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Friday, September 28, 2007 - 11:59 PM

Yes today is my second sis b'dae and she is officially 22 yrs old, so old lorr.. I only 16 and she so fast 22 le... Hey but wait! See wats the quote of the day at my blog.. It says " YOUTH HAS NO AGE!" lols.. She is a very nice person, not selfish with money and spends generously! Because rich mahx! lols.. Can be nice until very nice, Can be evil until very evil.. Hopefully she will get married soon to a guy of her kind.. She gt many rules for the guy one.. Very bossy... She is a special person just like her name.. SARAS! Read from front to back and back to front.. Still the same?? lols.. May all ur wishes cum true on this special day of urs.. GOD BLESS!!

Ok countdown to n-level is just 2 day.. Left with saturday and sunday.. I can tell u guys something.. I m totally burned out, exasperated, worn out... Means i m totally tired and STRESSED! Seriously i lack of loads of slp and lack of a lot of time.. I have been gg back to sch for the past one week of sch break.. Its sch break and i still go back sch for revision.. The revision will start at early as 8am-9am till 4pm-6pm.. Thats hw long the hours are but by half of the day i will be half dead chicken.. But i still try to concentrate after a short/long break... I have been doing many many many past yr paper for diff, diff subjects.. Maths,chemistry and physics.. I have been writting notes for geog and screw in everything into a STM mind! Just imagine hw bad it can go..I m doing manufacturing for geog and agriculture and agriculture itself there's loads to rmb! Wet rice, oil palm and blah blah blah! Then chem i just started it today and i know nth at all! Physics nt so bad as i still have some knowledge on it.. ART is DIE! Wasting time.. I have to have 5 pieces completed and i m still on my 2 piece.. Imagine hw much behind i m.. I cant draw, colour or even paint! i m just very fed up with myself.. I feel so lousy.. STRESS can? I just dunno wat the hell i m gg to do if i cant clear my N's... I have many question gg thru my mind like: "Wat if i cant make it? Retain? ITE? Werk? Stay at hme? Retake?" But if i fail, i m gg to break many ppl's hearts.. Many ppl are having high hope on me.. All tell me, " U can make it.. U wunt fail.. U are striving hard already.. Effort wunt be wasted!" I m seriously trying extremely hard already.. I m really making us of the time in sch to study and test myself.. I m just having more fear as the time gets nearer and nearer.. But still sum dun feel the FEAR! The only advice i have for all my frens who have been studying with me all this while "Give ur best shot and throw out everything that u know.. U have cum this far tgt with me and we can do it.. Prove those who think so lowly of us!" Those who are nt even putting effort and still are playing out there, U face the music urself.. All ur frens are gg to move up and u are still playing..

Tmr gg to sch again for the last day of revision in sch.. It start frm morning till evening.. But i really wish it can be pushed till night and i can stay till night and clear my art so that i wunt have headache and pressure that i haven finished my art.. Those who wan let Mr sham see ur art, tmr do cum to sch.. And just to inform u guys, Damien has finished his mock up and is ready for his actual piece.. So u should know, hw far we are.. He was nearly in the stage of giving up but he pulled back himself and climb ahead.. So dun give up.. Many who handed in paper 1 have given up on paper 2 and its such a waste.. Think abt the sleepless days and nights spend in art room, till 1.30 am still drawing and pasting! So if u are gg to give up, it really a waste.. I m nt gg to force u to do if nt i will get things like " Why u always pick on me??" This was wat someone told jewellcy when jew wanted to help the girl.. So i m nt gg say anything, u think for urself..

Things aint getting any better and i dun give a darm fcuk.. I m already very fed up with my studies and stressed up.. I cant be thinking abt all this non-important stuff now.. If u nt intrested to talk to me then dun talk.. If it must be always me chat with u, then SRY i no time.. U can be online the whole day but u just cant even say a hello or hi.. Must wait for me.. Then wait long long.. Wait till the skydrop also can!

My this post is kinda....... I m really very fed up with myself and i m feeling alot of pressure and fear for the lack of time! Just now before cuming hme frm sch around 7pm, I played basketball in sch for abt 15mins around there.. The only thing i did in the basketball court was to throw the ball as far as i could and shout out loud.. I just throw, throw and throw.. I vent all my anger on that ball and just throw out all my stress.. Aft the throwing and sum height stuff i go hme and i was walking hme, i felt a little more better.. I just walk and it started raining heavily so i quickly rush into shelter!

One advice... Nvr take the freedom u have for granted.. Be happy that u have the freedom... Dun just because u have the freedom, u wan even more freedom... Sure ur parents will care and be worried for u if u are staying out till late night.. No use quarrel and cold war with them.. They are still ur parents.. If u wan argue abt this topic, pls no use! I dun wish to... Do sum thinking on who is wrong and who is right and do some self reflection on urself..

Thats all i have to say and type.. I m gg ton again tonite till tmr morning.. Tmr morning before go sch have to go temple.. Early in the morning at 5am.. So have to wake up early, might as well ton and do some art and let Mr sham see tmr.. Aft cum back from temple then go for art..

I gtg start screwing my head with manufacturing already.. Gd luck friends for the upcoming fearful EXAM! Give ur best shot.. JIAYOU! Bye!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007 - 8:00 AM

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I M DARM TIRED SIIA!! I lack of loads of slp.. I have been toning for the past two days and i m very tired.. Look into my eyes and u will know tired i m feeling... Sunday night i ton till 4 am in the morning and woke up at 8am and go to sch.. Ystd night i ton till 5.30am and woke up at 7am as i have to go to sch nw for maths intensive.. I m also feeling very stressed up! I study geog last night and to my horror there's loads of concepts i m yet to know... Its very fearful.. I m lack of time too.. Hw i wish i can turn back the clock! But watever i m gg to ton as much as i can.. When i reach hme frm sch, i dun even have the time to rest.. And i m like having PHOBIA already.. I have to say thx to KaiYing.. She has been the only one tonning with me till late morning for the past two days.. And Jew too last nite.. Ystd when we ton, we test ourselves in the MSN! We will ask each other question and answer it..When we gg thru maths it was kinda stupid but we still managed to understand.. Hopefully i can clear my n-levels... Thats the only fear i have...

Dun u see the difference?? Dun u sense it?? The way we communicate and everything.. Its gg back to the past and all is just FADING away.. Hopefully things wunt go that far...

Nw i gtg to sch le.. I shall update more soon.. JIAYOU JYOTHI! BYE!

Sunday, September 23, 2007 - 11:22 AM

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Ok wow... Finally can update blog using sis lappy.. The com still having error and still unable to open to blogger page.. Nvm..

Past few days was great, WONDERFUL and ENJOYABLE! Ok, nt really past few days but maybe two days ago.. My teacher Mrs Magdalene Tan is 28th yrs old today(saturday).. So we being her students for the past two yrs had to do our part to repay our teacher rite?? So had a celebration for her.. We were informed by Mr shamsul that her b'dae is today but the prob was that, she did go back sch on saturday, so we had no choice but to celebrate it on fiday.. And wow! Everything was a rush.. On thursday, I, jew and other company go plaza and ordered cake... But the prob was we didnt know her age.. So we called Mr sham thinking he will tel us but no he didnt.. He said things like " Its an woman secret, so i cant reveal her age.." So we called Mag tan but she didnt answer, so we called Miss Ang but she also didnt know.. She offered to help us check... So we waited for ms ang's call but before she called ms tan called back jew's hp.. So we started panicking.. Hw to ask her?? Cant make her suspect! Must make surprise.. So i answer the call and asked her for her age.. Telling her we were doing survey.. So find it very weird but eventually she revealed her age! Its 28.. So we ordered the cake and find out price for the flower and we bought cards for classmates to wish her and go back hme..

Friday first two period was free.. So we wanted to design the board but we didnt had her photo and our class photo too as mr sham didnt help us print yet.. So we only ask our classmates to write cards and started collecting money for the cake and etc...Then last three period was art, so can design card but mr sham had his own work to do so he have nt print photo.. We had to wait.. So while waitting we play a new game wich jew introduce.. 0-0-7-PIANG! Funny game and i love it.. The very first time i learn to play the game was on thursday.. Who ever lose had to do forfeit.. So i and Yanteng lose so we did chicken dance and it was very STUPID! So friday when we played the forfeit was " GET SMASHED BY MS TAN's CAKE!" The people who lose were Jewellcy and Yanteng again.. So sad.. So ms tan had to smashed them... The sch bell rang and we followed our plan.. We were delayed by the photos.. Once we receive the photos, we all spite up.. Jew go back hme and change same as Yanteng, kuan yen, cherin, eudy and kamaliah followed eudy hme.. And i go hme too.. I bath, changed and rush to greenridge meet yanteng and cherin.. Kuan yen go back sch as we didnt want ms tan to suspect anything.. Then we walk to eudy's hse and then followed them to jew's hse.. I and eudy rush to plaza and bought all the wanted stuffs while the others were at jew's hse designing the two black board.. I and eudy rush here and there, fearing that ms tan might leave sch.. We bought the cake, flowers and drinks.. Of coursee nt forgetting my most important ICE CREAM SUNDAE! lol... Then go back jew's hse.. We were just in time..The board was ready.. And everything is steady.. I could even barely sit and catch my breath.. That was hw rush we were.. And the hot scorching sun was killing everyone.. I was sweating like a pig and stinking like a dog! Before we left jew's hse, ms tan called her.. She wanted to cancel the remedial and wanted to leave sch.. I was like WAT?? NO!! WE HAVE SOME URGENT QUESTIONS TO ASK! 10 MINS OF UR TIME! PLS!! I try nt to sound so fake and was rushing.. Ms tan was like " Nvm, monday still can ask.. Why rush?? Tuesday also gt remedial! Some more so little students.." I was pls lahh, we have reach the last stage! Dun leave yet.. So i try persuading her to stay in sch a while more.. We quickly hire a taxi and rush back to sch.. Have to really thank the taxi driver for accepting 6 ppl in the taxi.. So paid the fare and rush into sch towards classroom.. So everything was ready and we called ms tan.. Tell her to cum class.. And she was approaching and i made signals to alert the others.. All were alert and the plan followed.. Ms tan walk into class and just told me one sentence.. "I gt spy.. So wats up?" I still try to act blur and started asking her questions and arguing with her for fun.. Then cum the cake and flowers followed by the b'dae song and boards.. Mdm Ho hinted ms tan as she saw us rushing into sch with cake.. So ms tan was prepared..But eventually she was touched.. Many who paid didnt turn up.. Sad! They miss the joy , fun and laughter! So we were waiting for mr sham arrival when jew noticed that on the board something was missing.. A photo of mr sham and ms tan + a feather which mr sham pasted on the board.. So sad.. We didnt really bother to find.. Then maia broke her fast aft much force.. I did such a SIN! But she was very exhausted, and surely darm tired aft much rush and run.. So eventually she broke fast.. Nt only her hor! Amirah and sakina also! lols.. One for all, all for one! Then maia wanted to find back the feather, so i eudy she and kuan yen started walking down the stairs and started searching frantically.. Suddenly a black stuff caught my eye and i quickly run towards it..I was so happy! I scream out loud.. It was the feather and the pic.. It should have drop off while they were rushing.. Have to thank maia for asking us to go down and search... If we were lazy, we would nt have found it..lols.. Then proceed back to class and finally was able to sit and catch my breathe.. ORHH YAHH!! That was my next expression! WHERE IS MY SUNDAE!?! It was just opposite me! But it has melted and becum vanilla with chocolate drink.. I just have to tilt the cup and drink it.. No longer ice cream le.. But at least nt very bad..still had a chance to eat rite! Still complain! lols... Then followed by mr sham arrival and cutting of cake... Everyone had a portion and 5 small slices was left.. So i did my illegal service but passing cakes over to the next class which consist the malay gals.. They didnt wan to tell mr sham they broke fast.. Like very bad mahx.. So sry! So once we had our delicious cake, SMASHING TIME! No nt yet.. We played another round of 0-0-7-piang! This time more fun as it had more ppl but very confusing.. fun coz ms tan joined us too! lols.. So remember forfeit was SMASHING!!! HEHEHE!! Soon mr sham joined and it became more fun.. The person who lose was CHERIN! so ke lian siia she.. But game is game no pity de.. Haha so everyone CAKE IN THE HAND! 123 SMASH! Sum took photos.. The whole smashing incident was darm darrm darm darm infinity darm funny lorr... Instead all were smashed.. Only a few managed to escape.. I was taking video but soon cake were flying high in the AIR! So i run to my exit! Then everyone started running out of class and started aiming their target.. I made a beeline all the way to the art room.. Jew and Yanteng was after me.. So eventually the smashing was taking place in class.. Only three managed to escaped and they are.. JYOTHI! AMIRAH AND KAMALIAH! hahahaha... So we were darm fearful to go back to class.. Eventually yanteng starting chasing.. Ended up with JYOTHI AND AMIRAH! so we were the only two left.. No idea where was kamaliah.. Then i heard voice calling out to me.. Jew was asking me to help clean.. Then i heard kaiying or someone shouting out my name and asking me watch out.. So i was dreadful fear! So i just took the courage and slowly walk to class then... Jew say she swear that she wunt smash or i can revenge her.. So we took a group pic and just wat! Aft two pic.. The cake was flying! To where?? To me lahh!! Who again?? JEWELLCY TAN!!! She criminal minded.. I try escape lucky nt so bad.. Only a small portion.. So like she said can revenge and guess wat! Just right Soon chuyn was walking into class with a bottle of water to wash the floor.. I took over the water and ask maia and irah to witness the incident! The REVENGE!!I pour the water on JEW AND SAKINA!! hahah... Revenge mahx..So STOP! We clean the whole mess.. And guess wat again.. This time water was flying to me.. This time is SAKINA's turn.. So conclusion " Wat goes round, cums around!" So i was all wet but nt as bad as Jew was.. lols.. She was in best mess.. Sure can get reward de.. Frm head to toe.. Either cake cream or wet.. So We cleared up the whole place.. I stink, she stink, we stink and the whole classroom stink!We were all smelly like fish market fishes! Then we sit and rest.. We were watching all the funny videos we took...Once we re-view it that is where its very funny.. Then we decide to hang around in sch, so we started taking pics frm different angle and with different pose.. Hope u guys love the pics below.. Some very blur but still can see.. Thx to the cameras = kamaliah and Amirah... Thx to the photographer = All of us.. All gt skill leii!! Pic nt really arrange in sequence but u guys can identify.. Hopefully! lols...

All JEWELLCY's Fault!!! Put the blame on her!
After celebrating, RELAK!
The shoes gang! lol
EXCUSE ME! THATS ME! Dun see lahh! Such a SEXY pose! :P
Going hme le.. JEW! Look at camera lahh! Scare car is it??!!
KOOL! Wat a gang??!!

I M AT THE TOP OF THE WORLD! Nt really, only top of pillar! Dun laugh lahh!
This is JEWELLCY!! So sad u were smashed so badly! Haha... :P
Its scary up there, no joke.. I was the most BRAVE!! Lols.. BULLSHIT!
This two ppl are the only one who escape the whole smashing and watering.. IRAHH & MAIA!!

Group photo.. All who joined in the party..

All act cute only! Especially the one on the table and the one in YELLOW!!

That was really scary.. We are HANGING!! PLS SAvE ME nt JEW!! Let her drop! lol..
Nvr try this at all..!

She is AMIRAH! My pillar of strength! Breaking fast my evidence!!

Okay done with the photos.. Nice?? Gt sum cant upload and sum nt received yet.. There are videos of smashing and other incident.. Will upload but not so soon...

Okay that day was real enjoyment after a very very long time...And maybe thats the last enjoyment for the month?? lols.. Our one week sch break has started! Should i be happy?? Maybe... But this is when we have to really make use of the time real proper and do intensive revison! No more playing or hanging or photo taking! lols.. i still have many werk pending and its very STRESSFUL!! By next one week i have to complete, GEOG, MATHs, PHY, CHEM and ART! Art is already taking up loads of time.. But i m nt gg waste time on it le like wat i did for paper 1.. I just gg draw my best and do the prepatory werk real fast.. I m gg to focus on my weaker sub which is all of the above.. All standing at border line and if it continue then BYE BYE to sec 5! So i m gg to start tonning and torture my eyes and brains.. I will really wanna drill everything in.. If i get cranky then u guys sould understand... The next one week no sch but i will still be gg back to sch for revision and take past yr papers.. just now i was doing 2005 n-level maths paper and guess wat! I was darm shock.. The paper was extremely easy.. Serious.. Hw i wish my maths paper was the same easy as 2005 paper.. but nvm.. I shall give my best.. Suppose saturday need go back sch for art class, but dad mood nt gd so was nt able to go back.. The only ting he tell me is " U sure fail, U sure fail!" But u know wat, the more i hear it, the more i get motivated to study and prove him wrong.. But at times the pressure is just too much.. Anyway just wanna tell my friends who are havings prob nw, Dun think too much and concentrate on n-levels.. Yvonne also.. Dun think too much.. After the n-level, u can think all u wan and all u like.. U can think the whole day, night or rest of the holiday.. Nw main focus is N_LEvELS! Prove others wrong and move up to sec 5...

Okay this so called quiz have been done by many ppl so i checked it out.. Its kool! Its sum kinda perosnality test or sumthing.. Here is the results...

You are 69% perfect!

You are a great person, probably getting along well with everyone (well, maybe except the 0-16%s). Why don't you go out to raise money for Save the Children?

Your score on this personality test was 63%

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

Haha.. The results?? Erm.. Personality quiz.. True?? Center of Attenttion?? Needless to say.. Its obvious! lols.. Yupp, most of the time its gets up ppl nerve, i know it myself... One who will cheer others up?? Yup.. Love to do that.. Sad or depressed?? Thats wat i do best, Cheer u Up!

Irritated or Agitated?? Its obvious but nt said! Life full of surprises!

Ok very long stories and long post.. Might be my last post till nlevels are over.. I will nt update any soon.. Catch me aft two weeks for happening of revision and moments during examination.. Hope all are pleasant incidents.. Hope the best to my friends taking n-levels.. JIAYOU! Push urself.. U at the last lap already!!! GD LUCK and GOD BLESS!!

Taggs Replied Here!

Miss Vain: HAHA!! No lahh just play.. Dun think too much horr.. Concentrate on exams...

Yanteng: Dun need tell everyone de mahx...

Emo: Relax la! She was saying the truth...

Zhao Yang: link le!

Stephy: Relink le...

Honey: HONEY where's my MONEY!?? lols.. JK! miss u too.. must study horr!

Amirah: hahah... Nw no more spammer, no fun.. u too :)

Piing: I dun miss u, always snatch my QING AI DE!

Jewellcy: lols.. U tagged me 4 days ago.. So nw I call u?? U very bad, smash me! Criminal minded!

KaiYing: Yah.. lols.. Nvm.. will call and check u.. Must study horr.. Move up tgt, i wunt wait for euu! :))

- 9:43 AM

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HELP!! BLOGGER CANT PUBLISH MY LAST POST!!! :'(
Its having sum kinda error.. I will try repair and publish asap.. Sobx!
Found the solution le.. Last night till nw i was editing the post, then cant publish! Heart PAIN! So i sit the whole morning trying to figure out wats the prob and i know the prob already...
My post was tooooo long.. cos of the photos and my long stories... i dun have skills like kamaliah to summarise so much mahx! :P So i have to edit my post by cutting down the pics . So mafan de leii.. Time so much wasted.. Frm 7.30 till 11am, then sucessfully can publish post! Read and enjoy!

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 - 11:03 AM

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Ok i m in sch now blogging.. Its suppose to be Mother tounge period but we in comp lab 2 using com and playing social studies game.. I have extra time so thought of updating my blog... Today class is pathetic only 13 ppl.. The attendance getting from bad to worse.. Cannot help it also lahh.. Cum sch nvr do anything, only rot..

Time is limited.. only less than 2 weeks to n-levels... I have loads of art werk to do and loads of loads of revision to be done..ARGHH!!!!!!!!! STRESS!!! Really super rush man..

I will update more soon.. GTG! Tagg will be replied soon.. =)

Thursday, September 13, 2007 - 1:31 AM

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Today received art paper 2 topics... So its time for sufferings again.. The topics are easy as for wat mr sham said but i feel the questions are a little complicated... Any the thinking process more OMG! I cn think of wat i wanna draw but i dunno if its possible anot.. The thinking easy but drawing darm tough.. It has to be creative and original... I cant be copying someone's idea or pic.. So the thinking itself is difficult... Nw only thinking which is first stage or the whole werk... Hopefully i can move up different stages slow and steady... I wunt blog that often le... I m left with 3 weeks before n-levels again... I m having science, maths, geog and art... Art is gg to take up much of my time so i have to cut down on computer le... As today onwards they will be night classes on for art... 1 week and i m gg to really make use of the time to do my stuffs.. If i dunt do my art on time, it will add on to my stress burden.. I will get distracted and cant concentrate on my other subjects.. So its best i follow the timetable my study group have made.. We will focus art one week and other subjects for the next two weeks..

The malays have start their fasting for the next one month and i pity all my malay frens.. So sad for them.. But they are doing a thing which can erase all the sins they have done.. 'So should be happy nt sad! Yanteng and me will also be fasting with them for the first week... I wan see if i can tahan anot.. But i gt special discount.. I can drink WATER! They cant.. We will break fast together with them during our night class at 7pm+ if i nt wrong.. In a way i can slim down le! I m growing fatter and fatter day by day....

Okay before i end, i shall share a story with u guys.. Its from a story book which i have read a few weeks ago.. A very nice story.. Must say thx to my qing ai de [Yvonne] for recommending it to me... The title of the story book is ANNIE'S BABY! Ok i shall try to make the story as short as possible...She is writting to her dairy.. Like i update my blog, she will update her dairy abt her life..

This story is abt a 14 yr old pregnant teen writting to her only last fren, her dairy.. Annie is 14 yrs old and was a very decent girl... Scored very gd marks for examination and her mum is a teacher in junior high sch... Her dad is nt staying with them.. And she fell in love with this guy called Danny.. It was love at first sight.. Danny was gorgeouse and handsome and all the wonderful thing to her... Danny was rich too.. He drives car to sch and father own three restaurants and many more.. So they started gg on with each other and Danny is Annie first BF... All her thoughts was all abt him day and night.. So one day Danny invited Annie to his frens party.. Annie lied to her mum and said she was gg out to study but instead she was enjoying herslef at the party... Annie doesnt consume alcohol but she had to drink just to make Danny nt lose face.. She didnt mind doing anything to make Danny happy... Then Danny was drunk... He wanted to drive her hme but he stopped at a place and wanted to have a rest.. Instead he wanted to have sex with Annie... But Annie being a decent gal Turn him away but slapping him and pushing him away... So Danny was angry with her and didnt talk to her and showed attitude.. Annie felt so guilty.. She was crazy over him.. Her thoughts were polluted.. She asked Danny for apologise in his class but she was insulted by him.. He make comments like "mummy's girl.. small kid!" many more... She felt so heart broken.. She was blaming heself when she should nt be.. She waitted for his calls but to no avail.. Then finally he call her and apologise to her and started sweet talking to her again by saying things like " i was drunk and didnt know wat i was ding... I lack of love frm parents.. Too much pressure!" watever la! Then she was so stupid to fell for his sweet words and she started lying to her mum time and again just to go out with him again.. Again the same incident happen but more scary way.. She was at his hme and he tried to rape her... She again did the same.. This time the guy throw her on the streets and did nt bother at all... She had no cash and had to walk a few kilometers before reaching hme.. Agin she felt so guilty and apologise to him agin.. She was insulted even more then the previous time...She still blamed herself.. She made a decision which was to make Danny happy all the time as he lack of love.. And she was willing to do anything for him even to the extend of dying.. She would just give him watever he want.. Again she awaitted for his calls.. Her results were dropping drastically.. From bad to worst.. Relationship between mum became worst.. So the guy finally called and she was on cloud nine.. Her life was back to her.. She again started lying to mum again and again.. Go on to parties with danny and gang... Soon she became very violent and no longer the feminie one.. She started having sex with the guy and was having out with danny's bad companies... She was influenced to many bad habits... She argued with mum often.. She did sex often too.. And danny was violent to her.. He would slap her and hurt her physically but she was love blind and took it as the guy was showing her love! And she started doing it w/o condoms and forgets to eat the pill.. Soon she felt pain whenever she does it.. She didnt feel gd and was feeling sick.. Soon discovered she was pregnant and she was afraid to tell the guy and when she told him, he slapped her and say that it belongs to other guys... He asked her go for abortion and ask her go find the correct father for the innocent child... The only person left to tell was her mum and she told her mum... OMG!! Nth bad happened! Her mum understand her and ask herto give birth to the child.. Her mum was the only last person left for her.. All her frens left her and go.. The guy didnt bothered abt her and neither did her frens... They MIA!! So that was when she realise who will last forever.. Nt frens but MUM! Then she go thru many stages of difficulty to give birth to the child... She had to go for special sch for unwed mums.. She felts so disgusted and stress at many times... She wanted to die but the only thing which keep her gg was her mum! She still love danny like wat she did.. The love for him didnt change but she changed.. She turn back to a very feminie girl.. She gave birth and many diffculties was faced... Like money was a prob... She was too young to even handle a child.. She doesnt know hw to even carry it.. Her mum started diverting attention to the child instead of her.. Jealousy so she tried stupid things like.. Leaving the child on the pathment waitting for sum kind hearted soul to take it... Really someone took it away and she go crazy.. She started screaming and make a choas at the police station and embrassed herself.. She found back her baby and wanted to really start a new life..So she go on a two day tour with her uncle and studied alot of moral things like hw to treasure life and so on... Then she move out of the city and the whole country with mum and child.. But the love for that guy still didnt fade away..All left for them were memories bth gd and bad...

Ok.. Thats the story really summarise.. I cut down on many parts as it is getting late and i have to turn in soon as there is sch tmr too.. I will have to do art mindmap too.. So i summarise till super short... Go borrow that book if u wan... Anyway i have really learn many thing frm this book.. When i read this book i get frustrated, confused and many more.. Frustrated over the girls reaction.., She was blaming herself when wat she did was wrong.. And took every abuse as love... Confused as her thoughts was nvr consistant.. She will be happy, next moment angry and sad...
I have learn that Guys are nt ppl who u can trust..Nt only guys.. All the ppl around u.. Even ur most closest fren, ur x factor person.. They may look nice but they aint having gd intention... Trust no one.. Only ur parents... They are the only one who will be with u everytime u are having a prob.. Frens may disappear but ur parents wunt.. And god too.. There was one part when the girl was ashamsed to even go church as she was doing sins... So best is to trust no one and fear no one..
Next i have learn to treasure life.. Treasure every single thing u have and nt comment..
Next i have learn to look on the positive side of life.. Nth is the end of the whole.. There is surely a solution... And dying is nt the solution..
I have also learned that love cant be forced and love is blind.. Its always do more hurt to the soul.. And i know that once its a failure u have to move on with life and look forward.. But i have also learned that love is also true.. As in when she was hurt so much, her love for him has nvr changed... Even after so much of insults and beatings.. So wat i m trying to say is, DUNT BE IN LOVE!! lols... Thats the easiest thing.. U wunt have to bother anything at all... U can just pamper urself and be a gd and correct person..

Ok shall end here.. Wat u think abt the story..? Do feel free to drop comments on wat u think abt it... I wanna go catch some Zzzz... Will update when i have time but nt that often...Orhh yahh before i end and before i forget.. I must not forget to say JYOTHI LOVE KAIYING!! This is i kena forced de... lols.. Ok gdbye ppl.. CHILL OUT!!!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007 - 9:32 AM

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Now currently at school blogging.. Now having free period for mother tounge... So can blog a short post, fast and quick one.. Yesterday wanted to blog as my sis brought back her office com so i gt com use but i tried logging in to blogger but there was error and the com lag till i have to restart for dunno how many times... Anyway..........

Ystd was JEWELLCY TAN ZHI RUI b'dae... Wanna wish her belated b'dae to her... She's a nice gal... Very humorous... Nvr can u see her angry for long! When she angry, the next moment she will start laughing.. Ystd surprised her... Bought her a black forest cake, sushi and a big tortise soft toy... But i really gave her a gd smashing ystd.. It was my plan and i made it..! YES!! lols... She smashed me till very happy on my b'dae so now its her turn... But lucky we celebrate outside kuen yan hse the corridor if nt jew will not be able to wash up.. SEE i SO CLEVER! Gt plan and also gt solution de... ((:

Shall end here as i gg to go makan with ppl... Will update more if my hme the com is okay.. Till then Goodbye and CHILL OUT!!

Thursday, September 6, 2007 - 1:09 AM

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Finally i m back... Sorry to all my faithful readers... Haven bloged for nearer 1 week as i was focusing on N-levels... Now surely gt alot to type and say abt... The great events which took place and unforgetable experiences.. Read on to find out more!

Erm... Where shoul i start from?? Okay why not i start abt party?? Party at kueilee's hse.. It was great and enjoyable.. Bought her a jacket and A soft toy...She liked it.. I guess! Her mum cooked deicious food and we played fun games.. It was nearly 6.30pm and time for me to leave.. But from a elated person i became a furious person in a spilt of a second.. U know wat happened?? Her neighbour is a darm WATEVER! Her neighbour was standing by the doorstep of their hse( Neighbour's hse ).. So i bid farewell to kueilee and just step out of her hse... The first thing the neighbour saw me, the neighbour slammed the door hard.. She just slammed the door! I was shocked.. I was like WTH?? Wat happened?? Wat i did?? Then kueilee told me that her neighbour has some attitude problem.. Dun know hw kueilee and family can tahan them siia...

Next in line on the 31st august (Friday) was teacher's day celebration... Kamaliah and Jewellcy participated in the hairstyling competition.. They styled Mrs Mag tan hair.. She looked so like WOW!! Darm beautiful.. So when u see her u must sing the sean kingston Beautiful girls song! lols!! JK!! Then if was also fun in dunkingteacher.. But teachers were darm expensive to dunk.. 3 balls for $10.. But student 3 balls $2... Sum wanted to dunk me but sry NO WAY!! I dun have extra clothes and i dun wish to be drenched! Firstly Mdm zarina then Mrs sharon seow , Miss Pek, Miss ang and many other teachers were dunk.. Dunking the teachers was great excitement.. But wasted lots of $$.. Whenever someone throw the ball and it missed its shots, the only thing i will say to them or say under my breath was "ByE BYE MONEY!!" lols... Sadly Mrs mag tan didnt win the hairstyling competition.. The mistake was Mrs tan didnt turn when she was doing her cat walk.. So showed her front view ony.. If her back view was seen it would look darm wonderful.. It was the pattern of a flower and have butterflies and a crown too.. Super cute lorr... Its nt a big deal that they didnt win but the most honourable stuff was maia and jew made Mrs tan look beauiful on that special day..

After the whole playful hours in the morning we proceeded to plaza to have our breakfast.. A surprise was awaiting for me w/o me knowing.. Of course i wunt know coz its a SURPRISE! So aft eat already, i and kamaliah go to libary.. I borrowed a tamil story book as i had tamil paper on the following monday.. And i was very engrossed in the book i was reading.. Will share the story with u guys one day when i have the time... The Jew called and ask me meet them at garden plaza but i didnt wanted to go down as i was too into my book already.. Then she called again and told me that kueilee is in troblue.. People want beat her up.. So i was like wat?? Can u pls repeat! And she repeated! And the way she talked, i knew she was lying..Since they really wanted me to go down so i go... Then i was walking passed a few shops and i stopped.. I saw yanteng and gang.. And there didnt seem to be any commotion gg on so i knew they were just simply lying so i walked in IP zone and explore some tops.. Suddenly Yanteng came in and pulled me out and say " Faster!! Ppl wan beat up Kueilee le, u still go see IP zone clothes!" So i was like huh?? Dun tell me kueilee really..... So i walk there and i saw nth.. Everyone was like normal... A pair of hand reached out to my eye and it was closed.. I heard b'dae song being sang.. I was like stuned for a moment.. I saw a beautiful chocolate cake in front of me and all of them were singing b'dae song to me... I just couldn't believe it and i just cried... I was too touched.. The only word i say was "OMG! OMG!" I just cant believe my eyes and i was tooooo over touched... All were telling me nt to cry but i just couldnt control my eyes and tears.... I made a wish and cut the cake.. This time there wasnt and plates or tissues so we used our............ HANDS!!! lols... I cut the cake equally and distributed it to everyone...All enjoyed the cake and finally smashing time.. Kueilee started chasing me and i escaped from her.. Then it was eudy's turn.. And i managed to escapetoo but this person is very clever... She told the others nt to smash the cake on and and told me to call my sis as she was looking for me.. She came so near to me.. I thought she wanted to borrow me her hp to call but ended up she smash a whole lump of cake on my face and hair.. U know who is the great person?? JEWELLCY TAN ZHI RUI! I wunt forget u! lols.. She was clever... Then followed by Eudy all over my hand and yanteng and otherss.. My whole face was chocolate and thanks to Jewellcy... I made a beeline to the lavatory and washed up.. And just wat! Even in the lavatory there was smashing.. I just washed my hand and again they started spreading it on me like Bread spread kaya or butter! Again i had to wash up.. And of course i wunt forget to show my gratitude to all friends who made that day an unforgettable one and a wonderful one.. I would like to say thanks to JEWELLCY , KAMALIAH , YAN TENG , KUEI LEE , LAY KOON , EUDY , KUEN YAN , CHERIN , WEI PING and SI YING... Thanks for all the surprise, cake and the watch... And u guys are clever! U all bought the watch which was water resistant! Thanks so much i wunt forget that day and i hearts u all! And i would also like to say thanks to all my friends who have wished me thru email,msn and blogs... Loads of thanks.. THANK YOU AND SALUTE!

Last Sunday (02/09) was My B'DAE!! No celebration or anything.. It was just like any other day... I just wanted to have it simple as the next day i was having my N-level first paper.. So i wanted to concentrate more and nt get distracted.. But still go out with mum and sis..

Monday was my first N-level paper and it was my Tamil language.. The night before i cant sleep at all, i was studying but wasnt tamil but Social studies.. I slept late and had only 2 hours of sleep.. I set my alarm clock at 6am but i woke up at 4.30am and starting panicking.. Rmb i m still at hme! I cant imagine wat will happen at the exam hall.. So it was time i get ready and do last min revision.. So I prayed very hard and ask god to bless me in disguise.. I walk to lrt station and bought an ice milo to start my day and make it chill.. I was walking to sch and saw joanne and she was making me panick already.. I walkin towards the hall and saw candidates anxious and nervous looks make me panicked even more... And gues wat... Wei Ping still can cum to me and tell me " JYOTHI!!! I VERY KAN CHIONG LEII!!!" I was like WTH!! I m already very nervous and u are making me more nervous! Then Eudy's turn.. She walk to me and say " JYOTHI!! ARGHHH!!! I DYING ALREADY!! I NOW SCARED AND PANICK TOO MUCH TIll i forget wat i studies for SS!" I was like "OI! Enough and stop making me panick even more!" Then i heard the teacher make the annonucement " Candidates pls proceed into the examination hall now.. Leave ur bags and unauthourised stuffs out of the examination hall!" When i hear that my legs turn very wobbly.. I could like barely walk.. I was going to drop any moment.. I was in to the hall and just say my prayer and prayed hard that the papers would be easy.. I was able to do the letter writting in paper 1 but nt the compo.. The compo i tried my darm best hopefully nt disappionting reasults.. Paper 2 was okay but i didnt nt have enuff time but i manage to rush and fit it watever i could..

Tuesday was MT listening and SS! MT listening was ermm.... Easy... But the problem was that the radio was blur.. I could nt really hear the person read.. The extension was nt gd.. I had to wait for the whole passage to be repeated before i could cnfirm with my answer.. MT listening ended and we had nearly 5 hrs break to do revision.. We proceed to greenridge and have our fast breakfast and proceed back to sch and started our intensive revision.. There was no time wastage and no distraction.. I, Yan Teng, Cherin, Kuen Yan , Jewellcy , Kai Ying , Kuei Lee and Lay Koon remained focus and do our best to help each other.. Later eudy joined us.. I really have to thank NG YAN TENG!! She is a wonderful person with good memory and she really push me to rmb every chpt.. Till the last half hr she taught me a new topic which was imprt.. Imagine.. 1 hr before exam begins and there is sumthing i still dunt know.. She explained and made me understand.. Same as kamaliah, Jewellcy , Cherin and Eudy... Soon kamaliah joined us.. I pity her lots.. She is studying but nth is gg in.. She knows wat she's studying but the moment she goes to the next chpt she will forget the pervoius chpt.. Nt because she has short term memory but because she panick too much... She starts fearing and the fear over takes her.. I was trying my best to help her but i know i was of no help... I only tell her to say " Why fear wheni m here!" But there was no way i could help her in the examination of course! Nvm.. Try harder.. Its just SS!! So it was time we proceed to the hall for the paper.. And again i heard the same announcement and this time my legs were like stood rooted to the ground! I cant walk totally... My heart was beating as fast as a jackhammer and my legs were very heavy.. I had to force myself to walk into the hall.. Again said my prayer and was hoping for the paper to be easy.. It was time to begin... The moment i opened my paper and saw the word CHINA! I was like OMG! DIE! I taught it was the topic on the india and china border or something... And a topic which i was weak in! Then i paused for a moment and read the instruction.. 'U may use the background info to help.. Pls answer all the questions for this section.' Then i was like CHEY! Its is SBQ nt SEQ! Nt so bad lah... At least i know how to use the skills! SBQ was okay, can score for that section but for the SEQ i can score but nt very well because i messed up pionts and nvr really elaborate! At the 10 marks question i didnt have enff time to write watever i had to write.. Hopefully i made it!

Ystd was my english paper.. The night before and in the morning go thru all my high value words and did last min recap on letter format.. English i dun have much fear as i have the basic knowledge and i speak english daily at hme and in sch so its impossible if i fail it...But again, just speaking wunt help... I need revision! So i find paper 1 okay except for the letter.. It was tough.. As for Paper2 it was okay but very tricky... Even for a 1 mark question it required lots of thinking.. And time was just right.. I manage to finish on time...

I think that during this period of time when exams is concerned, u have to rest enuff and if u are like me who will feel nervous the night before, must learn to relax and chill.. I think that it is totally doltish to sleep during the N-level papers.. SERIOUSLY!! Its like , u have been waiting for a very long time for the paper and when its the paper u are sleeping! During the past three days, i forced myself to stay focus, nt get distracted and nt to sleep at all... I may hav rest for 30 secs and continue.. When i see ppl sleep, it just make me feel very agitated.. It like u have the whole time on earth to sleep aft the papers are over.. When nt make use of the time to check the paper and see if u can get 1-2 marks.. If u are sleeping that means u are darm confident that u will make it... Then u should continue to sleep.. Just an advice, this piont u still have one final step to brush up and move at the fastest speed.. Dun give up yet and dun be sad over the other papers.. Get prepared for the following paper..This is the time for u to decide if u want ITE or sec 5.. Hopefully we all can move up tgt.. And Mr lim is having high hopes on us already... WE CAN DO IT!! YEAH!! WHY FEAR WHEN I'M HERE! :p

Ok guys i shall end here and catch some ZZZzzz! I am darm freaking tired.. At least tmr i can wake up late abit.. Nt very early already.. This post is very long... If u are reading this phrase and missed out everything above this then now its time u stop reading scroll up and read all over again! LOLs! GTG!! Will update more soon.. Rmb to tag and leave comment before u leave.. LOVE U ALL!!

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KaiYing: THX!! I always thick skin de! :P

Kueilee: I also miss being in sec 1! Thx for the surprise.. Was touched of course there will be tears! lols..Update le! :)

Cherin: haha... hope the tip helped u! Thx for the gift and the wishes...Gd luck for ur N-level too.. (:

Emo: orhh okay.. Thx i will change to at least!Thx for the wish.. (:

Stephanie: will relink u soon.. thx!(:

Amirah: Yahh nice song..:)

Miss Vain: QING QI DE!! Thx.. will drop u comment.. Erm.. Thats will tell u...<3>

Saras: Haha.. Finally 16! First person to wish me on the actual day! lols... I LOVE U TOO!!

PiggyEudy: Thx so much.. I will de!! :P

Chewsze: Will relink u soon.. :)