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Wednesday, August 29, 2007 - 4:44 AM

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Part Of A Fool lyrics...
I've been there before

And I Just can't let go
The memory and pain of the hurt I know
Now deep in the night

And there's pression inside
Dare I follow my heart

An innocent smile
Then a walk in the night

There it's dinner at home
Served with candle light

And It's quite a while
Since I felt good inside

Dare I follow my heart
Do I feel something special inside of you
Do I know what you're really think of me
And the raindrops keep falling into my heart
And I just can't deny what feels so right
Do I let myself go and feel the rain
Or should I play with caution and refrain
Whatever I do when it comes to you
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool 
I know what's in store

Though I can't say much more 
A chance worth the taking has open its door 
And I can't say I love you

And I can't say I don't 
But I do wish I knew

Do I feel something special inside of you
Do I really know what you're think of me
And the raindrops keep falling into my heart
And I just can't deny what feels so right
Do I let myself go and feel the rain
Or should I play with caution and refrain
Whatever I do when it comes to you
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool
And the raindrops keep falling into my heart
And I just can't deny what feels so right
Do I let myself go and feel the rain
Or should I play with caution and refrain
Whatever I do when it comes to you
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool
Whatever I do when it comes to you
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool...




Tuesday, August 28, 2007 - 7:02 AM

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Today is 28th August 2007 and its someone's b'dae.. Guess who?? Hahah.. My AIAI!! Which is Cheong kueilee! Okay.. How to decribe her?? She is a very crazy person but very nice person.. U have to accept the way she is and u will like her.. She was my first new friend i made in secondary school... She was my sec 1 campmate.. And we bth were darm crazy during the sec 1 camp.. I dunno how to cook rice and neither does she.. But we have to eat..So we anyhow boil the rice but the rice wasnt cook.. It was darm hard... lols... We had hotdogs... For the whole night we just ate hotdogs... Those days were like wow.. Wonderful memories man! So that was how our friendship grew till today its lasting.. There have been many fight, quarrels and arguement in our friendship.. But we know how to forgive and forget.. She always love to make ppl angry de but u also must know hw to adapt... If nt u will find her very irritating but she's not.. Later aft sch gg to her hse for b'dae party le.. Gonna enjoy myself but my eye still hurts! :'(

HAPPY 16th B'DAE MY AIAI!! May all ur wishes come true.. Pass ur n-levels and move up to sec 5 together with me... Love u <33





Sunday, August 26, 2007 - 4:56 PM

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It has been some time since I updated my blog.. So give it a new look and new layout…Hw is it?? Nice?? Do leave comments on hw it is…

Prelims results are almost out, only left for physics and maths P1.. All passed except for geog.. Okay.. This time the results are shocking! Geog only 12/50… Need push harder… I dunno how I clear my social studies and hw I manage to clear my maths P2… This two subjects are darm shocking… I have nvr clear my maths P2 and social studies before… For social studies I scored a 28/50. Hw I know the marks?? During the 4 days break, we had study group.. We go back to sch and book diff teachers to clear our doubts.. So that was hw I gt my mark… I was like darm UNBELIEVABLE… I just scream out loud when I saw my marks.. I scream and scream like a mad person… Then I asked the teacher if there was error in the marks and she said “U wan have error is it?” But I just couldn’t believe my eyes… Aft receiving my social studies marks, I received my chemistry marks.. Erm…!!! Chemistry is a subject which makes me go CRAZY! It contains the chemical calculation, chemical equation, and all the chemical things which I HATE! I just cant get the formulas correct.. Always mixed up or the opposite… But this time I clear my chemistry… Nt very good mark but okay for a person who hates the subject… lols.. Friday had maths lesson so teacher announced marks for P2.. Only 9 passes and msg very high and blah blah blah… Then I tell yanteng “Dun need say liao.. Sure fail de!” So she started saying the marks… Then she said “ Jyothi.. 21/40….!” I was like WHAT?? U SURE?? I was darm freaking shock again! I nt very sure if I scream but if I did nt as bad as I scream for my Social studies marks.. Firstly, I think the marks gt error… U know why? I didn’t had time to finish the bth graphs.. And aft the paper end, When I checked my answers with eewin, I notice that most of the answers were wrong… That’s why its so unbelievable.. But if the marks no error that means, All my effort was nt wasted.. All the studying till late night and stop playing, all lead me to such marks.. Who ever did well in the prelim, `tap` on ur shoulder and I will say congrats.. Those who didn’t do well, `tap` on ur shoulder and I will say “its just prelim… Prelim the standard is usually set higher than n-levels.. Still left with a little bit of time.. Do whatever it takes to improve urself...”

Okay being a very gd person and a very wonderful fren (lols), why nt I share some tips with u guys on how to improve urself.. U may wan to follow.. It may help for some not all.. Firstly, go get urself a fren.. Pair up with the person… Daily call this person if nt whenever u see this person, have a test of him/her.. As in example: I and kamaliah are a pair.. So I will call her and start asking her questions like “What is Green revolution for?? Why India adopted green revolution?” Of course, I know the answer! Then I will see if she know abt it.. If she doesn’t then I will explain to her.. Two day later… I will call her again and test her the same stuff again and see if whatever I told her was useful… In this way, u are helping bth ur fren and urself.. U are helping ur fren to see if he/her know their stuff… U are helping urself to see if u know the stuffs urself and u are revising urself… Currently I m having pair with kamaliah and yanteng… I will call them and test them and they also will test me.. If helps me and them (hopefully)…. If u cant call the person also nvm.. U just have to see the person daily and for sure u will meet ur frens in sch rite??? Make use of the opportunity…Dun call ur frens and waste time talk rubbish (like wat I used to do in the past)…

Okay enuff on studies.. Studies gt shocking news but when I heard somthing on firday when my fren told me, I was even more shock.. I m not gg to disclose any information on who are the people involve and who was the person who told me… So dun bother asking.. If u know then GD FOR U! If u dunno then, hahah BAD FOR U! The particular person have trusted me and tell me all this stuff so I should nt break his/her trust.. I change the whole stuff into story mode bahx.. Hopefully u guys will understand wat I m saying… Okay… Firstly, u should accept the way u are.. Even if u are pretty/handome like some kind of gem or as ugly as ugly duckling… U have to accept the fact… So if u are born as a girl/boy… Then accept the fact.. U cant possibly go change sex or something rite?? Maybe there are some really crazy people out there who will so such stuff…But wat I m trying to say here is just “accept the way u are and behave the way u should be.” I share a story with u all.. There is this girl… She is a girl and she is having a girlfren.. Isnt it like WAT?? What a gal having a girlfriend??? Yahh that was hw shocked I was! This girl instead or having a bf is having a GF!! RIDICULOUS!! I cant even imagine.. Isnt the feeling like WEIRD!! Instead of loving a boy, u are loving a girl??.....!!! I have many frens… Consist of girls and boys… But nvr have a love a girl! Like OMG!! I have treated fren better then the other like, I have always treated kamaliah better then other frens but nvr have I had another feeling towards her or whatever.. She is still a fren but a person who I will say with a X-factor...Wat X-factor?? Try making frens with her and u will know.. And I just cant understand hw this particular girl can fell in love with another girl… And guess wat!! They bth are gg on.. As in they bth are steads! Who is the person?? Figure out urself.. No hints or clues are to be revealed… I find it super super weird! Like example : When someone asks that girl “ Hey who is ur BF?? ” Then hw will the girl answer?? “ Sorry I dun have a BF but I m having a GF! I may look like a girl but I m nt a girl!” LIKE WTH!!!! So the moral of the story is nt I wan to humiliate that person but I wan to tell all of u to accept the way u are… One day u still going to have a marriage and u cant possibly married a girl when u are a girl rite?? We all have sumthing called brains.. Why nt make use of it to think??

Okay.. I m already having high fever.. Nt because of the story but because of my sore eyes… I m having sore eyes… Very freaking pain man! Suppose ystd it was only my left eye but now it became my bth eyes… Bth the right and the left.. Ystd meet yanteng and borrowed her eyedrop but no effect.. The right is more pain then the left.. Its like someone punched me in the eye.. Bloodshot! My eyes are as small as Eudy’s… When I smile or laugh then no more eye already.. Its like I haven sleep for so many days and the eye is having eye bag… One more week to n-level and I m sick! CANNOT!! I m nt gg to bother.. I will still have to write my papers and collect results.. I m like gg everywhere with sunglasses… Even inside my hse itself! If I dun wear the glasses then others will get infected… My being a wonderful person sure care for others rite?? (some cant accept the fact rite?? Lols ) Tmr still gt sch… Hopefully it will be better by tmr… But I will still cum to sch.. I cant be taking MC.. Left ONE WEEK niia… But if in sch cannot take the pain the half day can mahx?? Lols.. Dun be shocked if u all see me walking around in sch with sunglasses on.. Its nt a new student but it is JYOTHI!

Shall end here.. Very long post.. If u read my whole post then at least u learn something and sure laugh rite?? If u only read this phrase then BETTER SCROLL UP AND READ!!! Lols…Wunt update anymore le, I guess! But if gt things share, then I will… But nw will concentrate on n-level first.. Okay final phrase..
GTG!! BYE!! TAKE CARE AND CHILL OUT!! =)

Taggs replied here!

Kaiying: Now better bahx... That time is i dun wan let u read de.. But u still read.. lols :)

Maia: So am i suppose to reply a :) also?? lols... :P

Piggyeudy: Updated... If u cant read then u must be blind gal! Orhh i forgot.. U must be laughing when u are reading my blog, which means u no eyes... So u cant see! :P

Elmo: Ask me link but u nvr link me back!!

Eewin: Why dun scold her in her blog?? Btw my blog was always the best.. Modal essay are found here!! lols...

Amirah: I spam u and u dun spam me... U spam kaiying... And i will entertain u at her blog... :))

Emo: Ok u were here but why emo??? Thx for visiting :)

Kueilee: Thx... :)




Monday, August 20, 2007 - 7:30 PM

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Prelims have ended and just two weeks two prelims! Bell has rang long ago but this type louder and more bell!! Sum nt even ring... Nt time use com no time chat and no time but all rush only! Haiz dunno results hw le... STRESS lahh... No time finish paper at all... Maths haix.. Geo needless to say... Others hopefully lahh horr... Wunt be updating anymore that soon bahx... Gd luck to all my friends sitting for their n-level... Ur bell should have began to ring! No sch next 2 days.. Remedials will be gg on.. If wan to join in call jewellcy or Yan teng... Hopefully u guys will cum and revise.. No time slack le! JIAYOU!!

Sorry kamaliah over wat has happened.. Dun be angry or watever.. I will make sure such things will nt happen anymore...

Things have nt been the way i want it to be at all... All messed up.. Was watching a very gd scenry by the stairs but was spoilt.. Just nt my day... All gt the wrong idea... Tmr will see again..

Thanks for all the taggs guys.. Will link and relink when i have the time.. sorry..

GTG!! Take care all...

Just nt my day at all.. Everything gg wrong way.. misunderstanding and everything.. Sumthings have to happen even i didnt want it to happen so soon..




Thursday, August 16, 2007 - 9:42 PM

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Have been busy with prelims and studies for the past few days... No time to update.. Will update more soon...

Just wanna say HAPPI 16th BIRTHDAY TO KAMALIAH! U have always been the best.. Hope u enjoyed urself today.. Sorry till the end of the day... Hope all ur wishes will cum true.. Hope u love the POOH and PANDA!!






Monday, August 13, 2007 - 3:00 AM

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I m having PEACOCK PHOBIA already!!! WTH!!! I was darm scared till i cry siia!!! Just nw i had to go to the temple to clear sumthings for my dad... So went together with sis and mum... And in that temple there was peacock... My mum was chased by the peacock once... She wanted to feed it but the way the peacock walk towards it she gt so scared and throw the bread on the floor, the peacock gt angry and jump on her... She quickly run and sit in her vehicle.. So just nw i went to the temple and the peacock was there but i didnt disturb it so i thought it wunt disturb me... I pushed the trolley and walk... I walk and i notice that the peacock was looking at me.. So i stop at this pillar... U all imagine the scenario... A pillar and the peacock was on the left hand side and i was on the right side.. I walk the peacock walk.. I stop it walk towards me... It wasnt intimating me but it wanted to bite me or sumthing... Summore the peacock so BIG!! The body small but the feather make it look so big! So i stop walking and i walk the other way and it was following me... Then i knew sumthing was wrong.. I shout out to my sis for help... Then she say slowly walk and walk... I tried but i cant...Panic engulfed me till my legs was rooted to the ground... I just stand there and scream... The peacock keep looking at me only... I didnt know wat to do so i leave the trolley there and i was thinking... Should i turn back and run to my mum vehicle so should i run all the way straight to my sis... So i decided to run straight as i know if i turn back and run i still have to waste time open the gate and by then the peacock will catch up with me.... So i just run for my life... I run and run.... Reach my sis and hide behind her... Then the peacock started walking towards me... I was like.......... Sobx... Why u following me?? I never do anything!!! Then my sis used a umbrella and block it... Then it when to hide in the trees.. So i quickly make use of the chance and carry watever i need to... I put everything on the trolley and pushed and guess wat... It wasnt my day... The trolley cannot move.. It was too heavy and the legs was stuck to the ground.. I was like WTH!! Nt now!!! And when i turn i saw the peacock walking towards me again... I gt so frightened... I quickly run 100m to my mum vehicle and hide in it.. I was so scared that i cried siia.. Wat a darm freaking scary experience.. PEACOCK PHOBIA!!!

Just now i went to greenridge to help mum and sis buy things... Wanted to meet yanteng and pass her back her camera but she couldn't cum out.. so didnt mind.. But last min when i was chatting on the phone i saw her.. I was like diao... Nvm... Then i was walking hme... Then i was listening to my mp3... And when i see babies my attention will be drifted away.. I was wah sooo cute... Then the mum was walking in front leaving her child at the back and the child like so small... Nt child but baby... Then suddenly the baby walk walk walk then drop... So sad.. I was like omg.. I quickly rushed to the baby and carry it up... The mum was nt even intrested! The mum just when like " Aiyoh! Walk properly lahh!" I was like WTF is ur prob siia... Dun u noe hw to take care of ur child... Its like the child just learn hw to walk, sure will fell de lorr... Nt once or twice learn then can walk prefect rite... So like heartless lorr! If the mum was nt intrested in the child then why even bother giving birth to it?? Might as well nt have one rite?? I was wondering, lucky the child fall on pathment nt the road.. If nt i can just say GD FOR THE MUM!!! This is hw the child get affected in its growth.. Haiz... No comments!!

I m feeling aint no better... Can i nt go sch tmr?? See hw lorr... Like very weak... Bad flu and high fever... SICK LAHH!! Dunno hw to express hw i feeling but very very weird can liao..Raining very gd time to sleep horx but i still can waste time doing notes and using com.. Have to wait for bro to cum back, he still werking.. Hardworking and gd bro lahh... Going to NS soon and sure miss him de...
Okay thats all for now... Wanna go complete my notes and catch some ZzZzzz... :)


We make them cry for those who never care for us...
We cry for those who never care for us...
And we care for those who will never cry for us...






Sunday, August 12, 2007 - 1:31 AM

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Today nvr go werk as sis and me was sick so stayed at hme... My whole family all sick... Frm 1st to last, all.... No idea why but aft the prayers all of us sick... Then my sis made hot barley drink for all of us to drink and my body is darm heaty!! As in too much heaty food.. My flam all is blood... And most of the time feel like fainting and very giddy... I sit at the sofa for a while then when i wake up the next moment i feel like dropping.. Like............. Then in the afternoon follow my mum go to werk as my other sis wanted to rest.. I was like darm happy... After a very very very long time following my mum to werk... Last time always follow mum, nowdays always folow sis... Just now only i found out that i was sooo STUPID for this one reason... And i know if i m gg to type it out here u guys will start lauging! But nvm let u all laugh bahx... All the while i think that this phrase was like this " A apple a day keep the doctor AWAKE!" but it is suppose to be " A apple a day keep the doctor AWAY" and nt AWAKE"... Aint i stupid or bodoh!!! Like WTH rite?? My sis was sharing this joke with me when i knew that is was away nt awake.. My sis was saying that " A apple a day keep the doctor away, but if the doctor handsome throw the apple away." So i was like wat away?? Its awake.. I had to call friends and check if i was right but sad to say i was wrong.. I was lauging at my own stupidity... Hw stupid can i be siia.... OKAY ENOUGH OF LAUGHTER!!! By the way did u guys know that u all are wrong in the first place! It is suppose to be " AN apple a day...." nt " A apple a day..." LOLxX!! Becum correcting english session siia... Okay enuff of it... Many of my frens b'dae is just around the corner... 5days , 17 days, 18 days... Like WOW!! One of them wants a very unforgettable b'dae.. So on that day i will get her the stars frm the sky... Like lolxX... But i believe in b'dae the most happiest thing u can ever have is ur beloved one celebrating it with u... That is the most wonderful thing... But anyway.. Just wait for the days to past and u guys can see wat u will get.. Dun be surprise if u get a slap! No lahh... Just kidding...

Finally i was waiting to hear a yes frm you.. Because i know when i hear the yes its time for me to get away before sumthing else jumps into the way.. Sumtimes its very difficult fo me to do so... Easy said hard to be done.. But one concept have to be remembered... Nth is impossible.. If u can, sure i can!!! But before i do it, i just sit and think... But i m still yet to get an answer... Wat will i gain?? I know wat i will lose... Who will suffer?? U?? or me?? Me for sure will but u?? U will, but again........................ Should I ?????

Sumtimes when u guys read my post will u all go like " Wth is she saying?? Wat should she or should she not?!" lols... This u have to ask urself... If u are summone who will say wat is said above then i think u guys are not involved or know nothing... But when u read it and u go like "Is she trying to say me? Does she mean about me? " Erm... Then if it rings a bell then maybe i am saying about u... Coz once i rmb my fren saw me online then she ask me " Were u saying about me in ur blog post?? " So i was like if it rings a bell then yahh... If nt then no... Nt one person ask... Many have asked so i write here better rite??

Its getting late into the night and i m starting to get scare...LOLS!! Weird siia... Dunno i m scaring myself or wat... All of them is asleep.. My bro and dad yet to be back... And i m alone in the hall using com and helping my sis so sum werk... Like................... -_-''' My sis was watching horror movie just now and she switch on the volume until so loud.. I could hear the ghost sound and eveything... Till i had to go in the room and switch off the television... Then in the morning my sis was telling me abt her dream a scary one... Abt summone breaking my hse door... And i was thinking, wat will i do if summone realli knocks the door now... Run, scream, keep quite and relax(which is impossible)... Nvm... Why fear when i m here?? lolss... Who is here?? No one!!!
STOP SCARING URSELF JYOTHI!!!

Kaiying better watch out already!! Monday settle with u!!!
Okay i shall end here and continue with my werk awhile more then sleep already...
Take care and Chill out ppl!!! :)

Hopefully my dream will not cum true..




Friday, August 10, 2007 - 10:56 PM

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Wednesday sch was half day and this year no concert in sch instead go to discovery centre.. And discovery centre was sianz... Just a while only... But the fun part was when the answering session.. All of us sat in a row and we wanted to beat the high score.. So we share all the answers.. But i gave one wrong answer to the whole group and destroy our high score.. lols.. That was darm funny... And two rounds also my fault!! Then aft that when to greenridge and finally purchase my new earpiece for another $13... If i knew my first piece was goona spoil.. I should have save up the money and buy a better one... But wat is done cant be undone so let it be... Then at night go to countdown at west spring sec.. Erm kinda fun... I go together with sis, bro, Eudy and Kuan Yen... They meet me under blk at 10 pm and we walk to west spring sec.. It was crowded.. The countdown part was the best.. All just scream and shout... Then had singing competition and aliff sis won the 1st prize... Her voice WOW!! Wonderful! She deserves the first prize compared to the other contestants who just scream on the mic and drag the high pitch! That was ear tearing! Then at night cum hme flat and slp like a pig till the next day... On this day itself is amirah's b'dae.. So i wanna wish AMIRAH RAZID HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY! May all ur wishes cum true.. And u have been a very gd fren... My pillar of strength.. Loves u loads!! :)

Thursday the whole day at hme... Nvr go out at all... Was tired and moodless.. Stay at hme and watch tv the whole day.. This year parade was kinda cool.. I didnt go but i watched the preview on television.. Water parade and largest platform floating on water! Fireworks was great.. Overall thumbs up! So me being a singaporean should be proud and i wanna wish SINGAPORE HAPPY 42 YEARS OF INDEPENDENCE.. ALL THE WAY!!!

Today no sch so go werk with sis.. Frens call me out to gym and hw i love i can go... Its just that i cannot go and u think that i go to work because of the $$$??? Pls lahh... I dun need this $$ at all... I have my own $$... Today werk half day as sis was sick and i was growing sick!! So left office and go yew tee have lunch and did facial... After that cum hme and meet yanteng and took my mp3 player.. So nice of her to walk all the way to my hme and pass it to me.. Summore buy milk for my sis!! Thx alot YANTENG!! At times u are the best but nt all the time...lols... Just kidding..

Wat can i say... Nt another one again! Who is really at fault?? The first thing u did was to scream on the phone.. But i was still tolerating... I also can scream back but wats the use... U scream, i scream then quarrel again?? Nt tired mehx?? U think i dun wan go gym mehx?? I also love to go gym man! I m growing fatter day by day... The way u say like i going to work for the sick of $$... In the first place did u even know that i m NT paid! If i m paid then everyday i can go werk liao lorr... I m only helping out my sis... I m nt gg for the money but for a favour... I rather slp at hme or study... The only thing u know is to shout or scream on the phone like everything also my fault! I can tahan at times but nt all the times... Imagine the moment u pick up the phone and u are talking nicely but the person is replying to you in a very nt happy way... Like u own him/her sumthing.. Its like WTH lorr... U dun wan talk to anyone right?? Fine i will also nt talk to anyone... I will just let things be... Nw i cant be concentrating on all this i have to concentrate on my prelims... Just let nature take its course...

TAKE CARE AND CHILL OUT PPL!! Gd luck for prelims!!



Taggs replied here...


Saras: Nvm i have bought a new one!! :P

Kuan Yen: lols... very sorry lahh... everytime mixed up de.. nw at least correct horr KUEN YAN!! :)

Yanteng: YAHH!! sure enjoyed my countdown but nt really fun w/o u and my deer.. If u guys cum sure more fun de!! nvm.. next yr bahx... lols... predicting the future already!!

Kueilee: nvm.. its over.. no use crying over spilled milk... tc =)

KaiYing: yahh for sure i will wait for euu... i miss u too... Dun care those spammers still u are the best !! :)





Wednesday, August 8, 2007 - 9:42 PM

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NO PERSON DESERVES YOUR TEARS , AND THOSE WHO DESERVE THEM WON'T MAKE YOU CRY...
Will update more soon...




Tuesday, August 7, 2007 - 5:06 AM

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Sunday was my grandfather passed away 16th day, which means its my last day to be a vegetarian! WOW!!! So had to go for the prayers in the evening at the temple... There was national day dinner opposite my blk but was nt able to watch it as the prayers was on.. SAD!! So once all the prayers was over i still had to wait till 12am after then only i can start eating all meat stuffs... But of course i wasn't that crazy to wait till 12am!

Monday sch was nt really boring!! I expected it to be darm boring but time run very fast! All the 4NA students were having their MT MOE paper... A mother tounge exam... So i dun have MT so i dun need to go but Mr Yap said that he wants to see me cum to sch and sit in the libary... I was like WAT??? LIBARY??? WHOLE DAY LONG!!??? They will have their paper from 9am till 12.30pm and u expect me to sit in the libary?? PATHETIC!!! So early in the morning i saw Ms Tan online so i asked her if i can dunt go to sch anot? But she said since Mr Yap wants to see u in sch so just cum... So i prepared myself to do the things that i wanted to do... I will do my ss, chem notes and art touch-up... When i reached sch almost everyone asked me " Hey why u cum sch?? Waste time siia!! Sit in the libary, might as well slp at hme rite! " Hw i wished i can! But still i can study, so nt that bad... But the time just run really fast... Its like i just sat down and started work and kueilee came in and ask me company her to eat... Then once i ate finish, when back to the libary and started work again and soon eudy and kueilee cum down again! And the time was only 12pm.. And they say that once u finish the paper u can leave.. SO GOOD!! Then had art for 1 hr followed by lifeskills for 2hr!! WAH SIAN!!! The CHARMS programme was gg on for 2 hr.. Sch ended at 4.30 instead.. Then help rizwan with his mindmap awhile before gg hme...

But before gg hme, i was a little fed-up and heart pain!!! MY NEW EARPIECE GONE!!! WTH!!! I just bought the new earpiece for $14 and its gone! One side of the earpiece speaker broke so cannot hear!! The earpiece i have been aiming for so long before i had the money to buy... And imagine u buy the earpiece just for one day and its gone!! JUST ONE DAY LEII!!! U hit me and the earpiece drop together with my earpiece... Still can laugh!! Nvm... There's nt even a word SORRY at that piont of time... Nt even that word.. Was that word so difficult to cum out of ur mouth??? U talk until very easy, " bring back to the shop and say faulty! Sure gt warranty! Bring back together with ur recepit!" Words cum out very easily.... All those words can cum out why nt just a sorry? At least in that piont of time i would have nt bother... Imagine u buy a new thing and the next moment i just break it!! How u feel?? U save the money for so many days before u get it leii... Then when walk home still can argue!! All u know is argue!! GD FOR U!!! So sad its gone!! I have to wait for a few more months before i can get a new one! Haizz....................

Taggs replied here!!

KaiYing: lols... Yes??

YanTeng: Thx gal... u sure mahx?? I m the best?? U nvr say i also know i m the best!! :P Take care too...

Amirah: YAHH!!! We can prove ppl wrong...


Kueilee: U dun even reply to taggs thenn tag u for wat???

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Friday, August 3, 2007 - 3:00 AM

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I m very super Tired and discontent... I have to hand in art today so no choice have to ton in sch so that i can finish everything.. Staying at hme and doing my art the advantage is i can take my own time... The disadvantage is that once i do everything finish, most of the time its rejected cos i dunno hw to colour or draw.. So today have tamil class so aft that rush back to sch to countinue art and everyone was rushing as the timeline was getting nearer and nearer! I had to give in everything by 6.30 pm and i am yet to do mindmap, artist statement, colour scheme and paste my drawings onto the board.. So it extend till 7.30pm but still was nt able to complete.. My mum called me hme so i go back hme.. I explain to her that its a must for me to go back then onli work can be done! So she allowed me to go back w/o my dad's permission.. If i ask my dad for sure he will ask me nt go... And mr sham took bypass.. He had the keys to the main gate.. So we can stay back in sch and do...So frm 8.30pm -1.10am i was in sch and this is the first time i have stayed back in sch so late and with my classmate about 20 pupils.. I could have made the choice of staying at hme and do.. If i stay at hme and do its nt up to standard and i will have to redraw.. And i m darm lack of slp.. The night before i didnt slp and imagine i was still in sch.. I was already dying.. I can nt bother to do! Its like my whole life in those werk.. I sit thru the nights and do art for the first time in my life.. So only i will know how tired and worked out i am...My dad was very unreasonable.. He was waiting outside my sch at 11pm as my classmates told me and he was already grumbling, so i dun give a darm... It nt as though i am in sch doing nth at all! Then around 12.45pm -1am, my bro called kamaliah's hp and my bro asked me to go back as my dad very angry.. So i said okay but they should understand! I have to pack up my stuffs and help clear everything.. Nt just because they call leave on the spot i must take my bag and go rite.. ANd there's only one key to the main gate.. I cant possibly ask one person accompany me down and walk up again.. And the whole sch is freaking dark! So we all packed up together and leave together... And when i walk out of the gate, i saw my bro and sis as they wanted to fetch me hme.. My sis was saying that my dad is super angry.. He was asking wat type of werk i was doing and why should i stay so late and many more.. She said i was finding sickness for myself... She said art is nt that important... If its nt important then why in the hell will i wan to waste so much of time and put in so much effort.. The words that demotivated me the most was " u cant make it lahh.... See ur drawing like shit! U cant even draw and colour! U finding ur own sickness.. He is gg to stop u frm sch! Go and die better lahh!! " I was like WTH!!! Its like the tears are already at my eyes but i just control myself... Tmr i have prelims and i m yet to revise! Do i wan to waste time in sch??? If today was nt the dateline, would i wan to ton in sch??? Even aft ton i am yet to complete! Why would i wan to put in so much effort if its nt important.. Nw the time is already 2.30am... Nw i have to bath, revise my tamil and finish off my art!!! I wunt have the time to slp.. In the evening gt festival and i have to go again!! Cant rest!!! Do i need all this??? I dun need to do all this if its nt important at all... I m already very tired and stress!! If this was the one which would decide ur life, would u do a gd piece or u wan it to be scattered??? WAn me do well in exams but when i wan study i cant!!!

Said i change alot.. I becum more playful... Nt studying and nt feeling the pressure but did u even know hw much pressure i m under!! I m too pressurised that i lost all my words... Its been days since i even have a gd slp... Once art is complete, i can rest??? BULLSHIT!!! I have to start my 'N' level revision and there will be paper 2 for art... And u think i m wasting time??? Yes i have been changing alot... I have changed to be a more playful person... Always go around disturb ppl... But dun u know my nature is like that.. I love to go around and disturb and play with ppl.. I dun think there is a change in myself at all... And when it was said nt by one but by two...... It was super hurting... Even the most understandable one dun understand me at all... Nt blaming anyone at all, but just myself and myself! I just feel like crying out my whole heart and scream out loud.... Its very difficult to fake a smile and its very difficult to be happy in the front... When i m alone and when i think of all the things , studies , pressure and problems... Do i have to suffer so much?? Sumtime i really cant take it anymore and i m just praying that i wunt breakdown.. I m still standing very strong and doing everything i can do but for sure at one piont of time, i really cant take it anymore!