*~* Praise the Lord *~*

Yes today is my second sis b'dae and she is officially 22 yrs old, so old lorr.. I only 16 and she so fast 22 le... Hey but wait! See wats the quote of the day at my blog.. It says " YOUTH HAS NO AGE!" lols.. She is a very nice person, not selfish with money and spends generously! Because rich mahx! lols.. Can be nice until very nice, Can be evil until very evil.. Hopefully she will get married soon to a guy of her kind.. She gt many rules for the guy one.. Very bossy... She is a special person just like her name.. SARAS! Read from front to back and back to front.. Still the same?? lols.. May all ur wishes cum true on this special day of urs.. GOD BLESS!!

Ok countdown to n-level is just 2 day.. Left with saturday and sunday.. I can tell u guys something.. I m totally burned out, exasperated, worn out... Means i m totally tired and STRESSED! Seriously i lack of loads of slp and lack of a lot of time.. I have been gg back to sch for the past one week of sch break.. Its sch break and i still go back sch for revision.. The revision will start at early as 8am-9am till 4pm-6pm.. Thats hw long the hours are but by half of the day i will be half dead chicken.. But i still try to concentrate after a short/long break... I have been doing many many many past yr paper for diff, diff subjects.. Maths,chemistry and physics.. I have been writting notes for geog and screw in everything into a STM mind! Just imagine hw bad it can go..I m doing manufacturing for geog and agriculture and agriculture itself there's loads to rmb! Wet rice, oil palm and blah blah blah! Then chem i just started it today and i know nth at all! Physics nt so bad as i still have some knowledge on it.. ART is DIE! Wasting time.. I have to have 5 pieces completed and i m still on my 2 piece.. Imagine hw much behind i m.. I cant draw, colour or even paint! i m just very fed up with myself.. I feel so lousy.. STRESS can? I just dunno wat the hell i m gg to do if i cant clear my N's... I have many question gg thru my mind like: "Wat if i cant make it? Retain? ITE? Werk? Stay at hme? Retake?" But if i fail, i m gg to break many ppl's hearts.. Many ppl are having high hope on me.. All tell me, " U can make it.. U wunt fail.. U are striving hard already.. Effort wunt be wasted!" I m seriously trying extremely hard already.. I m really making us of the time in sch to study and test myself.. I m just having more fear as the time gets nearer and nearer.. But still sum dun feel the FEAR! The only advice i have for all my frens who have been studying with me all this while "Give ur best shot and throw out everything that u know.. U have cum this far tgt with me and we can do it.. Prove those who think so lowly of us!" Those who are nt even putting effort and still are playing out there, U face the music urself.. All ur frens are gg to move up and u are still playing..

Tmr gg to sch again for the last day of revision in sch.. It start frm morning till evening.. But i really wish it can be pushed till night and i can stay till night and clear my art so that i wunt have headache and pressure that i haven finished my art.. Those who wan let Mr sham see ur art, tmr do cum to sch.. And just to inform u guys, Damien has finished his mock up and is ready for his actual piece.. So u should know, hw far we are.. He was nearly in the stage of giving up but he pulled back himself and climb ahead.. So dun give up.. Many who handed in paper 1 have given up on paper 2 and its such a waste.. Think abt the sleepless days and nights spend in art room, till 1.30 am still drawing and pasting! So if u are gg to give up, it really a waste.. I m nt gg to force u to do if nt i will get things like " Why u always pick on me??" This was wat someone told jewellcy when jew wanted to help the girl.. So i m nt gg say anything, u think for urself..

Things aint getting any better and i dun give a darm fcuk.. I m already very fed up with my studies and stressed up.. I cant be thinking abt all this non-important stuff now.. If u nt intrested to talk to me then dun talk.. If it must be always me chat with u, then SRY i no time.. U can be online the whole day but u just cant even say a hello or hi.. Must wait for me.. Then wait long long.. Wait till the skydrop also can!

My this post is kinda....... I m really very fed up with myself and i m feeling alot of pressure and fear for the lack of time! Just now before cuming hme frm sch around 7pm, I played basketball in sch for abt 15mins around there.. The only thing i did in the basketball court was to throw the ball as far as i could and shout out loud.. I just throw, throw and throw.. I vent all my anger on that ball and just throw out all my stress.. Aft the throwing and sum height stuff i go hme and i was walking hme, i felt a little more better.. I just walk and it started raining heavily so i quickly rush into shelter!

One advice... Nvr take the freedom u have for granted.. Be happy that u have the freedom... Dun just because u have the freedom, u wan even more freedom... Sure ur parents will care and be worried for u if u are staying out till late night.. No use quarrel and cold war with them.. They are still ur parents.. If u wan argue abt this topic, pls no use! I dun wish to... Do sum thinking on who is wrong and who is right and do some self reflection on urself..

Thats all i have to say and type.. I m gg ton again tonite till tmr morning.. Tmr morning before go sch have to go temple.. Early in the morning at 5am.. So have to wake up early, might as well ton and do some art and let Mr sham see tmr.. Aft cum back from temple then go for art..

I gtg start screwing my head with manufacturing already.. Gd luck friends for the upcoming fearful EXAM! Give ur best shot.. JIAYOU! Bye!