Btw if 4N3 students dunno sumthing let me update euu guys.. I heard frm Ms Wee the art teacher that we have to sew watever complete and start pulling the threads before Mr shamsul cum back.. Erm so we gt to rush thru everything and the time period is super short.. Mr Shamsul will be back by the 2nd july when the one day holiday over.. So pls Rush and try juggle all the werk!!
Decision making is a most difficult for me to do!!
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 9:46 PM
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Today was late for sch.. It like just one min late.. I have already entered the sch and was already in the parade square.. And i heard mr sng say " Anyone walking in after this is considered late" and i was already in and walking so i walked faster and mr yap was like " Jyothi Jyothi.. Nvm just sit here".. I was like just a few steps onli leii also wan me sit.. And eventually the potato head did his KPO job by collecting all the late comers ez link card.. As i m in front person so he asked me for my card and i told him i dun have.. He asked me to report to mr sng after assembly but i didnt go.. 1 min late also want detention mehx?? Instead of sitting outside the general office i might as well do other things lorr.. Sit outside there stare at their faces!! Dots... After sch had SS wrkshp.. Onli 9 ppl frm my class attended.. I expected lesser but at least 9.. Tmr sure the SS teacher is g to scold the others de lorr.. But i find them very funni, pay $$ le dun go.. Suppose the wrkshp is kinda helpful.. The instructor was explaining things clearly, and i learned sum things.. Then she treat us eat ice cream but the Z-shoppe was closed so bought drinks.. I thought the lesson wud be darm boring but it wasnt.. It was boring but nt darm boring..lols.. After the wrkshp back hme le..
I just dunno wat to reply and dunno wat to say at all.. I m still as confused as i was.. Didnt i expect such a reaction at all.. dots.. I need time..
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 11:25 PM
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TOTALLY no mood to post today!!
I m totally confused confused and CONFUSED!!
I need sum time!!!
Monday, June 25, 2007 - 10:47 PM
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I have changed my blog song again.. Frm no promises to everytime by britney spears.. I really love this song to the core man! The lyrics darm meaningful.. Its a old song but i still in love with it.. It will usually take me time to love new songs.. I m more to slow music then to rock or punk but my most favourate songs are TECHNO!! I m a darm techno freak or siao!! Hope u guys like the song.. (:
Ystd was SUNDAY and i was werking again..In the morning woke up at 11am and left hme at 12pm and go to the accountants hse with my sis and clear the whole darm documents.. We started werk at around 12.30pm and guess wat time we end?? Haha.. It was more then a normal werking day lorr... It ended at 12am midnight!! Nearly 12 hrs or werk.. Usual office hrs is frm 8am to 5 or 6pm but this was more worse.. But i was very satisfied that i help my sis reduce her burden and the document were ready for submission.. Last min werk still a gd werk.. My sis was keep typing the info into the com while i keep checking and reading the info to her.. Then by the time i reach hme was almost 12.30am and the next day i have to go sch.. I m yet to iron my uniform, pack my bags and many more.. So i did it thru the night.. I iron my uniform, pack my bag, bath, eat and by the time i do everything finish was already 1.45am.. I was like omg... But i very funni de, i still had the time to go online and chat with ppl lorr.. Siao de rite?? If u were me, u will sure go and slp then waste time on the net rite?? After chat, i had to offline.. Then listen song and blah blahh blah.. By the time i slp was 2.30am +.. And i had to go sch, so need to wake up early..
So woke up at 6am today.. Was nt able to wake up but i had no choice.. I was darm hell of tired.. When i open my eyes in the morning i was like, " Do i have to go sch?? Cant i slp a while longer??" But i just woke up and bath and got everything ready.. I was suppose to meet kueilee at jelepang lrt at 7.30 then go eat breakfast at fajar mac and after that back to sch.. Today first day of sch nth much happened.. First thing in the morning my class kena attire check by DM.. So suay that our class room door was lock and we were nt able to go in and the timing so correct that the DM walk.. So check acnd students were caught of course! Pity yanteng and amirah.. Had to serve detention till 5pm.. But lucky they kena today if nt other days sure the hrs longer lorr. I keep disturb yanteng and say she cant see her SHOW which she crazy over lorr.. Then had quite a number of free periods for PE and art so we watched movie called the simpsons(sumthing like that).. Was kind of funni movie.. Then after sch go greenridge eat with kueilee, eudy, laykoon and joanne.. But half way kueilee, lay koon and Joanne left as they wanted play majong or sumthing like this.. Then eudy companied me till i eat then back hme.. And i m darm super clumspy lorr i tell euu..I at hme clean my hme then after everything done i wanted to start my art.. Then while i was walking i didnt notice that there was water on the floor then goodness me.. I slip and fell!! And hurt my back and head hit the whole.. DARM PAIN LORR!!! Sure tmr swollen again... So stupid of me to walk w/o looking... So skipping was cancelled today.. Sobx sobx.. Ystd also no time, today also cant! Nvm there's still a tmr rite?? Hopefully the pain will reduce..
I was kinda shock when i heard frm one of my fren that my bestiie was pregenant and she went for abortion.. I was like OMG!!! Are u sure?? My bestiie as in like 4yrs ago fren.. She was a very nice gal lorr.. She was super close with me in sch and she will tell me all her sadness and i will try talk and comfort her.. Its like we close contact like abt 2yrs.. Till sec 2 i still had contact with her.. I still send her cards and so on.. Even her mum knows me very well.. I think it was a matter of time for my that bestiie.. Haiz.. Things done cant be undone rite?? Even today during lifeskills in class, we were taught abt underage sex and many more.. And i think the act of having sex is just for pleasure but once u pregnant and have to abort the baby... Haiz.. Just killing a darm innocent life just for ur pleasure.. Dun ask me who the person is because its very personal and i also dun wish to enclose anything.. Just said this so that u guys also wunt go the wrong way and just for pleasure u be a murderer!! Do the right things and think before u do.. Make the correct decisions.. Coz by the time u realise u did a mistake, Its just too late to look back and reflect... No use regretting at that piont of time...
Anyway... I have started to be more disciplined.. Frm next week onwards i m gg to study after sch everyday with Yanteng.. going to set a timetable and do revision already.. Even today when i come back and i have nth to do, i started with my art drawing.. Just rest a while so i update my blog.. I have to get back to werk man! Got to GO!! CHILL OUT PPL!!! :P
Sunday, June 24, 2007 - 2:12 AM
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Today as usual again was werk.. Usually werk on saturdays id half day but i and my sis more kool! We go werk onli after half day.. lols.. We go to lot 1 walk and walk then had breakfast then slowly go to office... Take our time lorr! In the morning a incident happen.. My mum and 3rd sis wanted withdraw sum $$ frm ATM @ senja..So they go there and my sis followed the process by inserting the atm card and pressing the password but when she press the two digits of the password the atm machine was apoilt.. It showed out of order and she quickly pressed cancel and took out the card.. And she leave to the ATM @ Bukit panjang plaza.. The amount in the card was $800+++... But when she attemp to withdraw $600, the machine showed the msg of insufficent.. That means the card was short of money which was impossible..The amount balance was $400++... Another $400 ++ was MISSING!! WTH!! Where the $$ cud go if no one took it.. So my 2nd sis did the investigation by calling the HQ and enquire.. As to their record it shows that there was 2 withdrawal.. One was at senja and one was bukit panjang.. BUT my sis did nt take out any $$ at the senja atm as the machine was out of order lorr.. Then where cud have the $$ have gone?? So my 2nd sis explained to the officer and it seems that there was sum kind of atm corruption.. Lucky we can take back the money on monday.. LOLxX!! ATM EAT MONEY!!! The other day my 2nd sis atm card was eaten by the machine but today my 3rd sis $$ itself was eaten.. So just wanna inform u guy to be careful of such incidents.. Check the $$ and the amount balance and watever, dun get cheated.. After werk went shieng shiong wit my mum and sis.. Shop for cooking stuffs and had dinner at there while my sis go for body massage.. I also wanted go but suddenly dun feel liao and lucky i didnt go also.. Nw my sis complaining of body pain.. She said the lady used her elbow to massage instead of hands.. And my sis shoulder is swollen already.. Maybe sum times its either the vein run or sala urut(correct spelling??)
Just nw was watching a tamil movie.. Usually i wunt realli watch and i will doze off de but when i see the movie i was really super touched.. Just give u guys a summary abt the story...
[[ This story involves 1 guy and gal A and gal B.. The guy luv gal A.. They bth love each other and gal B loves the guy like crazy and watever she wants she gets it.. So in the begining of the story it looks like she was acting the BAD gal.. She will try ways and means to seperate the couple.. She will try ask the guy leave for london and study and try to make the gal A hate the guy.. Gal B is frm the richer family and she onli have one brother, her bro will give her everything she wants.. But the gal B onli wanted the guy.. She even killed the bro just to be with that guy and the guy was acting to love her just to save gal A.. And on the marriage day, Gal B and the guy is suppose to married but end up the guy tie the naptial string on gal A's neck.. And gal B was very very erm.. sad lahh.. But everyone onli know her as the bad gal and the one who creates prob and everything but to the end of the story the truth was revealed.. The truth was that gal B did everything just for the guy in a gd way but the guy look to it as a diff way.. And when the guy heard abt hw much the gal B did for him, the guy was in tears and i also was in tears.. That was hw much the gal B has done.. But no one understand that all was for the guy.. In the end the gal B cant have the guy and she killed herself.. ]]
Very super love story lorr.. I was in tears when the gal B said abt hw much she did for the guy and just for him to be gd in the future and live with no worries was realli touching.. No one understand her and she was the bad gal..She even killed her onli bro as in no more other family members.. She killed her bro just to be with the guy.. And u try imagine that the bro gives her everything she wans and she is the onli sis for him.. At that moment for the gal B the guy was more imprt.. And the guy felt very guilty that he cheated the gal B.. Frm the story i learned alot of things.. Sumtimes when u do things with a gd intention, it always turns bad and everyone will misunderstand u.. And for me, i have did many gd deeds but most of it is seen as bad deeds.. When ever i do sumthing gd, ppl will misunderstand me and start creating a chaos with me.. I also learned frm this story to treasure ur loves ones even if they are gd or bad.. When they are bad they also may have a gd intention to do sumthing bad rite?? But of course i wunt go to the extend of killing my bro lahh.. Thats crazy.. I also gt onli 1 bro who u expect me kill him?? lols... Hope u guys learn sumthing too...
Anyway sch reopens on MONDAY- 25/06/07 and nt 28/06/07 or sum other dates.. Amirah very funni.. She asked me when sch reopen when its like only two days away and she still can say i thought it was on the 28th.. lols..
Ok... I wanna go slp already.. Tmr i have to go with my sis to a accountants hse in the morning to clear sum accounts.. But before this i wanna do my art sewing first.. I still haven progess at all.. I still at the same level.. Time to move on.. Bye bye and Take care ppl.. SHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! SILENCE IN THE NIGHT!!! :P
Taggs replied here! :)
Amirah: haha.. erm.. i think u were MIA n AIM also.. Coz u nvr update blog mahx.. thats why lahh..
Kueilee: Thx AIAI.. u always busy de horr.. Cya on monday!! U take care too (:
Saras: YEAH YEAH!! no more gg to office and yes, time to concentrate on studies .. Erm... Its misunderstanding so will be fine de.. LOVE U <3
St'phy: haha.. take care too =)
PiggyEudy: I m nt humiliating euu or watever but i just wan u understand sumthings... U care abt me so much but u dun even bother abt urself then why cant i bother abt euu too.. I m nt blaming euu.. Its the way of understanding.. And i think u also misunderstood my sis gd intentions.. She was saying facts and nt blaming anyone.. Many misunderstanding is gg to begin.. Nvm forget it.. Let nature take its course!!
Friday, June 22, 2007 - 11:42 PM
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Today went to werk and was busy as usual... Was standing the whole day and legs are arching.. But at least nw can relax already.. Almost all the important documents are ready.. And my sis will have less stress and she can face the person on monday.. I helped her alot and alot.. Really lack of slp and very super tired.. Tmr still need go werk and make sure all documents are in order.. Tonite nt sitting up till late.. I wan realli have sum gd rest.. So that at least my heavy load will get lighter a little... After werk went to plaza with mum and sis.. Walk around and ate dinner at sakura's again! I keep eating but nvr exercise de lorr.. But at least i start my new hobby since ystd of whacking myself.. lols.. Nt lahh skipping lahh! I very darm jealous man! My 3rd sis super gd in skipping lorr.. She can do cross lahh, then jump in one leg lahh and all the stunt and pattern lorr.. My pattern like badminton lorr.. I wan train myself, i will make sure i proof to her that i will be able to skip better than her lorr... Nth is impossible! (=
I have learned sumthing today.. Suppose nt one thing but many things bahx.. I have learned that sumtimes caring for a person too much is a prob.. Erm... Hw shld i describe?? Why nt i ask a question.. Wat are frens for?? My me frens means they are with euu everytime.. They share the joy and sorrow with u .. Let me share a short story to you guys... [[ I have a fren.. She have been quarrelling with her parents.. Day by day its getting worse and worse. She dunt treasure her life and always find ways to hurt herself. Ystd she quarrel with her mum and things became worse.. ]]
So i was chatting with that person and as a fren for sure i will care for her rite?? So i advice her nt to do such things like hurting herself or torture her younger sis.. I feel that the younger sis just primary sch and is nt fully mature.. For sure the sis will make mistakes de.. No one prefect man! So as a fren i advice her and talk to her and u know wat reply i gt frm her.. She replied me sumthing like " Anyway its my prob nt urs.. U just dun bother! " So i was a little stunt when i saw the reply... So i was reflecting to myself.. Was i caring too much?? So i understand that sumtime caring too much is also a prob.. So like wat u said maybe i shld nt bother and for sure thats the best.. I shld nt bother abt anything that happens to u?? Hahax.. I also dunno.. Then why shld frens be for?? Nt care abt anything that happens and just dunt bother?? I also dunno myself! I dunt wish to start fighting over this tiny incidents and make things worse.. But i just wan ask u sit and think for urself.. Is all this nessecary?? Do u realli have to go to such an extend??? Hahax.. For sure u will say yahh becoz all ur thoughts are negative.. Then why go adam khoo wrkshp?? Pay to learn nth?? U shld know that i m talking abt euu.. I m nt angry or watever.. Why shld i even be angry in the first place?? So ask urself this questions, "What and why are frens for?" For u to take advantage of, for u to just nt be bored or just have them as a name called FREN but nt treating them like a FREN.. U decide for urself..If u know the person that SHHHH!!! If u dun know who i talking abt then dunt bother asking me.. Ask the UNIVERSE!!
OKAY!! YEAH YEAH!! Tonite no NIGHT OWL n duty.. The owl will be dead flat soon.. Sch is just few days more!! CAN SEE ALL OF EUU!! :P
- 2:54 AM
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Today have been a very busy day.. No time to online and chat also.. If u have notice, i will online but within 5 mins i m gone and i also reply to u ppl msg very slowly rite?? Thats hw busy i m.. I barely have time to do my own stuffs.. The next few days also can rarely seeme online.. Summore i was darm tired and sleepy lorr... Lack of slp as last night was rushing thru documents.. Today go office, then sick already.. Was having flu and fever.. I was very weak but i still did my werk.. Was moving around to answer this phone and that phone.. dots lorr.. Then summore the office so cold cant adjust temperature de... The coldness make me more worse, lucky had my jacket with me... My eyes was totured by me.. I keep forcing myself to be alert and to stay awake... Its like i slp at 2.30am last night and wake up at 8am.. Last then even 6 hrs of slp.. Suppose i dun need to sit till late night and do all this werk but the prob is that, if i dun finish it then the next day when the person come to check the document i will have to rush and sure gt many mistakes de.. So its better i do sum in the night and the rest in the morning rite?? I rest abt one hr in the afternoon.. My eyes tears keep cuming out.. So i rest awhile.. After werk went to bangkit with mum and sis.. Wanted buy sum things for hme.. And i suddenly was very intrested in SKIPPING when i saw a small boy skipping.. So i was like telling myself, its been a super long time since i skip so why nt buy one?? And i bought one lorr.. lols.. Instead of skipping, i m whacking myself.. Nt realli used to it yet bahx.. But i realli wan skip and skip and skip.. Even in the night i was skipping and my sis say i was crazy! Later the ppl downstairs cant slp.. All they hear is sounds of jumping... lols.. Nw my new habit is skipping and skipping onli.. Nw i m doing my werk again.. But i dun complain, i take it as an experience.. When i grow up all this experience might help me.. Typing invoices,answering calls, calculating the accounts, the expenses and many more... I m gg to slp soon as my eyes need rest.. The NIGHT OWL dying soon.. I think two day ago, if i m nt wrong, i break my finger nail.. sobx.. That was super painful and i took so long to grow the nail lor.. U know hw i broke it?? lols.. I was helping my sis clear many papers, so she kept giving me papers to throw in the litter bin next to me.. The more i see the paper, the more fed up i gt so the last stack of papers instead of throwing in the bin, i PUNCHED it into the bin and the next moment i feel pain and i see BLOOD! There was a can drink in the bin and it was in a standing position.. So it cut my nail.. Blood was dripping like tap water.. I was in darm great pain.. So ystd i cut the nail away and there seem to be more blood cuming out as i handle papers, what can u expect?? The papers cut thru the wound! PAIN! Even in the morning it was cut agiain.. Haiz.. Anyway all this is small pains and hurt.. Here cums the big ones!
"BOYFRIENDS" are they a problem to euu?? U shld decide for urself.. Diff ppl diff way of look and commenting.. Today i chat with quite a number of ppl at night and all seems to be having BF probs.. Ok as for me... Erm quite difficult to say, but i can say that having a BF can be an advantage and also a disadvantage... Advantage is that u can share all ur probs with him and all the joy and everything.. He will always be there for u.. But again frens also will be there for u rite?? Hahax.. Difficult to say also.. At times yes they are there for u but at times they just MIA and u cant find them.. I still trust no one.. Sry for any offence. The disadvantage is that When he is nt there! Hw?? He leaves u and go?? And misunderstanding and neglecting which leads to a break..Then hw cums ur biggest pain and hurt... U will feel very super duper sad and miserable and heartbroken.. Then wild thoughts will run thru ur head and u wan die lahh blah blah blah.. So i think if u are thinking of having a BF, why nt just friends first?? Bth shld understand each other first and nt just quarrel over the most tiny thing on earth.. And if u and ur BF are having probs, i can suggest that u shld nt jump into conclusion straight away.. Try talking things out and let each other know wat u feel abt him/her.. Of course do it in a nice way! Nt like sum kind of loan shark! Bth own each ppl things like that! lols.. Whoever is having a BF nw, all my wishes to last long.. All who is thinking of having a BF, why nt friends first??
To that person: Ich habe nie forgetten um Sie und ich noch warten auf Sie. U dunt understand dunt you?? Its difficult to understand euu also...
Ok i shall end here and continue my werk awhile and HAVE A BREAK MAN!! Take care and SHHHHH!!! Silence in the night!!! Got me??? :P
Thursday, June 21, 2007 - 1:46 AM
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Saturday was fun and great man!! Love my sis soo much lorr.. After werk we went shopping at plaza... We just walk and walk.. But suppose plaza nth nice walk de lorr.. But no choice, since we had sum werk there so we just walk.. We go in and out nearly all the shops... I felt so hungry then my sis bring me go sakura and eat.. Its like darm long since i ate at sakura lorr.. Then eat until very full till cant walk.. lolxX.. Was that full nt fool...LOLxX.. Then after that came back hme then change then straight away go greenridge as my dad ask my sis buy sum things for him.. Then wah lau!!! I sis bought an IPOD shuffle... 1 GB leii.. I also recently bought a mp3 but onli 512 MB but i want the 1GB de!!! But lucky i nvr buy the 1GB de also.. Its giving her alot of probs too... Then i keep disturb her and say the 1GB stands for 1 GREAT BURDEN!! But eventually she changed for a new one today, so hope there's no prob with it le..
Sunday was father's day and nth great was happening... It was like a usual day for me.. I didnt say any wishes and giveany present... Like i said before, ONCE THERE IS A SCAR, ITS HARD TO REMOVE IT!! Why shld i bring things which i nt intrested up nw??
Monday when to office again as usual and without my sis again.. But this time more relaxing as i finished all the invoices which i m suppose to.. So can slack awhile.. Then my sis bought a new LCD monitor for her com so i help her set it up... The space became more spacious and more neater.. So i was the first to use the com!! So lucky!! lols.. Like that also lucky?? Weird!!! Then eventually in the afternoon she was back in the office and i was out.. I had to follow my dad and go meet sum ppl...hahah and guess wat i had the flying feeling again.. Coz we went to the place in his bike and he speed lorr.. FLYING!!! lols...
Tuesday was a very mixed day.. One i was rushing thru sum documents.. My sis had to meet a very imprt person and the documents were nt ready so i was rushing thru them.. Then my sis forget the password for the laptop.. siianx.. I suppose to publishthis post on monday but i saved it as a draft coz it was too late and i was still on the com.. So she change the password of the com in the middle of the night and guess wat she forgot the password when i ask her the next morning... Then i keep try and try and try also cannot get the darm word.. And summore her pw all very easy de.. Just two to three letters onli de..Then asked eudy help me search the net if anyway to hack or break the pw but to no avail.. I try calling the agent whole day long but also to no avail..So when reach hme le then ask my sis try recall the pw by sitting at the same place she was..She kept thinking but all the pw was wrong.. Hw cud she miss out the pw siia?? So easy leii the word.. May be she werk stress.. So also cant blame her.. But the whole day i cant use com leii... So SAD!!
Today werk as usual and also busy as usual.. This few days will be more busy as i have to help my sis rush the accounts to show it to a very imprt person by monday.. But i still wanted to unlock the com.. There was no other way but to reformat the whole com again..But again if i reformat, all the memory will be gone and the most imprt videos my father want is in the com.. So we also cant reformat it.. We call our computer sevicer.... And he say that he was able to break the pw.. I was like so elated.. But he say nt 100%..Hopes scattered... If he cant break the pw, he still was able to retrieve the memory before reformatting it.. His charges were high but no choice.. So he tried breaking the pw and he was able to log in the acc.. I was darm darm happy lor... But the way i see he do the set up was soooo complicated..So many words and numbers and codes.. But at least gt such ppl around to save me and my sis.. lols.. nice guy.. So finally cud use the com and chat with everyone... Wanted to update my blog but still did nt have the time.. I keep type and save draft... So i decided to blog in the night.. I still have werk to do nw.. I need do many calculations and blah blah blah... Nw then i know even werking as a admin ass. gt alot of darm werk lorr... But i have realli werk for the past few weeks instead of slacking.. Gt my mp3 to keep me occupied.. But i m having prob with my mp3 again.. Keep battery flat when i nvr even use lorr.. dots.. But nw okay le.. Lucky if nt again fight with shop ppl and buy a new one.. Siianx..
Before i end... I just want say sum things.. Have u ever tried putting urself in others shoes and think for them?? But i dun noe why when there is always a prob, i wunt jump into conclusion straight away.. I will always consider abt the other party feeling.. I wud ask myself questions like, "Hw will the person feel?? Did i do the right thing?? Maybe i shld nt have did it.. " This are the type of questions i will ask and start reflecting.. But sumtimes i will be confused myself.. And its the worse to be a middle person.. Being a middle person and making the decisions!! OMG!!! Will add on to my load man!! Thats why when i make a decision i will always be in the other person shoe.. And i think those who do things w/o thinking for others feeling, Its time u change.. I m telling frankly to everyone.. Try being in the other persons shoes and think abt others feeling.. Dun be SELFISH to just think for urself.. And i can bet u that when u think abt others feelings and make a decision, for sure ur decision is right and nt wrong de..
Anyway sch is gg reopen soon and i m yet to complete my hmewerks.. My werk occupy my time till i dun even do my own sch werk.. Will do when i have the time on saturday and sundays bahx.. So happi 2 weeks le.. At least for once i m up to my words horr?? lols.. When sch reopen so happi can meet all my frens and love ones siia.. Miss them soooo much.. Okay i gtg and get back to my werk.. Take care and CHILL OUT MAN!!! :P
Saturday, June 16, 2007 - 1:07 PM
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Ystd went to office again but this time without my sis as she had many meeting... I came to office very early and started doing watever i needed to.. The phone keep ringing, i also headache.. Head pain and ppl also giving me headache.. Nw i know why she always say head pain and tired.. The more i type the more i wan give up... Imagine u just type and type and type non stop?? Crazy liao lorr...
Erm where shld i start?? I also dunno... So many things happening and i dunno wat to say .. Before i start, i just wanna say sry to all my frens that i haven contacted or nvr chat with... I have been busy with my werk and i dun have time for anything.. In the morning werk then after werk go hme then very tired so slp then next day werk again!! Also lack of slp.. Sianxx... I haven even started my hmewerk or revision also... Left with onli 1 week to sch reopen and exams will begin again.. STRESS and Panic again.. I have been saying all the while but no actions at all.. Need do sumthing le... Then my frens... I think we shld treasure all our frens no matter wat... Even if they make u angry or u fight with them, give attitude and everything lahh.. I think we shld learn to give and take... They bth have been argueing for quite sum time already and i dunno if i m the cause of the fight or watever... U shld know who i talking abt... I m really very confused and confused... All also my fren, all also i want... Its impossible for me to leave one and go with the other rite?? We shld look on the positive side of life... Why dun u think abt the happy times u had with ur fren?? Why must always look at the times u guys fight?? Why nt put urself in each other shoes and think?? U suan her and she suan u.. Wat can u all get?? Nth rite.. Anger and hatred thats all.. I m nt siding anyone but i just hope that u guys will think and just think... Do sum self reflection and soul searching...
LIFE!!! Wat does this word tells u or where does this word links u to?? Do u treasure ur life?? Or are u just wasting it?? We onli have one life.. We shld live it to fullest.. But i dunno why ppl wan make it short?? Life is short and making it shorter?? Everytime think of dying and hurting urself and everything just to end ur life?? Wats the use?? I dun see any gain in it at all lorr... Maybe u ending ur life just to run away frm all ur prob or wat so ever.. Why nt just fight against ur prob and stand strong?? I have been saying and saying and saying but there is no changes at all... All i hear is die!! Dun u even think abt the ppl around u?? Hw hurt they will be?? No u wunt think rite?? Coz all u know is DIE!! I dunno wat to say le.. Its ur life so u decide coz i am living my life to the fullest even when i have so much prob and under so much stres.. For me problems is a step for u to grow..
Suddenly thought of summone when i wrote my last pharse in the paragraph... That was ur pharse.. That was wat u told me.. Many things shld nt have happen but there was no other choice.. I have disappionted u?? hahaha... Or u disappiont me?? There was 4 Js in ur life.. Was i even in one of them?? Many words still left unspoken..
Nvm forget it... Missing my DEER alot.. Hope she will be back fast at least she will help me... But she sure will have her own prob and i cant on to her's... Haiz.. Totally CONFUSED!!!
Thursday, June 14, 2007 - 9:30 PM
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Ystd again cum to my sis office help her do invoices... Was also chatting with eudy.. Chat with her my blood can boil de lorr.. Really very stubborn lorr, cant help it de... Keep saying abt die die and die... Then i tell her later realli die then she know, then she say thats wat she waitting for!! Dots lorr.. Ppl wan treasure life but cant but when she can treasure life she dun wan... Keep hurting urself wat can u get rite?? Onli pain and pain.. And pain is the worse to experience lorr... Haiz.. Cant change ppl's mindset... Then in the late afternoon i went out with my dad in his ST11oo.. I mean his motorbike.. After a very very long time sitting in his motorbike.. He was rushing to sumwhere.. He was running out of time.. And thats the best part.. When u no time sure very rush, so he also rush lorr.. I realli had the feeling of flying... He just drive super fast.. Lucky i had my jacket as i was feeling very cold but my jacket nearly fly off!!! The wind was blowing so strongly that the zip of the jacket auto open..I was so scared to let go my hand from the handle which i was gripping.. At the same time i was scared that my jacket will fly off... Lucky there was a traffic light so he had to slow down and i quickly made use of the chance to zip back my jacket.. And at the highway even worse, no traffic light so wat can u expect?? No stopping and and just speeding.. I was like holding my life in my hand.... But was kind of fun.. Nvr have i experience such a feeling before... LolxX... When i reach the destination i was very relieved.. 15 mins of flying experience!! LoLxX... But when we were returning, it wasnt the same.. He drive slowly... Hw i wish he drive in full speed again...
I feel so lucky ystd... My dearest fren was leaving for holiday and i had the chance to call her and chat with her and tell her everything i wanted to tell before she leaves... Suppose i cudn't call as he was at hme and i cud nt use the phone.. I was so scared that she might slp but lucky she didnt and i borrowed my bro's hp to call her.. Chat with her quite alot.. She will be back in a few weeks.. Going to miss her alot and alot... It was so diificult for me to press the end call button.. Hw i wish i can just dun keep down the phone and just chat with her till she leaves but of course cannot rite?? I told her wateva i wanted so that all misunderstanding will settle.. Gd that she's a person who understand others feeling.. But sumtimes she wan other of her frens to understand her but no she cant coz her frens care only for themselves and dun care for others feeling.. Hope she will have a very safe journey and nth will happen to her...
"VISION without ACTION is just DAYDREAMING!!"
"ACTION without VISION is just NIGHTMARE!!!"
"VISION and ACTION you can change the world!!!"
Hw much do u believe in those phrases??Erm... I have been daydreaming, having nightmares and its time i change my world and open my eyes and look at reality and stop hiding or running away frm it...So have u face ur world??
Just before i end... Just wan add on to my post... I read my fren's blog.. And i just feel simply darm guilty... Realli darm guilty.. But to say truthfully i m very busy... I have time chat but i dun have time to call and as u know i cant go out either.. I agree that for the past few days i nvr contacted u and neither have i chat with u.. When i visit ur blog, i nvr tagg u... I dun even to call u to see u fine anot.. I just wan to say SRY to my AIAI!! U know who u are... Yes she came over to my hse and i wanted to call u but again, will u cum just to meet me for lunch and chat a while for less then 1 hr?? Will u wan waste time and transport?? Nw u are very angry and i cant explain thing to u yet.. But i can tell u just one thing... I have nvr forgetten abt u at all.... U were the first fren i meet when i was in sec 1... U were my campmate... U were with me thru everything this 4 yrs and u were always there for me...We were having fun and prob but we fight it together.. We may have quarrel many times but we know hw to forgive and forget.. AIAI I M VERY SUPER SRY!!! *Feeling very guilty*
