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Today received art paper 2 topics... So its time for sufferings again.. The topics are easy as for wat mr sham said but i feel the questions are a little complicated... Any the thinking process more OMG! I cn think of wat i wanna draw but i dunno if its possible anot.. The thinking easy but drawing darm tough.. It has to be creative and original... I cant be copying someone's idea or pic.. So the thinking itself is difficult... Nw only thinking which is first stage or the whole werk... Hopefully i can move up different stages slow and steady... I wunt blog that often le... I m left with 3 weeks before n-levels again... I m having science, maths, geog and art... Art is gg to take up much of my time so i have to cut down on computer le... As today onwards they will be night classes on for art... 1 week and i m gg to really make use of the time to do my stuffs.. If i dunt do my art on time, it will add on to my stress burden.. I will get distracted and cant concentrate on my other subjects.. So its best i follow the timetable my study group have made.. We will focus art one week and other subjects for the next two weeks..

The malays have start their fasting for the next one month and i pity all my malay frens.. So sad for them.. But they are doing a thing which can erase all the sins they have done.. 'So should be happy nt sad! Yanteng and me will also be fasting with them for the first week... I wan see if i can tahan anot.. But i gt special discount.. I can drink WATER! They cant.. We will break fast together with them during our night class at 7pm+ if i nt wrong.. In a way i can slim down le! I m growing fatter and fatter day by day....

Okay before i end, i shall share a story with u guys.. Its from a story book which i have read a few weeks ago.. A very nice story.. Must say thx to my qing ai de [Yvonne] for recommending it to me... The title of the story book is ANNIE'S BABY! Ok i shall try to make the story as short as possible...She is writting to her dairy.. Like i update my blog, she will update her dairy abt her life..

This story is abt a 14 yr old pregnant teen writting to her only last fren, her dairy.. Annie is 14 yrs old and was a very decent girl... Scored very gd marks for examination and her mum is a teacher in junior high sch... Her dad is nt staying with them.. And she fell in love with this guy called Danny.. It was love at first sight.. Danny was gorgeouse and handsome and all the wonderful thing to her... Danny was rich too.. He drives car to sch and father own three restaurants and many more.. So they started gg on with each other and Danny is Annie first BF... All her thoughts was all abt him day and night.. So one day Danny invited Annie to his frens party.. Annie lied to her mum and said she was gg out to study but instead she was enjoying herslef at the party... Annie doesnt consume alcohol but she had to drink just to make Danny nt lose face.. She didnt mind doing anything to make Danny happy... Then Danny was drunk... He wanted to drive her hme but he stopped at a place and wanted to have a rest.. Instead he wanted to have sex with Annie... But Annie being a decent gal Turn him away but slapping him and pushing him away... So Danny was angry with her and didnt talk to her and showed attitude.. Annie felt so guilty.. She was crazy over him.. Her thoughts were polluted.. She asked Danny for apologise in his class but she was insulted by him.. He make comments like "mummy's girl.. small kid!" many more... She felt so heart broken.. She was blaming heself when she should nt be.. She waitted for his calls but to no avail.. Then finally he call her and apologise to her and started sweet talking to her again by saying things like " i was drunk and didnt know wat i was ding... I lack of love frm parents.. Too much pressure!" watever la! Then she was so stupid to fell for his sweet words and she started lying to her mum time and again just to go out with him again.. Again the same incident happen but more scary way.. She was at his hme and he tried to rape her... She again did the same.. This time the guy throw her on the streets and did nt bother at all... She had no cash and had to walk a few kilometers before reaching hme.. Agin she felt so guilty and apologise to him agin.. She was insulted even more then the previous time...She still blamed herself.. She made a decision which was to make Danny happy all the time as he lack of love.. And she was willing to do anything for him even to the extend of dying.. She would just give him watever he want.. Again she awaitted for his calls.. Her results were dropping drastically.. From bad to worst.. Relationship between mum became worst.. So the guy finally called and she was on cloud nine.. Her life was back to her.. She again started lying to mum again and again.. Go on to parties with danny and gang... Soon she became very violent and no longer the feminie one.. She started having sex with the guy and was having out with danny's bad companies... She was influenced to many bad habits... She argued with mum often.. She did sex often too.. And danny was violent to her.. He would slap her and hurt her physically but she was love blind and took it as the guy was showing her love! And she started doing it w/o condoms and forgets to eat the pill.. Soon she felt pain whenever she does it.. She didnt feel gd and was feeling sick.. Soon discovered she was pregnant and she was afraid to tell the guy and when she told him, he slapped her and say that it belongs to other guys... He asked her go for abortion and ask her go find the correct father for the innocent child... The only person left to tell was her mum and she told her mum... OMG!! Nth bad happened! Her mum understand her and ask herto give birth to the child.. Her mum was the only last person left for her.. All her frens left her and go.. The guy didnt bothered abt her and neither did her frens... They MIA!! So that was when she realise who will last forever.. Nt frens but MUM! Then she go thru many stages of difficulty to give birth to the child... She had to go for special sch for unwed mums.. She felts so disgusted and stress at many times... She wanted to die but the only thing which keep her gg was her mum! She still love danny like wat she did.. The love for him didnt change but she changed.. She turn back to a very feminie girl.. She gave birth and many diffculties was faced... Like money was a prob... She was too young to even handle a child.. She doesnt know hw to even carry it.. Her mum started diverting attention to the child instead of her.. Jealousy so she tried stupid things like.. Leaving the child on the pathment waitting for sum kind hearted soul to take it... Really someone took it away and she go crazy.. She started screaming and make a choas at the police station and embrassed herself.. She found back her baby and wanted to really start a new life..So she go on a two day tour with her uncle and studied alot of moral things like hw to treasure life and so on... Then she move out of the city and the whole country with mum and child.. But the love for that guy still didnt fade away..All left for them were memories bth gd and bad...

Ok.. Thats the story really summarise.. I cut down on many parts as it is getting late and i have to turn in soon as there is sch tmr too.. I will have to do art mindmap too.. So i summarise till super short... Go borrow that book if u wan... Anyway i have really learn many thing frm this book.. When i read this book i get frustrated, confused and many more.. Frustrated over the girls reaction.., She was blaming herself when wat she did was wrong.. And took every abuse as love... Confused as her thoughts was nvr consistant.. She will be happy, next moment angry and sad...
I have learn that Guys are nt ppl who u can trust..Nt only guys.. All the ppl around u.. Even ur most closest fren, ur x factor person.. They may look nice but they aint having gd intention... Trust no one.. Only ur parents... They are the only one who will be with u everytime u are having a prob.. Frens may disappear but ur parents wunt.. And god too.. There was one part when the girl was ashamsed to even go church as she was doing sins... So best is to trust no one and fear no one..
Next i have learn to treasure life.. Treasure every single thing u have and nt comment..
Next i have learn to look on the positive side of life.. Nth is the end of the whole.. There is surely a solution... And dying is nt the solution..
I have also learned that love cant be forced and love is blind.. Its always do more hurt to the soul.. And i know that once its a failure u have to move on with life and look forward.. But i have also learned that love is also true.. As in when she was hurt so much, her love for him has nvr changed... Even after so much of insults and beatings.. So wat i m trying to say is, DUNT BE IN LOVE!! lols... Thats the easiest thing.. U wunt have to bother anything at all... U can just pamper urself and be a gd and correct person..

Ok shall end here.. Wat u think abt the story..? Do feel free to drop comments on wat u think abt it... I wanna go catch some Zzzz... Will update when i have time but nt that often...Orhh yahh before i end and before i forget.. I must not forget to say JYOTHI LOVE KAIYING!! This is i kena forced de... lols.. Ok gdbye ppl.. CHILL OUT!!!