Today work half day.. Sick! I go teck whye poly with my sis.. She was also sick.. I was having high fever and kinda weak... The queue at the poly is like OMG! So long can.. I wait for nearly 4hrs to see the doctor can?? So long wait but see the doctor last then even 10 mins... Then medicine and appiontment.. Whole day at there le.. Then cum hme le, go greenridge again... Go eat YTF with sis, then she left to BBDC.. I m all alone at hme.. Gt laptop company, so not that boring! lols...
I m CONFUSED! Yes, CONFUSED! Why ?? I also dunno... I dunno wat to say at all, i m lost for words when i saw wat u type.. For me, I treat all my frens the same way.. No more or no less.. Yes, i may have closer frens but i still do care abt my other nt very closed ones.. U asked " WHO CARES??" Now here i say I CARE! I do care abt every single one of my friend but its just that u dunno... If i dun care at all, i wunt even want to reply u or chat with u on msn or ask others abt euu... I will just shut up and nt even bother, right?? Last nite when u say so many things, the only thing i said was SRY! That was the only thing i can say.. I was totally speechless.. U should really sit down and think... I have already thought abt it many many times... Like u say, u get busier day by day, so am i... Nvm.. U say when u free, u cant chat with me as u dun see me online.. FATED?? Cant help it... Nvm... WHy nt u think, why all this began.. Why did our frenship even started to fade?? Why did we start to chat less and less till nvr chat... Go out, nvr jio you out?? Yes, i do go out.. But just for a short while... Nt the whole day or half day like you.. U wan mafan just for me?? Thats why i say, there have been communication error between us.. Nt only us lahh, many of my frens too... If i dun make an effort to chat, no one will.. Except some.. So wat u wan me do?? If u really think, u will know why all this began.. I m nt blaming u or watever.. I m taking all the blame... Like u said, i m getting close with others... Wat u wan me do?? Nt be close with them?? I dunno... But i know i m wrong too... All i can say is SORRY! Cos i dunno wat to say to make things proper and i m totally.................
The person should know who i m talking abt.. If u have no idea wat i talking abt then nvm.. I just have one question to ask... Why is it when holidays cum, frens start to forget one and other?? In my case, i gt no way to contact except msn, if u see me online, will u chat?? wait for me chat?? Or just dun bother?? Why is it when holidays arrives, almost all frenship start to fade? From gd communication till communication error?? My fault for nt being able to contact?? My fault for nt making an effort to call? My fault for nt having a HP? My fault for everything?? Would u wan to have a frendship with a fren which always quarrel?? Might as well just be silent rite?? If a frenship is all fight, then why even call ourselves frens rite?? WHY? So wat do u wan me do?? Might as well dun have frens rite?? In this way, there will be no quarrels, no misunderstanding, no tears, no pain, no NTH! Just a single BYE rite??
Sry if my post have offended u.. But i m just saying wat i wish to say.. If u can accept it then gd, if nt too bad... Will update more soon.. Take care! BYE!
Friday, October 12, 2007 - 5:56 PM
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Hi I m finally back aft some time... I dun have time to update, I wan to update but cant... Anyway, I won’t miss out on updating u guys abt my happening or sharing some funny or thinking stories with u guys...
I have already started working... And work is kinda okay with me... Office?? Can?? Lols... It’s just beside my sis office, so Gd! Anything can run over for a while, nt a while but most of the time... Leave in the morning and back in the evening... So it’s hard for u guys to find me as u all can’t contact me and I won’t be online... MISSING ME?? Lols…
PROM NIGHT! Sry to say but I m still not going... Those who really wanted me to go; I own u guys an apology... I also wan go and have fun but the sad thing is, my dad does not allow me to go... So I can’t go... NVM! Dun be sad or whatever, there’s still a next yr! HOPEFULLY! I m darm freaking worried abt my results... Will I make it?? I will never wan to go to ITE! ITE is not a place to study! That’s my own opinion… Hate it?? TOO BAD! I seriously think that If I go ITE, I won’t be able to study de...So I m praying very hard, calling out to all my gods to really help me... I dun wan my efforts to be wasted... Like so many sleepless nights and everything! GOD!
Okay like I said, it’s very difficult to contact me as I won’t be online that often, I guess... So just take it as I have gone for a two mth vacation to other country... U can’t find me… DUN MISS ME K! Lols... I will miss every single one of euu out there... If u catch me outside, just give me a slap and say WHERE THE HELL U GONE TO! Lols…
Today I found a friend
Who knew everything I felt
She knew my weakness
And the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders
And listened to my dreams,
She listened to how I felt about life and love
And knew what it all means.
Not once did she interrupt me
Or tell me I was wrong
She understood what I was going through
And promised she'd stay long.
I reached out to this friend,
To show her that I care
To pull her close and let her know
How much I need her there.
I went to hold her hand
To pull her a bit nearer
And I realized this perfect friend I found
Was nothing but a mirror?
NICE?? Haha... HOW TRUE!!
Okay before I end… I just wanna wish all my Malay frens SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI! (Did I spell correctly??)
Shall end here! Will update more soon...Enjoy ur holidays! TAKE CARE AND CHILL OUT! MISSES and LOVES!
Taggs replied here!
Jewellcy: Thx for all the help.. Lets wait for our results...YES! We shall go out and play tgt when i can go out! I will call u de. LIFE! haix.. lols.. MISSES AND LOVES! :)
Emo Punk Piggy Eudy: Tagg me with such long name! lols.. STRESS OVER! Still frens so....haix...
Karice: orhh ok.. haha... I will link her soon.. If i forget remind me! U enjoy urs too...
Aron: haha.. I also wan to grd with euu.. Lets wait for my result.. Thx!
Saharah: Gt blog sehh.. ok wil link euu soon.. thx!
MISS VAIN: QING AI DE!Will jio u out if i go out K! Enjoy ur holidays!
Yanteng: thx for all the help... Now i can slp how much i wan le! I was kidding with u abt the sat thingy! lols.. u still wan go eat mehx?? lols...
Kaiying: We will promote tgt.. I have confidence in u.. u dun stress too... I wan update but can, u know why rite! Now can update le.. NT LAZY! tsktsktsk!
Zhao Yang: lols.. U mean must jio u go too?? Used to typing long post.. nt like u, very short, gd summary skills...
HONEY: HATE U TOO! MISSES!
Passer-by: Thx!
Jasper: Thx.. Will link u soon.. :)
Lay Koon: U too...
Piing: Misses too.. U enjoy urs too..
Amirah: So sad rite!! Yupp heard abt the 17 yrs old boy.. Tag nt finished! lols
MAIA: lols.. Werk?? GREAT! U so bad! BULLY ME! lols.. Misses!
Saras: OF COURSE! lols.. Thx for the shirt! LOVES! MUACKS! :)
Monday, October 8, 2007 - 12:26 AM
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Saturday in the morning meet up with yan teng and eudy and head to CCK gym for EXERCISE! Its been a long time since i exercise!So we took cab from eudy hse and go to gym.. Suppose to go with jew but she overslept.. We exercise and played with the machines.. Aft gym when to Si Ying hse there play BB! Also a very long time since we played.. I teach YT hw to cycle but she just had the fear of falling... She learned for a while and gave up.. We started playing 2 vs 2 on BB... Soon eudy started molesting YT! lols... Just nt wanting her take the ball.. Aft a while when hme as we were darm tired...
In the evening there was a ramadan talk at greenridge.. And my sis being a RC member received many cards.. So i was able to invite my frens.. Called some but they were nt able to make it or nt intrested bahx... So the confirmed ppl were YT, EUDY and me.. Then last min eudy said she did nt wan go as no one wan follow her to work and had no mood.. So i was like NVM.. I go with YT.. We were suppose to dress FORMAL and nt wear slippers and we were nt suppose to to wear shorts of 3/4 pants.. So ok.. Once i heard formal... I thought it would be some kind of grand event or someting.. But the weird thing is, they say its at Blk 529.. Which means basketball court, but i nvr see anything set up for the event.. So i just dressed formally with make up and heels.. Meet YT, and go to the place.. It was under a block... And guess wat, we were late so a little paiisehh.. We slowly walk to the block under and a lady bring us to the place where she wants us to sit.. And we were sitting on "VIP" sits.. LOLS!! I gg say something funny! DUN LAUGH! The VIP sits are on the floor... lols.. We had to remove our shoes and everything and sit on the floor.. Still nt so bad lahh, i m kinda used to it.. Then the lady brought a BIG plate of FOOD! LOLS!!! This is where i cant tahan.. YT is on DIET! Te invitation card states that there will be talks by VIP and talks on ramadan... Then the lady say enjoy ur food... I was like OMG! We were suppose to eat.. We keep eating and the food nvr go down.. But the ppl beside us the food, GONE! They finished it already! I see YT eat , i just cannot tahan... See eat the chiken and was like " wah, very hot leii the chili chicken!" At the moment the lady come and serve us water.. YT was like PHEW! Then she suddenly tapped me and say, " JYOTHI, MY LEG CRAMPED!" I cannot tahan LOL lorr..
After our wonderful dinner! We left to greenridge the playground and rest and make out food disgust.. I will upload some pics when i have the time...
Will update more soon.. Sry guys taggs will be replied soon too.. THX! MISSES AND LOVES!!
Saturday, October 6, 2007 - 12:10 AM
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OK GD news to share! MY DAD has LEFT to Indonesia! YES! Time to enjoy?? Nt really as he will be back soon.. Tmr night he will be back so cant really enjoy but still nt so bad lahh horr. At least must be happy can go out...
Friday when out with yanteng to plaza as she wanted to buy for her dad radio and my sis wanted to withdraw some cash.. So saw jew and eudy.. They just came back from reporting and they were on their way back to sch.. So aft plaza, i and my sis head to yew tee to buy things and she wanted go for her facial.. Aft yew tee back hme.. Then my third sis told me that two POLICE were looking for me and guess wat! The two police are JEWELLCY and EUDY! They were the one.. We go to play at playground and there was this beautiful,extremely cute kid.. We were playing with it and the kid is very clever... Its darm gd at rejection and guess wat, i dunno if the kid was afraid of me or wat but she just didnt wan me to carry it... Then aft awhile of playing, my bro called and said he wanted me to company him to greenridge as he wan straighten his hair.. So we go to sch first as eudy was high tide... Then go greenridge and my bro hair was too short to be straighten so go to fajar.. Call Yanteng and meet her too.. Then my bro go do his hair, we were at mac wasting time.. Then my sis called and say she wanted bring me to causeway point to clear some bills.. So we left and yanteng followed me.. Sry eudy and jew as my mum car was too cramped... I and YT head to arcade and play the bang bang bang stuff like crazy freaks! Then play le, my mum dropped YT hme and fetched my bro and head to m'sia.. i was darm tired.. I slept like a pig in my mum's car and when i open my eyes, i was in the car park.. Time to go hme le.. M'sia trip was just to sit in the car! lols.. Then changed and my comfortable bed was calling for me!
Friday, October 5, 2007 - 10:07 PM
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End of paper and HOLIDAY le! Yes i can feel my boring holidays already! Very early holiday this time round.. From today sch is offically closed for me till i collect my n's result and decide if i go up to sec 5 anot... If i dun go up to sec 5 then hw? See how lorr...
I was suppose to cum hme and sleep ystd aft my last papers as i said i was lack of sleep and i really needed some.. But when i reached hme , my sis wanted me company her to greenridge to eat.. So i followed her there and ate YTF! Aft that i thought okay lahh, cum hme and sleep... Then my mum asked me go with her to one of my dad's friend the son funeral.. I was like, i m so tired... Can go tmr? But she say it will take a while only.. So i was like okay lorr, just go... And i can tell u i m super SHOCKED! This is the first time i m attending such a young boy funeral.. The boy who passed away was my dad's friend the son.. The son is ONLY 19 yrs old... Just 19 only leii, and he's gone.. I dunno much abt the boy but i gt speak to him but it was like yrs ago.. He is a very mischiveous boy.. He do stupid things and gets himself into troblue and so on, stuff like that.. He died in a motorcycle accident... He took motor license and bought a bike w/o his parents permission... Thats the first biggest mistake.. He bought the bike on his own, dunno how true is that but thats what i know.. He is serving his NS and studying in SP! He did things like fake a one week MC for his NS and many more.. He on that particular day when hme for dinner and ate.. Then he told his mum that he was gg to drop his GF hme and go to m'sia to pump petrol for his bike.. So his mum say okay and he left.. He send his GF hme and called up some of his friends to join him to m'sia.. So he meet all of them and they drove to m'sia.. And Unfortunately, this boy gt hit by a car when he was turning at mandai rd.. He was turning and he car just hit him.. So he flew off his bike and his helmet flew away too.. His frens called up his dad and he was rushed to the hospital.. He was nt bleeding external but he was feeling great pain.. So his parents were shocked and worried.. They rushed down to the hospital and thought it was just an accident nt expecting things to go to the extreme.. So his elder sis wanted to go to te hospital and scold him and nt allow him to drive bike anymore... So when then reached the hospital, the only thing they saw or they knew was that their son suffered his multiple internal bleeding.. When the family members saw him, the only thing he did was to just shed tears[cry] and his gone! Lucky the sis didnt scold him, if nt she will be guilty for her life... But the family didnt expect him to pass away.. They only thought it was sum kind of minor accident.. So on that day when i attended the funeral, the hse was crowded with relatives and friends of that boy.. All his sch frens,army frens, GF and all.. I shared with u guys tis story nt to make u guys cry or watever.. I only wan to tell u guys that LIFE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE! U wunt know when u will be gone or when who is gg to leave u and go.. Just for a second imagine, how the GF of tat boy will be?? The BF just send her hme and the next moment he is gone? Like OMG rite?? So like i always say andstill saying, "Treasure ur loved one now, before its too late!" I may be typing my post now but who know aft this last post and i m gone! So yahh.. Be smart.. Listen to parents, they will nag but for ur own gd.. If the boy listen to his parents and nt take a bike license, he would still be alive now... From this whole incident, u can learn many things... Make right decisions! Go the right path and do the right things.. The poor mum was crying for her son like a crazy women... She lost control of her self.. The mum bring up the son for the past 19 yrs and in split of a second he is gone... Haix.. Life is so unpredictable!
Thursday, October 4, 2007 - 11:01 PM
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Finally end of N's le.. Last papers were ART and maths P2! Ok for ART.. OMG! Tiring is the only word! The night before stay in sch till 1 am to do art but still unfinished.. Came back hme, bathe, ate and started trying my painting for my actual piece which was the next morning.. But was unsatisfying! Ton thru the night but nt only me.. My other classmates too.. I was very very dead! SERIOUS!! The two nights before less then even 1and the half hr or slp... But the night i was already very cranky and i was in a total mess.. I was almost gg to give up my art.. I was still at first hand study.. I still had 4 other pieces and the time was so short.. I was ready to give up.. But i think abt the nights i spend for P1 and all the time i wasted so i just continued! I asked Mr Sham for help and i really own him alot! I wanna say THANKS to MR SHAMSUL for openeing night class, staying up so late just for us and helping me with my mock up... He is really a great teacher..
One the actual day of art i really panic and i was very restless.. I was super tired and i was forcing myself to stay focus... I managed to complete my actual piece on time but i was nt able to complete my mock up.. The night before and the very early morning, i still nt enuff time leii.. Thats hw much of things still undone.. In the morning i meet Yanteng as early as 6am in the morning and did all my pasting and i thought had time to do mock up painting but i was unable to.. So i hand in everything done but only my mock up unpainted.. See how the results lorr... Aft the maths paper we had three hrs of break to out maths paper.. Took a break and did revision.. But i can tell u , i wasted the whole paper.. I found the paper very tough but i didnt realise it was so easy.. The hr before i just studied the formula but on the actual paper the formula just MIA! I forgot! So the paper was wasted! Due to the fact tat i was lack of sleep i guess.. Just wait for the results lorr!
I also scolded one of my fren of the same day.. I was very fed up with her.. And at that moment lack of sleep, i was even more angry.. When i lack of sleep will get angry easily... So i scolded her.. She went beyond her words.. I brain washed her and ask her do her stuff for art and she made me believe that she coming and all the stuff at last it was all BULLSHIT! She just didnt turn up the whole night and the next day just told me " I overslept mahx." So i only told her " N-level dun take better mahx! At hme sleep can liao!" I was darm fed up lorr.. But maybe i shouted at her over the limit too.. My apologies too.. In she nt interested to study, why should i right?? I should nt even bother mahx.. Haix..
Tuesday, October 2, 2007 - 4:59 AM
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Its 5am in the morning and i m gg crazy soon.. SERIOUSLY! I am sitting thru the night and studying... I was gg thru my physics as its my first paper.. I had many undone past yr papers, so i thought it would be gd to do, so i will know the my weakness.. Then i was doing AES prelim papers.. So i was doing and doing.. I finished the multiple choice so i check answer.. And to my horror, ALL WAS ALMOST WRONG!! I was like so shocked! I knew wat i was doing.. I knew i was gg to fail if that was N-level paper.. I was really super speechless.. So i continue doing section B which was write answers de.. then i do a few question and checked my answer and guess wat.. I was very frustrated! The darm answer key was wrong! As in, it did nt belong to AES sch de... I gt really very fed up.. Thats why i was thinking, hw horrible can i get till all wrong?? It was super weird lorr.. I did one paper then the answer was A.. The same question i did in another paper but the answer was totally different! Okay nvm.. Should nt get distracted by the AES paper..
Get back to work already.. Have to get ready soon and meet yanteng.. Suppose ton with her tonight but she sleeping!!! Nvm.. Later settle with her in school! :)
Monday, October 1, 2007 - 5:08 PM
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First day of N-levels! Last night did nt slp and ton tgt with Yanteng on the phone till 5am.. Do geog revision and sum chit chat.. Very funny incident happened like...4.20am we were very tired so i tell her to rest 5 mins and then extend another 2 mins and guess wat?? The next moment when i woke up the time was already 5am.. The whole incident was very funny but no time to type everything out as i have my science revision to do... Tonight will ton with her again to push my chem syllabus! I really own her a very very big thx.. THANK YOU YANTENG! If nt for her, i would nt be able to do many questions and understand alot or concept... So today's geog paper was okay okay.. If i pass will be a low pass as in below 30/50.. But if i fail, i will fail a high fail as i did do the question but scared go out of point... But sad thing is that the things which i study with yanteng thru the night and in the morning didn't cum out.. Only one small portion did cum out.. But lucky i gt study lahh.. Aft geog paper had quite a long break abt 3-4 hrs.. So go library and do past yr paper and go thru many questions with Mdm tan.. Had many doubts clear and did revision.. So it was time to do maths paper le.. Make way to hall and guess wat, the fear over took me.. I cant even walk and i was like nearly gg faint.. Firstly lack of slp and was hungry.. My eyes were feeling very hot inside and my friends could see that i was very stressed up... I go into the hall and said my prayer and start the paper.. The paper was easy but very tricky.. The tricky questions i lose marks.. But i m aiming for paper 2.. I managed to pass it in prelim w/o doing graph.. So if i manage my time well and do the graph i can score bahx..? The main prob was that many students did working of the question in pencil and it seems that it would be penalised! Why nvr use pen? Was the question.. But don worry, its either 1-2 marks deducted or the examiner wont mark.. So pray hard it would be 1-2 marks compared to entire papers.. I rmb that pen should be use as in prelim i used pencil and marks were deducted.. Jewellcy, Dun think too much.. Dun worry and scare urself.. Focus on other subjects to pull u up.. Dun care wat others gt to say.. Let them be..
Tomorrow i will be having physics and chemistry.. Oh GOD! haix.. I dun wan panic and do my best in the paper.. My physics nt so bad but my chem is just one word "BWANG" / "GONE" .. Seriously thats hw bad it can be.. Summore tmr there is no like very long break.. Just 30mins leii.. So tonight will ton with yanteng again and push my chem.. Maybe with kuen yan too.. And in the night there will be night class for art till the next morning.. As in camp in sch?? Nt really, but ton in sch... I have nt done with my art and that is really making me very stressed up!
U guys must be thinking i m crazy to be toning every night and nt rest.. Like wat matin told me last night " Health is first priority!".. Yupp i know.. My health is first place.. But if u really look it my eyes, U can see the burning desire in my eye.. U can see the determination and strive or hard work.. U can see hw much i m working hard to move up to sec 5.. U will know the pain and tiredness in the eye, the lack of slp and the stress in me... But all lead to one thing, The way to decide my next step.. Only god will know where i m gg to go.. Sec 5 , ITE, Retain.. Its all written on the forehead.. FATED!
Ok i shall end here and go get ready to start my physics now so in the night do chem.. All who are disappointed in ur geog and mats paper 1, dun give up hope yet.. U still have other subjects and maybe the Cambridge examiner's are happy at that moment.. Just dun give up! All the best.. JIAYOU!! Take care.. HEALTH FIRST PLACE!
