial start at 9am.. I cant go half way and stop halfway rite?? Erm... Confused!!
Ystd i had a great day out and also a very tiring day.. Ystd we had the chariot procession again but this time is the very first time a buddha is gg in a chariot.. Nvr had a buddha gone in a chariot.. This is the first time and he was the one towing it.. It was towed frm kim tian rd to serangoon rd.. So my sis, mum and i went along.. I borrowed yanteng's cam so that can video the images.. Yanteng's cam was very helpful, have to thank her... Here are sum images.. Will upload more next time..
Photo of a empty chariot!!
Image of the buddha!!
Image of the buddha in the chariot!!
Image of the buddish monk and indian priest sitting on the chariot!!
Full image during the journey!!
Today is my third sis b'dae!! HAPPI B'DAE LAVAN!!! My sis is 19 this yr.. Very big leii.. I m onli 16 yrs old, still gt a long long way to go!!! Today also one of my cousin's 21st b'dae.. Later in the evening have to go for it at Amaran Pub.. Nt confirm if i want go anot.. See hw lorr!!
Photo of my third sis!!
Erm.. Before i end my post.. Just wanna share sum things.. I think that "One shld nt be too close to a person." Wat i mean is that nt to be too close to a person who u know.. Like example.. U made a fren and try nt to be too close to him or her.. Because when that person is nt wit u or if the person behave very differently or try to avoid u, u will feel very miserable.. I have a fren.. She is very close with this person and one day the person like talk to her very differently and behave very differently.. And my fren feel so miserable and rejected.. And she is a person who cant accept rejection.. I m nt trying to piont at her or anything but i m telling to everyone frankly.. I also believe that when i m very close to a person, and when i know that the person is gg leave me, i will feel very miserable, sad and disheartened.. So try nt to be too close to a person!!
Everyone enjoy ur holidays and take care or urself.. Dun get hurt.. Missing all my BESTIIE!! Stay happi always!! =))
Thursday, May 24, 2007 - 9:57 PM
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Today had cross country in sch and i was running for the competitive run.. The weather was very humid!! Cannot tahan... Darm hot.. The event started at around 8.30am.. I and regina was keeping up wit each other.. I dun even believe that i can run cross country better than my 2.4 km run.. The distance of the gals route was 3.2 km while the boys were 4.4 km.. Pity the boys.. Very super long... I finished the race at the 16th position.. Nt so bad.. Follow by the others.. It was a very gd run by everyone... All had the spirit of winning..When i reached back to sch i was very flat.. Very tired but there was free MILO!! LolxX!! Then wait for the whole sch to cum back then report to hall for prize giving.. Mr Lim, my sch principal was a little pissed off.. Then started scold and scold.. EAGLE was the forth position!! WTH!! Heron took the first position.. EAGLE STILL THE BEST!! After the whole event, came back hme and bath.. I was very stinky.. Then kueilee, kamaliah, eudy and sixian wait for me.. Aft i gt ready go to eudy hse watch movie.. STOMP THE YARD!! Nice movie... Quite meaningful also.. Then use com awhile then had to leave as i was having tamil class.. Today onli 3 ppl cum for tamil class.. I was very tired and sleepy.. I could nt concentrate in class.. I was fading away.. I have to realli stop staying up till late night and have early slp and more rest...
Tmr gg be last day of sch before the june holidays start.. As it is the last day as usual have to collect report book..This yr again is a pink form, so parents have to meet teacher... And my mum is busy woman.. Sis have her own werk.. So cant collect tmr.. Dun know if he is gg to find out anot?? Haiz..
MUM!!! When u see this word wat will it remind u of?? Different ppl will having different reaction.. I saw one of my fren blog and i can tell u that i was STUNED!! I didnt expect her to write such things abt her mum.. She scolded her mum everything she cud.. And i was very super pissed off when i saw the word "BITCH".. I dunt know hw she has the heart to write such things out.. I dun wan reveal the person name.. But sum shld know.. There is one tamil song abt mum and the lyrics is suberb.. I realli love this song.. I translate the lyrics into english.. Just one paragraph.. It goes like..........
" WAT EVER U WISH FOR, IF U HAVE MONEY U CAN BUY, BUT CAN U BUY UR MUM? HW MUCH LOVE U RECEIVED FRM OTHERS, IT WILL NVR BE THE SAME AS UR MUM'S LOVE. WHO WAS THE PERSON WHO BORN U TO THIS WORLD?? GOD IS ALWAYS IN UR HSE AND TATS UR MUM. EVEN WHEN U ARE HURT A LITTLE, SHE WILL BE HURT THE MOST. "
I totally believe this songs lyrics.. Mum are always the best.. To say the truth, the person who was hurt the most and also cared the most when i was in pain all this while was my MUM!! She shared the pain together wit me, she even cried for me.. She felt so bad for me and i also felt very bad.. So the thing i m trying to say is that, watever u say, pls think twice.. And when it cums to ur mum, u have to realli sit and think... They nagg, shout and everything but its all for ur own gd and that shows their love and care for u.. If they dun care, do u think they wan waste their time shouting and nagging at you?? MUM's THEY ARE THE BEST!! I LOVE MY MUM!! =)
Wednesday, May 23, 2007 - 5:10 PM
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Today woke up in the morning thinking that i had to go sch but then i rmb that i had my appointment so sleep awhile more.. My appointment was at 10.50am.. I reached the hospital at 10.00am and registered.. I when to the hospital wit my sis.. I waitted till 12.30pm then onli saw the doctor.. Very long waitting hrs.. First i had to go take my hearing test.. The room was a little scary.. It was like the person is investigating a lie detector.. Big headphones were around me ear and many wires link here and there.. I had to press the button if i could hear sounds.. So i followed the instruction.. Most of the time i cant hear the sound at all.. The person keep asking if i could hear anything.. But i cant.. Then he gave me the report and ask me give the doctor.. So i gave the doctor and had to wait for my turn to be called again.. I was already shivering as it was very cold and fear engulfed me as i was scared to hear wat the doctor had to say.. "1051" its my turn!! So i and my sis walk into the room.. The doctor enquire abt me and hw the incident took place and blah blah blah.. Then he say that my hearing impact is very poor.. I hear things very blur on the left ear.. Here cums the real part!! There is a HOLE in my ear.. So its time i have to look after it.. There is no medication for it.. I have to realli take care of it and make sure i dunt let water go in and nt make it wet.. I have to use cotton and cover the ear.. I also have to stop hearing loud musics already.. If it does nt cure by my next appiontment i will have to undergo an operation!!!
I am realli super touched by my frens!! Realli super touched.. I cant evey explain hw touched i m... I was TOTALLY touched by this gal by the name of AMIRAH!! I realli wanna thank her and if she was in front of me nw, I will realli go to her and gib her a hug man... She is a very and nice gal.. I knew her just last yr onli.. And i can tell u, i nvr regret making such a fren!! All my frens were my pillar of strength and AMIRAH was the most strongest pillar.. I read her blog and i was like.......... Go and visit her blog to see wat she had said!!
Amirah i am very grateful and gifted to have u as my fren..
U are also my true fren..
At least u realise the real me.. And now i know the real u..
Dun worry, i m perfectly fine and gd..
With all of u around i m super strong and dun forget i m THICK SKIN!!
I really LOVE U!! And all those who have encouraged me!!
I wunt forget all of u and i will be alrite..
Dun be worried and i m Fine!! :))
Monday, May 21, 2007 - 10:19 PM
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Life has many up and down.. I think we realli have to treasure the type of life we have.. Coz its short and u wunt know wat will happen at wat time... It may be tough but u still have to live it.. It may be fated for such things to happen but fight till the end.. Hope i didnt confuse u ppl...
Ystd is a day where i realli experience darm great pain... Pain which was unbearable and unexplainable.. Its a pain where i cant tell hw pain it is.. My left ear has became worst day by day.. Ystd was a usual day but in the evening i was experiencing HELL!! It was like my whole brain wanna burst out.. My ear was bleeding and i was crying in pain.. And it was affecting frm my ear to my brain.. I was gripping my head very tight.. I was calling my mum and sis for help.. They know that i had to go to the hospital but they had to ask him.. And u know wat he said.. "Cant she wait for me to cum hme then go to the hospital." I was like WTH!! I m here suffering and i still wait for u.. Then he came hme and act like he didnt know anything.. He thought i was putting on a act.. He was threatening me saying that they wud cut the ear and the face and wat so ever.. I was nt scared at all coz all i know was PAIN!! He asked me to get change to go hospital.. He still sit and eat and dun even bother abt me and the pain.. He onli thought abt his hunger.. Then he still can take his own time.. Delay here and there.. I could nt take the pain le.. HE DUN BOTHER!! And he start his crap.. Then we left the house finally but he didnt bring me to hospital instead go changi.. There had a spiritual guy who can see wats wrong and wat so ever.. I prayed realli hard that the guy wunt be there.. And the guy was realli nt there.. The building already broken down btw.. Then again he ask if i was sure if i wan to go hospital.. I was like please lahh stop asking i realli in pain and i m nt putting on a act.. It had been 2 hrs and i m yet to see the doctor.. Then finally we go to Tan Tock Seng hospital and i go see the doctor at the walk in clinic.. And i was referred to the A&E department.. The first clinic the doctor said that there was a hole in my left ear and it is scary to know that i cant hear.. I queued at the A&E clinic for more then 3 hrs and it was super cold.. I was shivering.. And during this 3hrs wait i saw many different type of ppl and cases.. Impaitent, noisy and different cases.. But i know that all of them was experincing pain... Finally after the long wait then onli i was called.. The doctor asked me wat happen and i say i collided wit my bro while cycling.. He said that the impact is too strong and my left ear drum TEAR!!! And my left ear cant hear temporary.. I have to be referred to the ear & throat specialist.. I was shocked when i hear that my ear drum tore.. It is quick serious and i have to referred asap.. And the earliest i can get is on wednesday.. So on wed i wunt go sch.. Just pray hard that nth will go wrong and everything will be fine.. By the time i left the hospital and reach hme was already 3 am and i was still in pain so i cant slp.. I slept at 4am and woke up at 6.30am to go sch..
Today sch was boring as usual.. I wanted to take half day and go back hme.. I cant realli hear things.. Nw onli i can experience the feeling of a deaf person.. Its very difficult.. Its like i have to ask ppl to repeat wat they have said again and again.. Its irritating i know, Sorry.. But its nt purposely.. After sch went to plaza wit my AIAI, kamaliah and eudy go eat LJS.. Then my mum called me and ask to meet her at plaza lrt.. My mum was a little worried for me.. But i also know that i at times go over the limit.. I have to discipline myself and nt make her be worried.. I wunt take it as nagg but a piece of advice.. She the best.. And i m realli thankful to have her as my mum.. Wit her by my side, i feel very safe and strong.. Love my MUM loads!!
Finally i wanna thks all my frens for all the care and concern.. U ppl are just simply great.. I love u all.. Dun worry i will be fine.. U ppl make my day great and make me forget all the pain i feel.. THANKS AND LOVES!!
Saturday, May 19, 2007 - 11:32 PM
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Erm i dunno wat to say lahh.. Really.. I cant go on like this anymore.. All is pain and tears.. U wanted me to do it and i did at last kena whack.. I m SUPER happi lahh.. U are nt treating me like ur daughter and i dunno wat the hell u trying to prove... My left ear nw totally cant hear anything!! I left eye cant realli see things properly.. I totally dunno lahhhh... I totally dun deserve this at all... And again this is on purpose.. I will do it... But by the time dun regret coz its too late.. Nth will change my mind.. I trying to nt bother everything but no, u making it worst for me.. I wanna DISAPPEAR!!!
Friday, May 18, 2007 - 9:52 PM
Hey guys!!! Hw are u all??? Finally i have change my blogskin.. Its been 4 months since i have changed it.. And i dun think i need the IMAGINE ME WITHOUT U anymore... I dun need to imagine myself without anyone.. I also change my blog song frm What hurts the most to Imagine me without you.. LolxX.. That song is my all time favourite.. I just simply love that song.. Hw much i listen to it, i wunt be bored... Nice song hope u guys like it...
Results are revealed.. And erm... Hw to describe?? I also no idea.. I did very badly for this MYE... I have fail many and pass onli 2 but nt confirm as the marks need to add CA and others.. So hope sum marks will pull me up but i dun think it is possible.. Haiz.. I sit till midnight to revise sum subjects but still fail leii.. Its nt waste time but its is like waste my effort sit and study till so much but all is fail and results darm sucks lorr... I onli pass my English and Mother Tounge... I fail my science, combine humanities and art.. Art onli 3 ppl in my class pass leii... PATHETIC!!! I sit till 5am do my art leii but horr fail... Haiz the subjects i studied all failed but those i nvr study can pass like my english and my mother tounge.. Suppose my social studies and geography can pass de... The teachers say i wrote alot but i just nvr elaborate enuff.. If i elaborate i wud score much better.. They say my language is strong so i can do well if i take the effort to explain the pionts then to just write the pionts without explaining.. I will sure take their advice as a learning piont.. All my friends and teachers tell me nt to give up and i always rmb that " THERE IS NO FAILURE, ONLY LEARNING EXPERIENCE! " All those who nvr do well, dun be sad and nvr gib up.. Its only MYE nt N-Levels yet.. So still got time but nt much.. But i dunno if my time is over... Must REALLI REALLI start buck up.. No time to waste le.. Wanna congrat all my frens who did well too.. Keep up the good job and aim for better results.. Ur efforts wunt wasted... This june holidays is no longer HOLIDAY!!! This whole june holiday i have to go back to sch le.. Gt art, social studies, geo and other remedial.. But dunno if he will let me go anot lorr.. But i have no choice but to go if i wan to score well... I have to do my art cloth which will take alot and alot of time.. Even nw when i m free i will be sewing..
Ystd after sch had to go take CCA cert.. And i dun have a CCA also lorr... I was in soccer but quit then red cross for one day and thats it.. But i had 10 pionts.. But ppl with CCA also nt very high pionts.. Erm kinda weird too.. And last min my sis called me and tell me that there was tamil class.. So i had to rush.. Tuesday i thought that i have tamil class but i go teck whye there is no one.. The sch was empty.. Ystd summore it was raining darm heavy.. And my tamil class start 2.45pm but by the time i left sch was already 2.30pm.. I quickly rush hme, change and left.. My hme did nt have umbrella so bo pian had to rain in the rain.. I still had to go to eudy's hse as i had to pass her the CCA cert... And i was totally drenched.. Frm head to toe.. Poor Kueilee.. She was more wet.. I at least had my jacket on.. I had to blow myself dry and my shoe was building a swimming pool already... Totally wet and i cant walk so i borrow eudy's slippers.. And the most funni thing is that, i went to my tamil class like a AH PEK!!! I was wearing pe shirt and shorts wit my jacket and slippers... Carry two plastic bags!!! WAH very paiisehh leii.. but no choice.. Then i and kueilee quickly go take taxi and go teck whye.. And the taxi driver was super rude and he was shouting in the taxi.. I was already late and he went to make one big u-turn when he can make a u-turn just at the same spot.. And when i asked him, He just shout and shout.. Old man so cant help it.. I didnt realli bother.. And when i reached my tamil class, It was pathetic.. No one of my classmate was there.. I was the onli student.. I checked my exam papers 5 mins and started staring at the techers face.. Boring Day...
Today was also a boring day.. School had been very boring.. All was free period and no studies.. I have a very weird classmate.. I dunno whether he is weird or he is emo!! He used a safety pin and poke his finger and it was bleeding... And he sucked his blood like VAMPIRE!! Then nvm.. He keep on poking onli.. Then my english teacher asked him wats wrong but he didnt reply.. Here comes the more disgusting part.. He used the same pin and pierce his LIPS, EAR and his HAND the skin!!! OMG LORR!! I cannot tahan when i see leii.. He summore sit like the next row beside me and it is very obvious to see... Cant understand this type of weird or i call him WERIDO ppl!!
GTG!! Take Care!! LIVE LIFE LIKE THERE'S NO TMR!!!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 3:28 AM
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CANNOT TAKE IT LE LAHH!!!! WAH!! I REALLY VERY FED UP!! DARM HELL HAPPENING HERE!!
Saturday, May 12, 2007 - 9:08 PM
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Thursday i had my art exam and b4 that night i sit till 5am in the morning to complete watever was needed.. I didnt had enuff slp but i m used to it.. I was still very fresh and steady in my art paper despite my terrible headache... I still drew like a artist u nvr seen b4 becoz i suck in my art but i drew wateva i cud.. Kaiying is just simply great lahh... She did stupid and funni things make my day great lahh... Sharing of water, making holes in water bottle and splashing everyone was darm funni lorr.. She nvr fails to make me laugh during all the paper...
After that i was very flat so came hme and slp.. And again my hse was FULL OF CRAP!!! I already having alot of problems and he's adding on for me.. I dunno why god create such a human!! He is nt a human, He is an ANIMAL!! Realli... If u are a human u will behave like one human and nt like an animal.. Chairs were flying, shouts and shouts and quarrel and everything was ME!! Every single thing involved me... Wateva gd things i had done all this while was nt even appreciated.. All u know is that I m a FAILURE!! Yes!! I m a FAILURE!! I have failed in every single thing.. My studies, my life and everything!!! All u think is for urself and urself and urself.. I really regret having summone like u in my life.. Its better u dun even exist... Why cum bother my life?? U dunt gib me freedom, nevermind, i dunt care... But dunt cum and bother me and my life.. My life is already nt peaceful and i REALLY need sum PEACE!!! I cant go on like this wit u around.. Lucky i have my great MUM and SIS around.. If i m living a life its all because of them.. If i dun have them in my life , i wud nt even be here.. Watever u wanted me to do, i did.. But wats the use?? U are nt even thanking me, i dunt mind... But dunt treat me like a darm HELL!!! I realli realli and realli had enuff, enuff and enuff... Hw much gd things u do it wunt look gd for me coz ONCE THE SCAR IS THERE, THERE IS NO WAY IT WILL BE REMOVED!!! And u dunt even care i was hurt anot.. All u did was to show ur darm anger.. And it was all darm purposely.. I was already sick and u are making me more sick.. I realli need sum PEACE LAHH!!! PLEASE!! LEAVE ME ALONE AND DUN BOTHER ME!! I REALLI NEED SUM SPACE!! I CANT EVEN BREATHE!! Every day and night is all ur crap, crap and crap.. I have lots of prob outside and when i cum hme is also prob, then where shld i go??? WHERE?? Please just disappear frm my life..I realli need a break!!!
Tags replied here!!
KAIYING: U hate me?? I LOVE U LEII!! Make my day great and u are darm funni lahh!!! <33>
Eudy: Hmm... Gd question... I wan live in a fantasy world but again there is sumthing called as REALITY!! I cant keep running away frm it.. And i also dun have the power to face it.. Confusing life!!!
Sixian: lols!! YA GAL!! My watch still wit u.. nvm.. Monday then take lorr.. Miss u too <33
June: U too.. miss u.. long time nvr chat wit u .. haha.. take care <33
LeiLei: ??? LOLxX!! <33>
Saras: Sweetheart!!! LOLxX.. Soon OKAY?? =)
Wednesday, May 9, 2007 - 8:38 PM
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Finally exams are coming to an end.. Peace that it was over but another fear is my results.. I dunno hw i have done and hw m i gg to react when i see my results... Difficult to say or predict.. Wat is done cant be undone so i just have to wait and see.. Gd luck to all my frens!! Let's hope for the best!!
Monday didnt have sch so i go out wit my mum and sis.. My mum was very sick and she took off so accompany her to see the doctor at polyclinic. Aft that travel to bukit merah as my sis laptop was giving alot of prob so went there to repair. I was very happi as i was able to change my mp3 player too but just was instead i became very fed up and angry.. My mp3 had 1 yr warranty and the lady keep dun wan change my mp3 and gave many excuses like battery leakage and blah blah blah... I argue for my rites and she still said that she cant change it.. My sis called her and shout to her and the lady deserves it. Nw i have to either throw away my mp3 if nt keep it as a gift.. Sad leii use less then 1 week..
Tuesday had my chemistry paper... I tried my real best and answer all questions; if i'm nt wrong. Aft the paper had to do my art as thursday is exam and there is alot of stuff still left undone so did sum research and sum drawing.. Help Kuan Yen create a blog and soon started to slack.. Wasn't the best of mood... So just dun bother everything..
Today had my physics paper.. Quite tough but i still did my best again.. I was having a super darm terrible headache since ystd but i still tried to concentrate.. I endured for the few hrs.. just nw went plaza and lot 1... Nw have to start doing my art soon if nt tonite must tonn!!! But i dun think i can as i m having very bad headache.. My head wit egg... Panadol is nt helping... But wateva i still need do my art by tonite.. Nvm i m THICK SKIN!!!
REALITY!!! Its a very simple word but the content in it is super complicated. Have u faced reality?? Will u face it? I m nt very sure of the answer for this questions but i know that i have nvr faced it.. I have been running away frm it.. I dun think i can face it either.. I m already very hurt and feeling lots of pain bth physically and mentally.. No one knows the way i m feeling.. Very terrible leii.. And if i m gg to face reality, i must be prepared to get more.. But i cant handle it anymore.. CANT!! I had enuff and i dun wan have any more... I m suffering from lots of pain.. Nt lots but LOADS!! It is that much that i cant explain.. I cant always show a happy side when inside its all pain and pain and just simply pain!!!
And this goes to that person.. U know who u are.. I have never thought abt u at all. stop assuming abt wateva together-ness and crap ok?... Wateva i have been saying are just words.. And i didnt ask u to bother. I dun give a darm to wateva u have said or yet to say.. what depends on god n etc. even if god comes down i cant be bothered with u! Here is what i wanna say to u: GET LOST! n STOP ASSUMING! Think whatever you want, for all i know those are waste thoughts only. I am perfectly happy with my life. =)
Sunday, May 6, 2007 - 5:21 PM
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Exams is gg to cum to an end!! 
Just three more papers and its over!! Can relax but i dun think gt time to 
also .. Must start prepare for prelim and N level!! Friday i had my geography paper.. Was nt that bad, Nt easy but nt darm dificult. I didnt had enuff time 
to complete also. I rush thru the last few sentence. I wrote alot hope its sense and nt rubbish. After the paper walk to greenridge eat le then go plaza walk walk and again go IP zone see jacket. And i have already bought the jacket finally!! Yeah!! 
So ELATED!! Ystd in the morning i and my sis go plaza buy things then i bought the jacket. I was waitting to buy and i finally buy!! Then aft that go my sis office awhile and slack. The com at her office nt werking and i was so bored so just slack. And in the night had to go for a function. My dad's buisness fren was having a baby shower for his 1st child only 1 mth old 
. It was held at the void deck of yishun and this is the frirst time i went for such a celebration and it was very "happening".. And in a gd way but in a bad way. I cant realli said wat happen coz its very personal. Anyway also had fun playing wit babies and small kids.. Its nt i bully them but end up they bully me leii 
!! I burst the small gal's balloon and she beat me none stop and i had to find her another 
but no more liao.. HAHA!!! 
to play wit small kids.. But at times its very irritating also!! 
Today went to sheng shiong wit mum and sis. Saw cherin and family and also shaelyana (sry if spell wrong ).. Shop for things and had my breakfast + lunch at there.. Then cum hme slack, help mum cookand nw use com.. Gt 
to attend but instead my mum and sis go.. Monday 
coz i dun take POA and they are having their POA paper.. 
to those who are taking. Tmr nt having any plans to go out.. I wan sit at hme and do my art 
and study chem 
(my "FAVOURITE" subject)!! Art i 
siia.. I left wit colour scheme and mock up.. 2 pieces very little but the drawing and painting and all alot leii.. Haiz no choice... NVM!! THINK POSITIVE!!!
Thursday, May 3, 2007 - 9:29 PM
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Today i didnt go to sch as i had tamil exam at teck whye sec.. I had to be there by 7.30am but i left my hme late so i reached there around 7.40am... The LRT in the morning was very crowded, i have no choice but to squess in if nt i will be late for my exam. Then frm phoenix walk all the way. Reach the sch the OM started shouting already, lucky i didnt kena. Had to report to the hall and started doing my paper 1.. Paper 1 was nt so difficult quite okay. Then abt 1hr break then my paper 2. Paper 2 was more easier.. Sum answers were quite straight forward. But i cud nt realli concentrate as i was having a bad nose. My nose was itchy and i started having flu. Lucky i had my inhaler. At least it made things better abit.. Aft my paper when to lot 1 meet kueilee and eudy.. We go to IP zone and when i see the jacket again i fell in love with it again.. Nvm my mum is gg to buy it for me soon... By two days i will be in that jacket!! YEAH!!! So nice of my mum!! 
Then we go walk around then was very hungry so go wat at macdonald.. Eat le i have to leave as i had to go to my sis office.. Suppose have to walk very far to reach my sis office but lucky i saw my mum's lorry so i quickly ask the bus driver stop his bus and i rush to my mum's lorry.. Then at my sis study geo and com spoilt so cant use.. After that my mum drop me hme wit my sis.. She did not wan me to tired myself so she ask me study at hme. And nw all of them have left to m'sia for a while onli and i m at hme alone.. Have to go study le.. Must be determine!!!
Wednesday, May 2, 2007 - 12:31 AM
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The quote of my blog today is "YOU ONLI LIVE ONCE." I totally agree wit it. U onli live once in ur lifetime and treasure ur life wit everything u can. Just treasure everyone around u and everything u wan or need. Sum ppl feel that life is very meaningless and so on. Once i also thought that my life sucks and meaningless but when u start to treasure life u will realli wan live as long as possible. Pity sum ppl who cant enjoy life like wat i or sum other gifted ppl enjoy. But when u know life is cuming to an end that is when u start to treasure ur life but by the time, sry its too late. So live life to the FULLEST!! 
For the past two day i have realli enjoyed myself despite my exams being so near. 
Ystd i enjoyed myself wit my dearest sis. We go to many diff places. First when came hme frm my after my exams i go her office. Then just slack and use com until happpi. Then decided to go to lot 1 walk walk. Then i go IP zone and i fell in love 
wit the jackets there. Wah the jacket realli very nice leii. I started imagining myself wearing it already. See hw gt money then buy. Then we go jalan jalan. Then i go to the yellow shop wan see thinge then when i go up the escalator i saw a group of ah lians!! 
LoLxX.. They are jewellcy, zhao yue , sandy and many. Chat a while the go liao. Aft a while i left back hme.Cum hme liao then very sian. So i and my sis go out again. We go to westmall. We go west mall jalan jalan again. Then go play arcade and buy sum stuffs then go to plaza. Wanted change my calculator battery but popular dun provide such service so bo pian go greenridge. Then the stationary shop man say he run out of the battery and ask me cum next monday. I need use the calculator tmr leii, hw can i wait till monday. Then we go eat at KFC!! Had delicious food. Was very full then bought a jolly shandy and drink while walking hme. By the time i reach hme i was already very flat. I was very tired to do anything. Call kamaliah and chat a while and then dead on the bed. 
I did nt study at all. 
Today even more happening day. Suppose to go m'sia but my parents go late last night so never go le. At last today morning my mum wake me up and tell me to get ready to go to beach. I keep saying i dun wan go 
but just to keep her companied so i went along. My whole family went in one car but at last my dad took his lorry as he had sum other werk to do. Then i my mum and sis go to east coast. The beach was darm crowded. Then my sis alighted me and my third sis at the bicycle station. We rented bicycle and started cycling 
frm one end to the other end looking out for my mum. Then finally found her. Then she said that the beach was too crowded to even swim so change location to changi beach. So we return our bike and proceeded to changi beach instead. There it wasn't very crowd. But i started having fear 
when i see the sea. There were many flashback like the recent case of the two boys who drowned.So i prayed 
b4 i entered the water. Usually i will just jump and play play and play but this time i ask my sis to teach me hw to swim 
and float upside. I could swim but very slow. I think tortise faster than me. LoLxX. But i really love the floating part where i face up the sky and simply float. When i float i cant hear anything 
cause the water wud be covering my ear. I just simply forget myself and the next moment i open my eye, i at the sea shore already. 
LOLxX. But at times i will open my eye to see the direction where i m flowing to. Later i float until very deep then sure no one rescue. Swim and played for hrs and its time we gt to leave. Aft bathing and changing, we proceed to changi village jalan jalan. When i was walking then i rmb, MY CALCULATOR!! 
Lucky i brought along my calculator to change its battery if nt tmr i cant do my maths paper. I search for a watch shop and gt my battery change. Phew can relax already 
. After that cum back hme. I was very tired, my legs were very wobbly. I had to force myself and carry my legs. The next thing i cud think of was my bed 
. So i took a short nap abt 15 mins. Just nw while helping my father cut fruit, my cut my finger. Dots.. Lucky was my left hand de finger. Had been very careless for the past few days. But i still knew that i need to study. As usual i gt distrected by the com. But i will still study no matter wat. Tonight have to burn the midnight oil and study. If i dun study for sure tmr paper i wunt be able to do de. So need to be discipline and determine. My social studies buang 
already so have to catch up by my other subjects. I must gib my 100%!!! 
Take care and
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