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Tuesday, July 31, 2007 - 8:26 PM

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Its said... Nt worried or angry but speachless....................................................
Its sad to hear that frm euu...
Will update more soon...




Monday, July 30, 2007 - 5:54 AM

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Saturday go back to sch as i had art...I just left with a few days to hand in every single piece of my art for paper 2.. I was very shocked to know that all the while i was doing only half of my art which means paper 2.. I still have paper 1 to do and will get my questions next week.. I thought that there was only one course work and at least i can concentrate on my other subjects but end up gt two coursework just like wat Joanne said...Saturday frm morning 10 am till 6.30 pm was in sch.. Then aft cum hme was very tired so watch tv awhile and sleep...

Sunday was like OMG!! As in for today cos i blogging early in the morning... I started work from 11am till nw.. I m yet to sleep.. I m trying to rush watever i can do so that once i let mr sham see on monday he will tell me if approve or not.. Yanteng cum over to my hse in the afternoon and left in the evening.. She also was doing her art but she is quite fast.. She finished everything except her mindmap and artist statement.. Nw after sitting for so many hrs doing my art non stop, i also have reached that level. I m only left with my mindmap and artist statement.. Composition, colour scheme, graphic, motif all done.. WOW!! But dunno if approve anot!! Hopefully it is, if nt all my effort would be a waste.. Amirah was also doing her art.. So was chatting with her till 4am and i think she go slp le... Was chatting many things.. I was telling her it would be gd if cambridge examiners can see the way we are suffering.. As in the effort and sacrificing of sleep just to do the coursework.. And at least they will have a gd heart to give us gd grades.. But all just words only.. I have nvr sat this long for art be4! Only once or twice but i will still slp but today totally no.. Suddenly so much intrest in art.. No choice... If i was given a choice nw to choose art, f&n or D&t... I will still choose ART!! The stress is there for sure.. Art is suppose to be fun and nt stress but nw the art is like OMG!! So much of stress just to make prefect and blah blah blah!!Hopefully i will score well.. But the only fear i have is in my paper 1 which is painting! I always failed in painting... I dunno why.. I paint but nt like an artist, thats the prob i guess.. I fear that the paper1 will pull down my grades.. Thats why i realli put my heart and soul into paper 2 which is the cloth.. Was chatting with adam and i asked him abt his cloth.. He told me he was still sewing and yet to do the thickness.. I only tell him a few words... " Dun do already! Dun waste ur effort!" I really dunno hw these ppl still can YAYA PAPAYA like that.. Like dun bother, heck care and still can slack.. I still can salute Kaiying lahh.. She slack and slack but when she know that she was behind time, she really chiong till the last lap and clear it... Only left with her drawing which is killing her i guess... Only last day is monday.. Aft tat i think no more time.. Heard that mr sham will try to ask a delay for the boards, as in he will ask a later date to hand in the boards but nt the cloth.. So tuesday last day.. Today sure have to stay in sch and paste all my content into the 5 boards... I will try my best to survive and nt die half way.. If i die means i m really super tired.. JIAYOU JYOTHI sure can make it de!! =)

Just wanna say sorry to the person i quarrel with just nw.. I cant blame u also.. Bth u also at fault.. Sumtime u shld phrase ur words properly so that i will understand.. When ever it cums to this issuse there will sure be quarrel so u ask me settle so i settled for you lorr.. My words were a little too harsh..SRY!!

While chatting with amirah just nw, we cover many things. She was saying abt understanding and i can say that in a frendship wat frens lack the most is UNDERSTANDING!! Misunderstanding which will lead to many quarrels and fights.. U will always think negatively and make things worse.. A person with gd intention will always look bad in ur eyes.. U will nvr put urself in the other person's shoe but u expect the person to say sry first and u cant open ur golden mouth to say that word..Is the word sorry very expensiveor is that word very hard to say?? Just that word will make things much better compare to the bth parties nt giving in at all... And summore u will say things which will hurt the person's feeling but u wunt even bother! U know why, coz u just wanna say wat u feel like saying .. Then ur job will be done... The hurt person will feel very broken and do soul searching and watever lahh... So many things!!So to cut all these quarrel just say a word SRY and learn hw to forgive and forget.. Try to understand ur frens and always be in their shoes first be4 fighting for ur rights... And look into my eyes and say those hurting words... U dunno that u are hurting but u keep piercing the knife into the wound!


Was also chatting with amirah over marriage.. So she shared sumthing with me...In marriage there will be 3 RINGS..
1st ring is Engagement RING!
2nd ring is Marriage RING!
3rd ring is ....................................
suffeRING!

My sis send me this email and i wanted to share.. It would be gd if u can read or understand malay.. Because it has sum malay words.. If u nt sure then check out the meaning.... Its also sumkind of be4 and aft marriage stuff!! Stress level very high so why nt sum laughter to booste u guys!

Marriage Life Before and After !!

Before marriage.
Darling here.. darling there...
After marriage.
Baling here... baling there..

Before marriage.
I die for you. . .
After marriage.
"You die, up to you. "
Lagi lama married.
You die I help you!

Before marriage.
You go anywhere. . I follow you.
After marriage. .
You go anywhere. . up to you .
Lagi lama married.
You go anywhere better get lost!!

Before wedding
you are my heart, you are my love"
After wedding
"you get on my nerves. "

Before wedding
"you are sweet and kind just like Cinderella"
After wedding
"you are worse than godzila"

Before wedding
Roses are red, violets are blue. Like it or not, I'm stuck with you
After wedding
Roses are dead, I am blue. You get on my head, I will sue you

Before wedding
Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La
After wedding
You want to go, he asks you wait-la
Before wedding
She looks like Anita Sarawak
After wedding
Don't know whether katak or biawak

If u understand it u will sure laugh.. If u dun understand u will be still staring at the com.. LOLs!! Okay its time i pack up and get ready for sch.. Bye Bye!! :P





Saturday, July 28, 2007 - 7:52 AM

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WAH!!! Busy Busy Busy is all i can say! I have been very busy for the past few days... Art deadline is on monday and i m choinging already.. Everyday 6pm-7pm then cum back hme.. By the time i cum back hme i m dead flat, very tired! Its like my cloth was determining my life! I have finally dyed my cloth finish.. It took me hrs to dye the cloth.. Aft one day i start taking out the threads of the cloth which was killing me... I had to sit till late 3am in the morning just to finbish untie my cloth and show it to my teacher the next day.. Sewing the thickess of the cloth was difficult.. Followed by pulling was painful! Had many blister.. Dying of the cloth was nt so bad as its just dipping in colours and preserving the cloth.. Finally the untie part was like OMG!! I had to do it very slowly and make sure that i dun cut my cloth and create a hole.. If i make one hole in the cloth it will turn out to be 4, so i was darm careful!

Ystd the whole day was great to sadness! It the morning was very hyper, happi and more.. Then aft sch had art so have to go and i manage to iron my cloth and confirm my drawings.. Mr shamsul had to go to mosque but he cum back as he had NPCC and also had our class art.. So he was busy.. He had to go up and down everytime.. I was also like up and down.. Then when i go back to class finally, Kee Lam (my classmate) called me and ask to see Mr sham's art piece.. When i see his art piece, i was like OMG!!! I run out of my words.. Just dumbfolded! I keep asking who did it but no one owned up.. They just say they dunno... I was also like " I dunno siia.. I nvr saw anyone breaking it..." Its like i was all the while at the area which the art piece was but if it break i will sure see de rite?? And if it breaks for sure there will be sound and i hear nth... Maybe when i was away it happened.. So wat could we do?? How to tell Mr sham?? I was totally blur and stunned! The time was already gg to be 6.30+.. I Just look down at the parade square and Mr sham was with his NPCC students.. He was so happy in a very gd mood and still talking very happily.. I started to be in tears for him.. He had to give in the art piece for exhibition or his work, something like that... Then it is destroyed.. Then everyone started crying for him.. Then i saw Mr sham leave the parade square and take the lift up to the art room and i was like OMG!!! Hw to tell him?? Hw he gg to react.. Then he walked passed us and ask " why wat's wrong with u guys?? Why saw a ghost is it??" And he entered the art room... i didnt wan to enter as i dun wish to see his reaction! So i stand outside and see.. He was happily drawing till he stopped and ask my class wats wrong.. Then jewellcy told him that his art peice was destroyed but dunno who did it and the next moment, Mr sham's eye turn red.. He asked who did it but we dunno.. Mr Sham was dumbfolded and he like just breakdown on the spot.. And he cried!! Everyone could nt tahan and all turned into tears... We felt that we all were very useless.. We were all the while in the room but we cant even take care of his stuff... He trusted us so much that he left the room to us.. Hw could the person be so heartless to do such a stuff?? U dare break it already then dunt admit?? By then the time was already gg to be 7pm... Mr Ong ask us to pack up and leave and cum back tmr... Mr sham didnt becum angry at all but he was super sad... Its like the first time i see the hyper and happy teacher cry! I find him very pitiful and is very sad for him.. Hopefully he still have the time to re-do another piece and submit it... SRY!!!

STRESS is another word!!! I m just too stress already! Aft handing in my art coursework, my prelims will begin! Its like so close and short time everything rushing!! Need to chiong in my revision already!!!!




Tuesday, July 24, 2007 - 12:42 AM

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Changed blog song from 4 in the morning to Wait for You by Elliot Yamin.. Nice song and nice lyrics..

This few days have been very eventful... My bro's eyes back to normal.. He took medication and he's alright.. He was sensitive or allegied to the injection, i guess! Nw he okay le.. The eyes no longer scary already!! Nt fun de!! lols...

My grandfather has passed away.. He passed away on saturday.. He is 83 yrs old this yr... He erm... Wat can i say?? I dunno much abt him as we are nt in contact.. It has been yrs since i talk to him as he cant talk.. I haven seen him for long but still gt visit once in a blue moon de lahh! He was admitted to hospital as he was having breathing difficulties and last thursday, the doctors told my dad that my grandfather would only last 2 days the most.. He was counting for his days already.. He was suffering before he died.. He had his leg amputated and only had one leg.. He breathes in a very difficult way.. He breathe in and its very difficult for him to breathe out.. Like the body stick together like glue... He very extremely thin.. No meat.. But in a way it was gd he died then to suffer more and feel more pain..So ystd attended the funeral.. Being one of the granddaughters we had to do our duty but doing some of the prayers... So i was already told that i had to be vegetarian for 3 days.. When i heard that, i was already complaining and making a hell.. But aft i have done my duty, my mum told me that i had to be vegetarian for 16 DAYS!! I was like WAT??? 16 DAYS!!! I 3 days already like wan die, then u tell me 16 days??? Summore my pattern is everyday aft sch go eat KFC or wat one leii... Hw i go find vegetarian food?? Vegetarian btw means... I cant eat meat, only vegetable! So no choice, if i dun follow the rule many bad things will happen! so bo pian!

Usually monday morning meet kueilee eat breakfast at fajar mac and eat fish burger.. But today changed to harshbrown and ice milo! Then nvr eat in sch.. After sch bought cheese fries.. Still gt KFC!! lols.. For the next 15days hope i can survive! I m already DYING cause of my ART!! Wah!! Very very super jialet leii!! I dunno wat to say but i know i m totally behind time.. End of july i have to hand in my art 'N' level coursework! All the things like my cloth and drawing.. Cloth should be dyed and drawing all 5 board should be complied! End of july is like just 1 more week! If nt including sunday, then its like just 6 pathetic days leii!! WAHH!!!! Nw i m gg to finish my cloth le.. 6 days u know wat i m left with?? I have to dye my cloth which will take hours and i have to make it dry for at least 4 days then untie which will take me 1-2 days.. Then for drawing.. I need my mindmap which is undone.. I need my 1st hand studies which are always rejected by mr sham.. Follow by graphics and motif which is almost done.. I still have my colour scheme and composition which is stil nt realli completed and i have to wait to untie my cloththen only will i be able to draw my composition that means i m realli lacking of time!!! I today stay back in sch to dye my cloth by time constraint was the prob.. Start werk at 4pm and had to wait for water to boil and will take me abt 3-4 hrs to dye the cloth which means will end at 7-8pm.. So i changed the dying of the cloth for tmr.. And tmr again i have my MT class at teck whye!! I have to rush thru everything!! Revision nt completely started and prelims are just 2 weeks are and 'N' level is just 1 mth away!!! WAH!!! Can i just turn back the clock!! I have so little time left!! Can i complete my art on time?? I m also very worried for my classmates.. I have already pulled my cloth and sum are still sewing and many still left undone leii and still slacking lor!! Ain't u guys scared orwhy u all nvr panick de??? Even nw i dun have the time to update but i still have to rest ! I cant be a robot, just do and do and do, non -stop right?? For the next one week aft sch everyday gt art and i must make sure i stay back till watever time and get everything done and start concentrating on my prelims and n levels!! Art is killing me and other subjects and also killing me! But i must rmb one thing! If i dun clear it this yr there wunt be a second chance for me!! STRESS!!! WAH!!!

Maybe sumtimes when sum things u say, u shld consider abt others feeling.. U may just say but nt thinking abt hw others will feel and wat others might think.. This nt only go to the person i m trying to say but it goes out to all.. U must really think before u say things out! After u say already then u think gt use mehx?? U may only think that u are saying saying only mahx but u dun know hw hurting it is and hw harsh the words are piercing in me.. Think before u talk, nt talk finish then think!

Sumtimes i wish i could just nt bother at all and dun care anything but i cant..! U are so near to me and i cant bring myself to nt bother! Sumtimes when i try nt to bother u keep appearing... Some things which i dint expect u to say also is being said. Did u think before u said?? Maybe i should nt bother as i m nt someone related to you at all??

Nt gg to waste my percious time on all this friends and other problems le lahh!! Nw my priority is STUDIES STUDIES AND just STUDIES!! Nt gg to update that often... Back to my Art werk!! Take care and Chill out ppl!!

Taggs replied here!!

Saras:
Yupp.. RIP!!! Dun be sad! :(

WaWa:
Haha.. Thx gal for the care and concern!! U take care too! :)

Yanteng:
Thx gal! Hahah the english is stopping already!! U find it very helpful but ppl find it very annoying.. U see the benefit but the others dunt! So too bad.. I shall stop it.. Take care and make sure u eat often horr!! Always fishball fishball !! :P

Nngiie:
My bro's fine.. Thx :)




Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 1:10 AM

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REALLI PRAYING HARD THAT NOTHING WILL HAPPEN TO MY BROTHER!!!

My bro have been very sick for the past few days, no idea wat was wrong with him.. But he kept complaining of leg pain since the day he came back frm m'sia... So my father him to this malay doctor then massage and everything! Then today he complained of more pain and was totally unbearable for him.. So he went to the doctor oppasite ten mile junction.. He had to put an injection to stop the pain, i guess! I wasnt at hme yet.. I, My mum and sis go out to settle sum things.. But the time i came back i was very tired already! My dad was cooking but i didnt want to eat! So i go slp.. Then my dad was darm angry that i dint want to eat and watever lahh! Then i wake up but just to satisfy him but nt to eat.. Then i heard my sis asking my bro wats wrong with his eye.. His eyes looks very super swollen! It like the eye balls are sticking out! I was like OMG!! Wats wrong with him?? I still didnt cum out to look at him as i was avoiding my dad.. Eventually i cum out of my room, to my horror! My bro wasnt himself! As in his whole face change.. His eyes were darm swollen as though he never slp for a 1000 yrs or summone have punched his eyes repeatedly... Then when i asked my bro, " wats wrong with your eyes?". He didnt even panic or watever, he just smiled and say nth's wrong lahh, maybe when dad was cooking too much smoke so swollen.. I knew it wasnt because of the smoke! I had a bad feeling that sumthing was gg to be wrong when my own left eye started swelling! I dunno wat happened to my eyes but of of a sudden it was darm painful and it started to swell but i thought nth was wrong, but i dont know if it was a signal to tell me that sumthings gg to happen to my bro.. I m just realli praying very hard for my bro.. Nw my mum, sis and dad have brought him to hospital.. Its either he is have allegies to the injection he have received if nt sumthings else... My bro is a very nice person.. He is a very loving, caring and good bro, i ever have! He will just give me eveything i wanna have! *sobx sobx*

GOD PLS SAVE MY BRO!!!




Tuesday, July 17, 2007 - 1:24 AM

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Quite sum time since i last blogged.. Finally back.. Nt no time but focusing on studies more.. Blogging if i realli have the time.. Like now... In the middle of the night! My post gonna be long, read on and check out!

I have changed my blog song again.. From I cry to 4 in the morning by Gwen Stefani...I m trying upload songs into imeem but gt prob.. I upload full song but appear only 30 secs de.. Dots lorr!! Nice song.. Hope u guys like it!

For the past 2 days, GREAT MAN! Realli love my saturday and sunday despite my tution.. My dad left for malaysia 2 days with my bro and uncle and wat can u expect?? FREEDOM and ENJOY!!! Two realli fun days with my mum and sis and frens! WoW!


Saturday in the morning went to office with sis.. In the afternoon came back as i had to go for my first tution class.. My dad left for m'sia late afternoon.. So there was no where we could go.. Suppose i thought of cancelling my tution.. Like first day and dad out of country! Why nt enjoy?? But 'N' level is getting near and near! So near that once u close and open, Its 'N' levels already! So when for tution for abt 2hrs.. Studied chem and was kind of satisfying! I nvr knew sum things abt chem topics and my doubts were cleared.. Aft my tution went to dinner at sheng siong with family w/o dad and bro... Just eat and eat! Then came back hme early as my sis had to go werk next day..


Sunday was more fun! Early in the morning at 8.30am meet eudy and yanteng and go gym.. We took taxi frm my hse to the CCK stadium. When we reach there, go to stadium and run one whole round the stadium.. After run go to gym and started our exercise.. For abt 1hr 30 mins.. After exercise finsh, change and everything we go to lot 1 and had our lunch.. Walking in and out of shops, marching like sum crazy person was darm funny! After had our lunch, go to teck whye meet kueilee and play basketball at blk 8.. Play awhile then eudy had to go back to lot 1 as she was meeting her parents watch movie.. Then i and yanteng left soon... Took taxi to my hme and then yanteng hse and thx for paying the taxi horr yanteng! Yanteng go hme change then was suppose to cum over to my hme to do art but i was very tired and i knew she also was very tired.. The time was nearly 2pm and i had my tution around 3pm/ 4pm.. So i called her nt to cum over but i mum ask her cum over.. So she came over.. Sat under my blk the playground and do sewing.. After a while yanteng cum my hme and use comp, chit chat and disturb ppl.. Yanteng left and i gt ready to go for tution.. Before that when to plaza fetch my sis.. Studied maths.. Fectorisation and many more.. Having tution in a way was gd as i can realli clear my doubts.. and understand more better.. After tution mum fetched me and cum back hme.. Had to go greenridge as i had to return sum VCDs... Meet yanteng at greenridge and she came over to my hme do art again but this time was more to drawing then to sewing.. Very fun lorr.. My sis was telling her many stories and keep laughing was superb! Around 10+ she left and soon my dad arrived back hme.. No more enjoyment already! siann! If that sunday was my daily life style.... Wow gd horr! But have to wait long long b4 that time cum!


Monday sch was half day as the 4 express was having their listening compre but except the 4 normal academic as we had our adam khoo booster session... Mr ramesh was there again but this time with disappiontment.. He was shouting but all for out own gd! He did satistics of hw many ppl will pass.. 1 out of 3 was his rough calculation.. That means 1 will fail and 2 will pass out of every 3 ppl.. When he talk abt the time.. WE HAVE TO FIGHT AGAINST TIME! Really left with very little time and many things still left undone! Must really rush and make sure of every SECOND! Those who are catching up= Try harder and nvr give up! Those who are prepared= Gd for you.. But those who still thinks that u have the all the time in the world = Can u spare me some?? Gd luck thats all i can say! After adam khoo help libarian stack chairs and arrange table.. But u know wat we we doing?? We were making chairs FLY! As in slide nt throw! Then left to greenridge eat luch and back hme!

Today is EUDY OH WAN QIAN's B'DAE and i tried calling her hp but she purposely switched it off ! Just wanna wish her a very HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY MY FREN! Hope all ur dreams and wishes will cum true.. Do well in 'Ns' and go to sec 5.. Buy ur photographer and in the future get ur greatest obession.. U dun wan accpet b'dae gifts summore! Must start to think positive and nt think of killing and dying! Nw already 16 yrs old horr! In secondary sch horr! All the best gal!


Before i end.. Like i said in my pervious post, i will type out the poem for u guys to see.. Darm touched by it.. The words and the way it is written is just simply wonderful and great! I was in tears when i read it! That was hw nice this poem was and hw much i was touched! Read it!


It was late Sunday night when you said goodbye

I knew right then that my heart would cry
You felt so cold & it hurt me so
I loved you so much, that I let you go

A love so true it felt so sweet
For a year of my life, you swept me off my feet
I tried everyday, to remind you of my love
For I knew you were precious & sent from up above

I held you every moment, I held you tight
Praying you would always love me everyday & everynight
But time went on, as it tends to do
And with time passing, I fell even deeper for you

Your love grew tiresome, it tore me apart
And you broke every promise, when you broke my heart
I couldn’t stop crying, it hurt me so much
For I longed every moment to feel your gentle touch

I gazed into your eyes, to see only grey
There was no need for words, I knew what you had to say
I held on to you, in depths of my heart
Regardless of how it tore me apart

My love still remains, though the betrayal you’ve done
Messing with my best friends & having your fun
I stood by your side, though you didn’t want me
And I loved you endlessly

I still love you but time’s mended my heart
But never shall your memory part
And you will always have a special place within my heart

You will always be the first who touched me so deep
And in my heart will I always keep
Memories of you and me, together for eternity

You taught me how to love & DARLING,
You will always be my love!

Goodbye my love! Life still goes on!


Okay shall end here and catch some sleep.. Bye Bye and CHILL OUT PPL!!!


Taggs replied here!

Saras
: lols.. wat did i lie to you arh??lols... I love u loads too<33

Kuen Yan
: lols... 80% nt bad.. why nt take again and beat the record??

PiggyEudy
: I dun wan! Wat can you do.. U dun wan blog ur prob.. The link will still be there :P

Yanteng
: Okay i have informed lay koon.. I also have credits de horr! Gd to make a fren then make a enermy rite?? Realli had darm many fun with u siia!! :)





Friday, July 13, 2007 - 11:44 PM

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Coming to the end of the week! FRIDAY the 13th and things didnt realli turn out well for me today.. Nt very bad in the morning.. Fun and was very hyper! Especially during english! Had to find answers frm newspaper.. We only had clues.. Darm fun.. Making noise and shouting at each other! We were suppose to do in groups.. So in my group i had abt 6 ppl.. We were so called competing with the other group with was sakinah's.. Then find and find the answer and sum totally cant find... Sakinah tear away my newspaper just to nt let me find the answers.. But of coz there is a kind soul who will pity for me de.. Thx Amirah! English the last few periods of the day so after that end of sch but before the sch ended, hidayat (classmate) let me see a article frm the newspaper.. I was darm touched when i read it! Next time then type out as nw freaking tired and already half dead!

Eudy i wanna say sorry behalf of my sis! I dunno wat gt into her and i dunno why she did such a thing! I m yet to ask her and i will make sure i ask her and get things clear.. I m darm freaking sorry gal!



GTG!!! TAKE CARE PPL!!




- 5:01 AM

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Nowdays can onli find me online most in the early morning.. At night awhile online then run away already.. Ystd sch was the same.. Suppose i had my maths mock exam but end up nt going as i had my MT class... So today i will be taking the mock exam.. Ystd the whole day i was limping in sch!My right leg darm PAIN man! I also dunno why pain, in the morning i wake up the first thing i knew i was unable to walk.. I tried finding 'Koyok' a piece of patch which they will put for strains but to no avail.. So had no choice.. Still had to go sch.. Ystd aft MT when to 160 teck whye and played basketball with kueilee.. Play awhile onli and thats the first time i m playing at thst court...Quite fun but i had to go... Thats all for ystd..Hope my day today will turn out gd.. Hope i can do the maths mock paper.. JIA YOU JYOTHI!!
Erm... Just wanna share sum things before i end.. I dunno if i have share it before but i just feel that everyone lack a concept called "UNDERSTANDING"..As in i m saying frankly! U may say that u are hurt but did u know hw much u also hurt her? U saying ur own side of your story but why nt consider the other side?? I think i better nt say liao! If nt i will sure get angry and my post will continue and i wunt have time to so my werk..
Can i erase it forever?? I will!
OK i shall end here.. I gtg start my werk! BYE BYE!!




Wednesday, July 11, 2007 - 5:22 AM

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Monday is the begining of the week and the day was darm tiring! The night before i slept only at 1+ nearly 2 and i had to wake up at 5am in the morning! WTH!! My bro wake me up and said dad wanted us to go jogging.. I was WAT!! JOGGING??? Then i heard my dad's voice and i knew he was awake and he realli wanted us to go jogging.. I was like very fed up.. Darm lack of slp lorr and i have english oral the same day.. Then wash up, gt ready and suppose to go to bukit timah hill for jog but instead we went to bukit batok nature park or sumthing like that.. And early in the morning the sky is very dark, u cant see anything in front of euu.. He stoped us at the bottom and asked us to walk up to the top.. It is like a steep slope upwards direction.. So we started walking.. Nt onli me lahh of course! Tgt with my other sis and my bro.. We walk up and i was already a little tired then he ask us to walk down again and walk up again then aft finish walking walking up, we had to walk up stairs! There was abt dunno hw many steps and he asked us to walk up..By the time we walk up and down the stairs the time was already 6.10am.. And he knew i had sch but i didnt say it was starting late so he told my sis and bro to walk to bt timah hill while he send me hme.. But he didnt send me hme fully, He alighted me at senja fairprice the mainroad and expected me to walk hme. And he also told me nt to take the short cut and walk the longer way.. So i walk lorr and i hate walking de! Then its like the sky is just starting to turn brighter and i was already sweating! Nt because of the weather but cause of the walk up and downs..Then i reach hme le i was freaking tired! I like darm flat but i didnt had the time to rest.. So i go bathed and dressed up to meet kueilee to go eat breakfast at fajar.. My legs very already aching but i didnt feel the pain till the next day! Aft eat le then gt back to sch.. Sch was normal like every other day but only that i had my 'N' level english oral... I was very like scared and i keep panicking when the number of students get down and down.. Then finally my turn.. I found the passage and picture very difficult.. My attention was distracted but the 4T1 izzah! It was her turn to go into the room but she kept jumping outside the room saying that she very scared and everything.. So funni lorr! But of course i started to concentrate back again.. When i was outside the room i was able to discribe the pic alot but when i go in, i dunno why my legs like stuck to the ground and my words like all runway.. But i didnt screw up everything.. I was still able to read the passage as fluent as possible and discribe the pic.. As for the conversation, nt so bad bahx.. But the examiners keep asking questions..I keep say theb she ask.. Summore nt 1 examiner but 2!! The indian women was alittle fierce, she didnt smile till the part when she was asking me question in the conversation and i replied and she smiled.. The other examiner very positive de.. She keep smiling and smiling.. I replied one part and she smiled even more.. CUTE!! lols

Tuesday was okay a day but till the end of the day.. In the morning i went late for sch.. I woke up at 7.15 but i knew that by the time i dress up and everything i wunt be able to go on time so i just delayed everything! I didnt go for detention as i had my MT class.. So i told mr poon and he ask me report another day..Then wait awhile in sch see soccer match then go look for ms ang as i wanted to get back my necklace which she confiscated frm me on friday.. I was darm freaking pissed off lorr! First on monday before my oral i saw her and i asked her then she say after sch.. Then after sch i go look for her and she say tmr .. Then ystd when i go u know wat she tell me?!?! She told me NEXT WEEK!!! I was like WTF man! Then she ask me sit on the floor at the blue room and started her nonsense.. She said wat the 4NA student behaviour getting from bad to worse and Mr Lim(principal) is very angry with us.. In the morning assemble the 4NA students delay to sit down when the bell ring and my class girls talk and make alot of noise and many more.. I wanted to argue back with her.. Wat has my necklace gt to do with the behaviour of the 4NA but she already told me nt to argue! She say no use getting angry just try to understand! Hw will i understand? I have lost many things which she confiscated! And this necklace is darm freaking difficult to find the lorr! Summore i took a very long time to find till my sis buy for me and the last piece leii!! The letter J summore!! WTF!! Just make sure she losts it and see wat i m gg to do! My sis say she will call up ms ang and ask her to return me! I make sure she will return and if she lost it again i m gg to ask her to pay back! Then after that i went for my tamil class.. After tamil class my mum fetched me and told me my dad was very angry and i asked the reason why.. And she say it was because of the jogging.. My mum told him on monday night to nt bring us for jogging anymore and she told him its affecting my studies which is true! Monday when i cum hme i just slept.. I was nt able to wake up at all! I slp like nvr slp for days and nvr do any revision at all, and if coutinue daily will sure affect my studies de mahX! And as for my sis, she already 21 and she dun need anyone to care for her! She knows when to exercise and when to nt! He doesn't need to bother anyone.. So my mum told him all this and he was very angry lorr! I know that he cared for us and he wanted us to be fit and nt like him so fat but he must also understand! He wants us to jog daily in the morning leii.. If in the evening or night i wunt mind.. But morning is like i haven started my day but start jogging alreay?? I also dunno wat to tell him lorr.. Then last night he come back and tell me that make sure he wants to see my room light off at 9pm and i must slp already! I m nt suppose to stay up or do anything! I was like WAT? 9pm all slp?? Then hw i do my werk siia?? Of course i didnt argue back.. I just listen onli! I was why siia?? But the time i get down ready to do revision is at 9pm already the u expect me to go and slp.. Meaning i open book then on the spot close??? Then no choice lor.. I and others all slp.. Then woke up in the early morning at 4am to do watever i need to do and nw updating my blog! PATHETIC lorr.. I like kena banned frm doing things in the night.. Suppose i wanted sneak out and use the com but i know i was digging my own grave yard! So i did in the morning lorr! I cannot be night owl already! SaD!!!

Nw we are stangers! I wunt know you and u wunt know me!! Things will be better in such a way!

OK guys thats all.. I have to get ready changed and meet kueilee later.. BYE BYE!!!




Monday, July 9, 2007 - 12:26 AM

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Saturday go werk again as i didnt feel like staying at hme and at least in the office more peace man! lolxX... Then ended werk quite early then leave hme no shopping! Then eventually in the evening I , my sis and my mum go to settle sum bills.. Go to fajar then plaza and i ate NAKED FISH!! I just love naked fish but my sis all dun like.. The very fist time my sis bought the fish and chips or sumthing, the fish was half cooked onli! When u eat u will feel like puking! Like nt cooked the feeling but eventually i tasted again but i found it very nice lorr! Maybe different cook then diffent taste... But i wan COMPLAIN! When i bought the seafood, fish and chip ystd the person cheated me! She onli gave me half fish and she gave onli one prawn! When i was suppose to have two prawns and full fish! Dots lorr.. But of course i didnt fight over the food.. Then back to hme!

Sunday was suppose to be a day for me to rest but instead woke up super early! Woke up at around 7++ as we had to exercise! Dots! But in a way it was gd lar.. My bro is gg into NS soon, so its time he has to train his running and build his stamin.. So my dad's fren is training him daily.. Everyday nt miss! Poor him.. So every sunday we have to go and exercise also, BO PIAN DE! So we leave to CCK stadium and started our werkout.. My bro hadto run 5 laps around the stadium.. Very tiring de lorr.. I also joined him and jogged but by the time i reached the 2nd lap i was half dead! I cud no longer run already! I was very tired but my bro was still jogging and jogging lorr.. His stamina darm gd! Then after the exercise, my bro wanted to go swimming but i dint go.. So hw go swimming then i and my other sis sit and wait for him.. So while waitting i go to gym! After a long time gg gym lorr.. Saw Jun ren so was chatting with him.. Seems that F&N have to submi course werk but the end of friday! OMG! U guys have to realli rush thru everything le! Then after a whilewe leave.. So before we go hme, we called our dad to see if he was able to fetch us but he didnt want to fetch and he expected us to walk all the way hme! I was like WTH! WALK?? Then bo pian, kena walk lorr and for me walking is like dying! I wunt walk until very far de lorr! But really had no choice so walk lorr and i tell u the weather was KILLING!! Realli killing lorr! Darm freaking hell of a hot! And i keep sweat and sweat.. But the time i reach senja NTUC fairprice, it was raining so rest a while and went hme.. And when reahed hme there was no time to rest as i had to go with my sis to the accountants hme to clear sum documents again.. So back hme quickly bath, dressed and leave.. Then reached there, today's werk finished quite fast so had the chance to walk around Taman Jurong Shopping Centre.. But nth nice walk de lorr. All is hair salon if nt sum kind of hp shops onli.. BORING!! After that straight back hme.. Tmr i'm having my English 'N' Level oral exam.. Gd luck frens.. Orhh yahh.. I have gotten myself a tution teacher and i m darm happi! Have to say a big thx to saras my sis for finding me one.. I m gg study chem, phy and maths.. The tutor is frm NUS and she is studying industrial chemistry so would nt be a prob to teach me rite? YEAH YEAH!!! GD FOR ME!!!

I m just going to let things be as it is! I m nt going to bother or anything.. Do watever u wan and i will do watever i wan! Nw my studies are more important and i wan concentrate on it and nt let other stuffs affect me.. LET NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE!!

Thats all for nw guys! Take Care and CHILL OUT!!!




Saturday, July 7, 2007 - 11:59 AM

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Ystd sch was okay but till the end of the day! I gt darm fed-up! I just dunno why ppl wunt understand me?? Nw i say, here in my blog! I HATE MY FATHER! I always regretted having such a father in my life! He wunt understand anything and everything.. I wanted to stay in sch and do my art as i wunt have the time to do it at hme and time is super short lorr.. Just because of that he must ask teacher call lahh watever lahh.. He dun even trust his own daughter lorr.. Summore the teacher can tell me, why nt u put urself in ur parents shoes? I was like WTH!! Why nt the parents put themselves in our shoe? All he thinks is negative thoughts abt me and all the things i do is wrong.. Wan me do well in studies but dun wan let me go for remedial and this cannot that cannot! Everything also cannot then hw?? TELL ME LAHH!!!! Just because i wan to do art i have to stay the SIGN IN and SIGN OUT book! U know hw ridiculous it is?? I m already in sec 4 leii, i no longer small kid when i once used to be! I know wat is right and wat is wrong! I know hw to make my own decisions! Its so difficult to explain things to him and have u ever feared of gg hme after sch?? Or will u love to go hme ?? I love to go hme but i at the same time have fear of facing him.. I just hate this darm whole thing man! I really hate it to max core.. Is it fated for me to have such things happening in my life??
After art remedial wanted to go hme but i happened to saw kamaliah so sit a while with her and kueilee and my QING AI DE!! Sry that everything was cancelled.. Just nt gonna bother abt anything!


So nw onli u feel the PINCH?? U are just assuming things alot. Do you even know wat gossiping means?? This gt to do with me and my sis(saras)... Just a nick! And u feel so hurt? And u know nth at all.. If u now onli feel hurt, I felt the pinch and the hurt a very long time ago already! U say watever i said was just words without action, u dun even know anything abt me! Hw would u even know in the first place? U even mention things abt me why cant i mention! And nvr have i mention abt u at all here in my blog and just because of 2 words u feel so hurt! Hw many words have u said? Nvr have i even thought u will visit my blog in the place! Why do u wan visit when dun even consider me as ur fren? U can delete me in msn and i even made the effort to email u.. I can just dont bother also! When i walk out of that gate, u were there but why u saw me u walk away?? U treated me like a enermy and when i nvr even treated u one! Who hurt who more?? U shld sit and do sum self reflection! If u nvr even asked anything, i would nt have said anythings and things wouldn't have gone to such a extent.. We would still have been friends like other ppl out there! Who is in the wrong?? ONLI GOD KNOWS!! Coz ONLI GOD CAN JUDGE ME!




Friday, July 6, 2007 - 2:10 AM

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Have changed my blog song frm "Everytime" to "I CRY" by shayne ward... Very nice song and the lyrics are very nice.. Next time when i have the time i post the lyrics here and u guys can see it!

Have been few days since i updated my blog.. Busy with sch werk and my sis wan me concentrate on studies and nt use com also.. I m very stressed already!!! N-level is just 2 darm mths away and next mth starting of prelims.. Next monday start of english oral! Next 2 weeks thursday, start of tamil oral! Next week tuesday math paper 2 mock exam... End of july art cloth due and i m yet to finish my pulling and dying and the drawing! The list continues! I have been trying very hard to do revision whenever possible.. But my art is taking up almost all of my time! In class try to pay attention.. Trying my best to attend all tamil classes.. STRESS is the word! Can i just turn back the clock??

Tuesday i was really very HYPER! lols.. I also dunno why! The best part is when i gib "heart attack treatment"! Hahax! Realli had fun man! I gave Kamaliah 3 treatment.. Treament means like just making her SHOCK! First i told her there was art when there wasn't art and she panicked as her werk was still uncomplete! Secondly, during recess i and her was sitting on the table in our class listening to songs.. Then my class boys were playing poker cards so i wanted to scare them.. I told kamaliah that i wanted to scare the boys but i think i say too softly.. Then i just say loudly " MR SNG MR SNG" which is my DM! And of course the boys start to panic but i didnt expect kamaliah to get scared. Like i said i already tell her but she still jump off the table.. LOLxX! The third treatment was after recess, We had physics so had to proceed to 4N1 classroom but before that we were packing our stuffs and others.. Then my classmate sakinah took a sweet frm eewin if i'm nt wrong and ate.. Aft the sweet went into sakinah's mouth then eewin scare sakinah bt saying that the sweet contains ingredient which is pork! But was fake lahh.. I knew it was fake but just to make her freak out i add on by asking her to vomit out watever she ate.. And kamaliah was standing beside me and she asked me wat happen and i told her that sakinah ate a sweet which contained pork! She was DARM shocked lorr.. She like suddenly lost all her words and i told her that it was fake and she gt very fed-up as i lied to her and make her shock so many times, she chased me around the classroom.. Like police and thief! LOLxX!She was nt as in angry but she was like WTH!! She wanted to kill me lorr! lols.. But nowdays she nt scared over anything i say..lols.. Maybe she knows my tricks already! Then after sch go look for mr sham to let him see my cloth as i want to start my pulling already BUT he say nt enuff stitches!! WTD!!! I have already sewn my 5th nearly 6th stitch and still nt enuff?? And he still add on to the pattern! He did it so that i can score high marks but the prob is ITS TAKING UP LOTS OF MY TIME!! I cant possibly sit and sew and sew and nt do other revision rite?? That wat i have been doing all the while! I have been sewing and sewing and sewing and yet to do revision for my other subjects lorr! Made a very big mistake of taking ART! Anyway once a decision is made its too late to make changes to it rite??Then after seeing him had my tamil lesson! And my MT lessons are a waste of time lorr!! Its like gd as in i learn things but its very tiring de lorr.. Frm morning 8am to evening 7pm studies! And i have to travel so far and being the later day i tend to feel very tired, either lack of slp or sumthing.. But i have to force to keep my eye open!

Wednesday sch again was the same! The stress level nvr went down.. Teachers keep coming in and reminding us hw near our exams are.. Then after sch when to look for mr sham again but instead for Yanteng's and kamaliah's cloth.. Adam Khoo was going on for the express students.. And i realli miss adam khoo's wrkshp lorr.. But this time i think the express students easn't enjoying it but they were suffering! I mean its all for their own gd.. Still the normal academic students were the best even miss anna say.. She say that the express students were disappionting..

Today (Thursday) sch was the same and DARM BORING because of CME! Nw that my CME teacher had changed, i tell u the lessons are darm hell of a bore man! I realli feel like dozing off.. The teacher like talking to himself and he is talking abt other country security and many more.. As a old male teacher, what can u expect? Always shouting and talk stories and talk non stop de lorr.. Realli sian lorr! Then after sch had my MT lessons and this time late again.. I always late de lorr dunno why! Time limit is so short lorr and the VP dunt understand! I have free period frm 1-2pm why i cant just leave sch so that i can go my MT class on time? Dunt i have to eat my lunch and change and travel? Dots lorr! The teacher knew that i will always be late so he had nth to say.. I had to waste $$ take taxi and travel till there and again very tiring de lorr! Its like nth even resting! After sch, straight hme change already, out of the hse and travel and walk and watever lahh! No rest at all de lorr! Then after tamil class my mum fetched me and brought me to office.. Stay there a while then proceeded to Jurong east and after Jurong east i ask mum to drop me at sch as today is the last day of Adam Khoo wrkshp so there will be the farewell or sumthing like that.. So i just go and see lorr.. The express ppl nt very commited.. They didnt give their 100 %.. During the time where u can just speak up and i was kind of moved by this boy by the name of Alvin Thoo frm 4e4 words.. One portion of wat he said " I wan to be a future pianist and i asked Melvin (instructor) where shld i go into to be a pianist?? And melvin told me that i have to go to JC but all the while i was thinking abt gg into Poly onli.. But nw i have changed my decisions.. I wunt say i will, i try or i must but i say I SWEAR that i will go into JC and i SWEAR that i score 7 A1s for my 'O' Levels! Mark what i say and i mean it!" Hw was it? He wasnt saying it in th mic but he was screaming, he was very super confident of himself! I was like WOW! U sure?? And when he say "MARK MY WORDS!" I was like....... Speechless.. And as i was in stunted position that was when Frank (Music crew head) distract me by asking me abt hw i was doing.. Eventually i had to leave, but i just kind of happy that it changed many ppl mindset but i dunt know if it would last long!

Anyway, I wunt be updating my blog as often as i have loads of studies and werks to do.. Sry to all my faithful readers! I will try update when i have the time! Even nw instead of doing my sewing i m typing my blog.. I have to go back to my sewing already..
Take Care and always love u guys!



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Honey: lols... No lah i wunt so jialet one lahh.. I will be more careful de.. Erm the gal u dun know de.. So no use i tell u right? =)


PiggyEudy: U wunt know de so no use i say the name.. :)

Joanne LEILEI: Thx gal! U too jiayou for ur 'O' levels! U all sure more stress de! <333


Nyssa: Okay.. Relink le!


KaiYing: Thx gal but i wunt so careless next time.. Yahh i say back le!! All this ppl onli wan us to entertain them onli siia.. Time wasters! :P


Saras: Erm.. Okay i will try to rmb to delete K ?!?! `Bleahs~

Amirah: Why delete ur blog?? Anyway u are deleted.. Sad! lols...





Monday, July 2, 2007 - 9:59 PM

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Ystd was a great day.. I go shopping with sis, mum and bro.. First i and my bro go regent do some things.. My bro as usual was very lisiao de.. We saw a hive of bees and guess wat he did?? He threw a stone to it lorr!! WTH!! I knew he was gg to throw so i quickly run away first.. He throw then he also run.. Lucky the bees nvr chase us siia.. The bees flew back to its original place and he threw the stone again! I quickly pull him away and my mum cum to fetch us.. Then we proceeded to Jurong east.. And finally i was able to change my mp3 player. YEAH YEAH !! Suppose my old player no problem but it doesn't load into the menu.. I cant wait till the sky drop also it wunt load into the menu.. So no choice have to change.. And this time no stock of the old player so had to change to a smaller player.. And wat i fear is that a smaller player spoils more easily as once it drop u cant just say "OMG"... Then after jurong east we went to serangoon and walk around tekka mall.. Was pack so didnt like the environment so finally left and back to HOME! Rest a while then help my dad cook.. He dun cook offen but once in awhile so help him cook and guess wat! Haiz! I cut my finger again! WTF!! And this time i didnt know that i was so pro to cut my finger and the nail together.. So its like the half of the nail was being cut off and wat can u expect?? BLOOD OF COURSE!! Wah darm super terrible pain leii.. The next moment i feel like fainting already.. I wash away the blood and put plaster and i had to change the plaster as the blood was too much! Everytime very careless de! Keep cut my finger if nt break my nail! And when i try to remove the plaster its like i pulling my nail off.. Even when i type i have diffculties.. Summore the left hand second finger wat can u expect?? The finger u usually use to type de and its darm pain when i forget and i use that particular finger and press the key! WOW the feeling just GREAT!! ><

Today no sch as YOUTH DAY!! And its like normal day for me lorr! Followed my sis to werk in the morning and had to type invoice and with that finger doing werk was tough so was more to slacking then compared to werk.. Nth much for today!!

Hmmm... Why nt i share i thing which i heard frm a fren! Have u ever gone into blind .. As in u dun even know who the person is and u are in a relationship with him/her.. I was kinda shock when i know that she was in a relationship and summore the person she was gg on with is a person she dun even know de lorr.. I was like WTH!!! Why wan to be so despro man! U onli heard his voice and u dun know of hw he looks and watever.. U may say that u are a person who dun go for looks, i also dun go for looks but i least i know that the person is him.. U onli hear the voice, later he turn out to be a ahpek then hw?? U know him morning onli then night stead already?? Just by talking on the phone can go steady de?? .. If like this then everyone can have a stead liao.. I m nt trying to humilate u and sry if i offen u but i just wan u think! Get to know the person and then go into a relationship?? AGAIN i ask, Why nt frens first?? This i am also telling everyone.. If u are gg in a relationship are u sure u know the person?? If u dun know the person also, can u make sure that he is one who u expect?? Think twice before u make a decision man! Thrice will also be gd!
Decision still nt made and i still dunno wat to say at all.. Nvr expected such a reaction and i also speechless!

Thats all for nw guys!! and CHILL OUT!!!