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Wednesday, April 30, 2008 - 8:00 PM

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It was a very close shave...

I would be in deep shit today...

I was again the one...

I am always the one...

Hais'...

Wat can i say..

I wanted save all...

More updates soon...

Tuesday, April 29, 2008 - 6:15 AM

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Ok really when BOREDOM STRKIES man.. Getting more and more bored these days.. I no longer have the "UP" kind of energy.. I feel so dead.. I getting very WEAK, Wat the hell is happening?? I wish the angel up in the pic, will bless me with some energy.. Hais.. I really feel like..... DOTS lahh...

Fear! I dunno, i think its wat im having with me.. I keep having fear.. O level MT paper is like wat?? 2 weeks?? 1 and the half?? Can i really do it and score for it?? I have been gathering all my forces and making use of it.. I really did sucks in my MT oral last week.. Again i emphasis on the word SUCKS! The two components involve was reading aloud and conversation.. Reading aloud wasnt a problem.. But when it came to conversation.. MY GOD! The words which came out was all ENGLISH! Trust me its ENGLISH! I mean i dunno.. I think i have been speaking too much english and very little tamil.. So it was like i speak a few words and english words came out again.. I had to keep apologising and tell the teacher " Sorry sorry.. I restart.." Then when i restart, i had the same prob... I tried very hard to talk whatever i could.. I knew i failed.. So i peep at the marks my teacher wrote and yah disappointing enough it was a fail.. 15/40.. Ridiculous.. I m a person who can really talk alot... Ask the people who know me well! If u wan me talk CRAP i also can! But i dunno wat went wrong.. I just felt so bad.. I mean it was unexplainable.. I just walk out of the classroom heavy heartedly.. I felt so disappointed but i still had to put a stronger front and act as though nth went wrong..

Next FEAR. Today was like kinda late for sch but nth was wrong, i mean it was report to classroom.. Then teacher there changing siting positions as our class did really badly for CA so called our mid yr exam.. And she was saying that the results were as horrible as for the L1R4 can reach the 52 mark.. I mean with that kind of results, who the hell wants u?? Wat darm course can u go into?? I mean its like i keep thinking positively! Really positively, i motivate myself by telling myself that "JUST MID YR! Can try harder!" Then i stop and think back again.. I dunno.. I jus feel so USELESS! I dunno how much i score or which danger zone i land in but i know i m in it! I m studying! Its nt as though i m not! But wat is the problem?? Why cant i score even when i study?? Study method wrong?? I dunno....Hais'...

I just at times feel like i am very stupid.. Is it very hard to just study and get a gd result and leave for poly? Saying was always easy, but achieving it is like way far from saying.. I dunno.. At times i just feel like giving up.. I think i have been thru enough... I mean, i at time just feel very SHIT! I feel very hais.. I dunno how to explain, seriously the feeling just sucks. I will sit and think back at the things i've done or am doing. Am i really doing the correct things?

I have said enough.. Its just that at some point in time i just feel like breaking down.. I m feeling so MIXED! No one, trust me.. NO ONE! Knows how i feel, wat i m gg thru... I aint angry... I feel so disappointed and sad its like i HATE myself so much!

Sorry this post is just not me!

Monday, April 28, 2008 - 5:18 AM

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Ok i m back again! Its Monday wee hours in the morning.. Just completed watever work i had to or wanted to.. So do some blogging as some want read my blog.. See i so good, u say wan read then i update... :)

Anyway Saturday went to meet sis at plaza and had lunch at cafe cartel.. Ok it was sister's day out! And wow, the four of us eat and it cost us $80.. My sis paid the bills of course, i just sat and eat, grow fatter nia! LOLS! Then meet Yant teng and Kuen Yan for basketball cum badminton... LOLS! The funny thing is that, u know me! I always like delay time or even worse, late till very late! Bth of them know wat i mean.. Suppose i told them we shall play 10am in the morning, from then i think back, Have to meet sis at 12pm then its like play 2 hours plus?? So i called them and changed time to 2 plus.. Then my sis only meet me at 2pm! Then change timing again! lols! Then nvm.. I eat till wan faint at there lorr! Very FULL! Then the time was 4 plus already and i received a msg YT! "OI, faster leii! I falling asleep already!" Including a stupid face.. Then KY called me so i said 4.30pm leave their home.. So it was confirm.. Then sis wanted to walk around... Then walk around then i saw time nearly 4.30pm.. I was LOL to myself! Then had to send sis to Lot 1, then followed my 2nd sis to send her.. Then see time was already 4.50pm.. I LOL even more can! Then i reached back home was already, 5.15pm.. Then i saw two ppl sitting under my block! They looked familiar! LOLS! Then i knew it was YT and KY! Could nt know it was YT as her face wow, BLACK sia! ROFL! Then faster gt home then change and rush down.. Then wow ppl dun wan talk to me leii! There " WAN LOL ALSO DUN WAN LOL!" Hold back laughter, how kool! Eventually everything was alright! FUNFUN! KY and YT really make a gd bb team.. They 2 on me 1 the score was 4 again 5. Hey i won of course! I mean they really gd to be a team.. Rarely one could get 4 when vesus me! I mean i m "THAT" good! lols... Then play badminton and YT had to leave early as she was gg out with family.. I n KY played and had a gd time.. Then home sweet home.. When reached home, sis wanted me go out with her but SRY was too tired.. Then bath and use com.. Slack lorr. Then received call from mum that have to go to keramat.. I was like dots!! I m tired leii, but no choice lorr.. Then change and left home and reached home abt 1am plus.. As usual, FLAT on bed! lol!

Sunday... Nth much leii.. Went out with sis in the morning, shopping.. Then home then out again.. Then home then out again send bro to camp.. Then home already.. Nth much... Home, out, home, out LIKE FUN! lols!!

Today will be having maths mock exam paper 2 after sch.. Sianx.. I hate and hated maths from the very begining! Sad lorr, i cant score in it.. I dunno why.. But always knew practice makes perfect.. But when i do past yr papers which is provided in the library, i cant do it.. I usually can do the front questions only de lorr... Anyone willing to help me! If u are then u must endure my nonsense de leii.. As in whent studying i also can joke or go crazy.. lols.. If u think u have wat it takes to tutor me maths, then do contact me.. For more info, u can visit, www.darkness-b4-dawn.blogspot.com or even find me at ZSS.. The only indian girl in sec 5! LOLS! Me and my crap... Never ending right! :)

Ok now wan leave for m'sia.. Again my sis LYING to me.. All sleep like PIGS leii.. Say wan enter m'sia in the morning as it was heavily conjested in the morning but now all sleep.. I wake them up then say 5 mins 5 mins! Also nvr reach leii! :(

Ok it seems that many are having stress! REALLY? Dun lie leii!!! LOL! Stress for wat?? O level ONLY mahx! If fail RETAKE only mahx! lols.. OK jkjk.. Say like so easy right!! Ok i have a way to relief stress! Dun LAME also leii, wat have a break?? Wat KIT KAT?? Crunchie better!! lols! Ok solutions to relief stress: U really u wan it! OK the solution is :P!! Cannot say must consult me then can give! Consultation fees is FOC for friends but for unknown SRY u dun even have consultation!! WTH!!

Ok going crazy already.. Early morning without slp leii, wat u think!! Going GAGA already! lols...

Ok shall end here and update more soon... I wan get ready and BYE ppl, i m FLYING to m'sia.. Dun miss me! LOLS! I know u will.. I m so lovable, who wunt miss me! Even ants also WILL! :)

At times, i just sit and think.. I cant figure out things..
Wat is right or wrong??
I dunno if all was wat i thought it was...
I cant put my pictures into words... :(

Taggs Replied here
Maia: Typical singaporean man! Kool rite! U too! :)

Xue Yi: Must tagg me often horr! Erm u read my post should know how i faired.. Nvm first time not prefect also nvm.. Sudsequently will de! TC ; LOVES :)

Yan Teng: I gt so many name! CRAZY GAL, LAME GAL, Wat else?? lols! U enjoy waiting on saturday mahx!! U sure wan teach me chem, u urself nt gd lorr! JKJK!! lols! ThX! :)

Kuen Yan: No its very easy! Seriously! Its like u close ur eye also can do.. Chicken feet lorr! :)

Friday, April 25, 2008 - 5:00 AM

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WOW! Finally back like after a week.. Firstly gt to apologies to all my readers who cum and leave with nth to read.. I dun really have the time to update daily.. Will try my best at least once weekly...

Erm... Dunno where to start fromm... Thats the problem with me... When i nvr blog too long and when i really gt alot of things to update, then at this point of time, i can rmb any.. Anyway yahh...

Last Sat attended eudy's sis b'dae BBQ.. Ok had a gd time.. Maia, kueilee, yanteng and cherin were also invited.. Enjoy food, enjoy playing and obviously like DUH! ENJOY MYSELF! haha!! Erm.. Went there at 6pm then leave abt 10pm.. Lucky dad was nt around so could stay out late... Anyway, we played water bombs and gt ourselves all wet.. Nt really wet also la.. It was like 7 against 14 small kids... Then yah.. Play play, then chit chat then home sweet home.. Was tired, reached home and flat on bed...

Yahh.. Nth much happened for this week.. Purely sch, home, sch and home...Yah and i m getting tired and feeling very stressed! I dunno wats ther to be stressed over but i dunno i just feel pressure.. I m like so worned out every single day.. I no longer have the energy in me! Wat the hell is wrong?? I also dunno!!

Anyway today had science mid year practical.. And MY GOD! My Chemistry is a gone case.. Physics yah, still nt so bad.. Knew there were some mistakes but hopefully i did okay for it.. But i think i really very stupid in chem! I dunno.. I mean i understand all the instructions.. They say add this add that and test the gas produced.. But i dunno i stupid or wat, I used lighted splint, blue litmus and red litmus for all the 6 test tubes.. I know its not needed but i really dunno how to do it.. I see the instructions already stressed..! Then nvm, Even more stupid thing i do was to see if the gas produced wat hydrogen, so need use ligthed splint.. So wat i did was light the splint and bring it near to test tube and bring the test tube near my ear to hear if gt "POP" sound but the flame on the splint went off.. So i repeated the same procedure 3 times.. I mean how stupid can i be right! Then at last 5 mins then notice i had to use SOLID Q but all the while i was using SOLUTION Q! Dots lorr... I just had to wash up everything and tell myself, it wasnt my practical! I dun hate practical, i like it but the thing i hate is when they ask to write observations.. Gd luck lorr...Individual somemore! BEST OF LUCK LE!

Thats all i have to say.. Its getting late and i m yet to do geog notes..GTG le! Bye n B4 that...

I just wan say SRY to whoever i have hurt.. I dunno who in particular... But i mean i wunt know if i have hurt u anot mahx.. So if i have, here is my apology..

When the word is used too frequently till it lost its meaning....

Taggs Replied Here!
Joanne: U study hard too.. Misses! :)

Niq: U are linked.. Dun start saying already horr...

Wei Leng: Wow shocked to see ur tag..Anyway thanks.. U too.. Take care :)

Piggy Eudy: Relink le.. :)

Yan Teng: LOLS! U know me how long?? Just only know my jokes LAME mehx! Its forever LAME! U too horr.. lols! Dun so fierce to me horr.. :P

Honey: LOLs!! Yahh get to see u more often nowdays... My 17th floor neighbour! Love euu! :)

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 - 4:20 AM

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Ok HI! Blog again le and my sis is for sure gg kill me! Blogging at such a time, but i was studying, just finished and i cant slp now so i thought blog then slp.. SRY SARAS! :(

Anyway... Today something was distracting me from the morning... Today in new paper HEADLINES! The 17 year old boy who kill lover's husband.. I mean it was a very doltish act of him man.. Its like he is just 17 years old and he has committed a murder in the name of LOVE! Love really made him blind lorr... He likes a 24 year old woman who was already married.. And this lady brain washed him to kill her husband.. And if he killed the husband, the boy can be with her forever.. If he didnt then he wouldnt be able to be with her. If i means, i will sure tell that lady to go FLY KITE lorr.. She think she QUEEN? Kill ppl then can be with her! I mean ridiculous lorr.. She was purely making use of that boy! Now aft the boy had committed the murder, he isnt with that woman anyway! She is serving 9 years jail term.. Instead the boy is angry and furious with that woman for making use of him! I mean, it like didnt the guy think before doing it! Just kill for love or to be loved! CRAZY lei!!

Ok shall stop abt my angry paragraph... Wan LOL??? Ok... I ask something k!

Who is more talkative (talks alot! DUH!) BREAD or KOPI???
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HAHA! Ok enough! Its BREAD cause............
LOL!
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BreadTALK and KopiTIAM!

WTH! OK if u nt laughing i dun care! Have to LAUGH! Its funny! Kopi-TIAM and bread-TALK! Wat a question sia..

Ok i had enough of crapping.. Its getting late and i seriously need go to bed now... Tmr still gt 5 stations if nt 2.4 run...

TAKE CARE AND CHILL OUT PPL!! :)

Taggs replied here!
Piggy Eudy: Do u go like " Fear engulf me whenever i tag JYOTHI!" LOLS! Chill man! :)

Maia: SRY! Hey wait SRY for wat??

Monday, April 14, 2008 - 5:02 AM

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WOW! Yeah, okay HI! I'm back... Like finally can upload all the pics i wanted to upload... Do rmb to scroll down, today i updated many post.. Not 1-2 but many.. lost count already... Must read!

Ok past few days, YAH! Okay, Great... Nth much happen.. Nth much to mention.. Have been having eng workshops nearly every day... I find the advanced workshop boring.. It wasnt really helpful.. SERIOUS! IT WAS BORING! It was basic stuffs which is already taught in class... I liked thursday's eng oral practice... The one with Mr Yusof.. That was kool! Reading aloud! Joke of the day was SWEE TECK! lols.. The way he read the dialouge is still repeating m my head lorr... KOOL!

School is gg okay... Nt really with me yet... I have to really be serious with my MT! I have not been gg class for the past one week.. It sucks but bo pian.. My MT 'o' is just 1 mth away.. I want to do well in this paper so i wunt have to retake and i will have time to study and focus on my other subjects.. But its just that... SIANx! Serious! I hate it when i score so well for TWSS papers but when 'n' i took results was super disappointed.. Think the standard not there lor... :(

Anyway, nth much update lah seh... Past few days mood not there... Erm... Hard to say but i mixed... YES ROJAK! At times i get very confused, pissed off, sad, worried and even lost.. I dunno but somethings, sometimes just dun feel right.. I dunno how wrong it is but its not right... WATEVER!

I was gifted with a gem ... :)

OK crap person with crappy post! Ok i gt other things to do le.. Will update more soon..

Taggs replied here!
Eudy: I know i flabby but not like u can already lahh! :)

Xue Yi: U already add me... Thanks!

Saras: Last sat and sun was wonderful man! YES I MISS MANI!

Joanne: Yes i will work hard for prelims.. I wunt give up so fast de! I wunt so bad de la... I will be free, do call me k! <3

Dim Sum: With u i sure will be strong... No worries! U take care too! :))

Yanteng: I have always been myself.. hahah.. I care wat u say! lols! playing must also do my best or play my best?? lol! :P

Stephh: Yahh long time no see.. Thanks! Well study hard de.. Wat abt u? how u doing??

Maia: Mine updated too... Take care! :)

- 3:47 AM

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The other day my bird (black) wasn't feeling well, so my dad decide to bring it to his friend's house.. His friend has many birds and theone in white is very talented can... I was shocked and lost for words... The bird can ask u "EAT ALREADY!" Then it will socld the other birds, "NOISY! Can keep quiet!" Very funny lorr the talking pattern!Then nvm.. The guy stay in a very old block... So its like the lift is yet to be upgraded! I name the lift " FIRST COME FIRST SERVE LIFT!" U know why.. The momemnt the door open, within a split of second, the life door will close.. Serious! I aint kidding.. Its scary can... Even when i use my hand to open the door, it makes no difference! Weird lift! LOL!

- 3:41 AM

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DRAMA at GREENRIDGE!
There was a 3 feet long green snake at grenridge..
Sound so green! lols...
It camouflage with the tree leaves..
Some really sharp eye people saw the snake...
And again loved to be a KPO!
Hey typical singaporean man! :)

- 3:36 AM

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Accident at teck whye, directly in front of phoneix LRT station..
Its a m'sia prime mover and a brand new Mit. lancer..
Can see that the prime mover made a illegal u turn causing an accident..
The car's engine oil was splash all over..
Fire engine was called down..
When one gets too KPO!
I mean its obviously ME! :)

- 3:32 AM

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Photo of the "hugging mother"..
Just by seeing the shoe rack, u can infer the crowd...
Some waiting for their turns, so stare at sky.. lols!
Seats all occupied, so the floor was the best..
Not only indians were present..
Even chinese..

- 3:27 AM

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The new kind of dog known as ADIDOG!
Even a dog can promote ADIDAS! How cool! LOLS!
Its my neigbhours dog.. My REDEVIl more cute! :P

- 3:21 AM

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Finally the pics of my medals is up.. No scolding already k!

Sunday, April 6, 2008 - 11:44 PM

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Sometimes i feel so ??????? QUESTION MARK!
I cant understand wat u are thinking...
I dunno...
U gt ur results and was crying....
I didnt even know u were crying till i heard somone say..
When i make my first move, u didnt even bother abt me...
I aint superwoman...
I not on the dot will be there for u...
I will be there for euu but not at the DOT...
Its impossible...
If i knew u were crying, i sure will onthe spot come and comfort u,
But i seiously didnt know...
Then u were disappointed with me...
Nvm...
Gt over it....

Then cum basketball...
I mean wats wrong with playing BB for like 2,3,4 hours ONCE IN A WHILE..
Again i emphasis on the words ONCE IN A WHILE...
Its not as though i m playing it everyday...
Even if i was, i know wat is called TIME MANAGEMENT...
I aint some kind of study freak...
I do study and i know how to manage my time..
If play i make sure i play to the fullest...
If study i make sure i will study and pay my fullest attention...
Just by playing 2,3,4 hours per day will make me fail my 'o'??
I dunno...
If its true then i shall stop all the playing...
I will be an idiot and study for the bloody 24hrs daily...
U know how much stress one can undergo when they study??
U sure know...
And even aft having so much stress, u wan me overwork my brain and force myself to study??
I know this is the most crucial period..
But i dun feel right when u say i PLAY 2 much!
Am i really playing that much????

I dun wish to mention more..
I wan go out already... Bye bye!

- 11:29 PM

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Ystd when to teck whye to play basketball... Played with Yantend, maia, kuei lee and LK! Its been a long time since i really train or played serious BB! And ystd was the correct time... We meet up then go to kuei lee hse the bb court and started playing.. Taught maia and YT some shooting and dribbling.. They are fast learners too.. Played from 11am till 3pm.. Had a very fun time! Was totally worned out.. Could bearly walk... Then meet with my sis buy somethings then cum hme change then leave to toa payoh... Had the cariot again.. Reached back hme around 12am... TIRED! Bomb! On the bed the next moment!

Today SAD SAD SAD! TEARS! My bird passed away! From 6 birds then 1 passed away.. Then 2 flew away then today cause of a silly act, in a split of a second my precious, noisy bird died.. Not blaming anyone as it was very unexpected! But it was just a split of second! A act of playfulness and silly! I was sleeping soundly when my sis woke me up, eyes filled with tears to tell me that the burd is died.. I was so shocked that i jump out of bed to see my dad trying to wake the died bed up.. But too late it was in its own land already.. Aft hearing wat had happen, i was so sad.. Tried very hard to put a strong front but it was impossible.. The moment my bro carried it into my room, tears did the talking... Hais... It was a very naughty bird.. Always shout very loud.. Its will bit everyone in the hse except my dad and bro.. It was the only one who will keep my dad company daily.. He was seriously down.. Could see.. But no one expected things to turn out this way... Now im left with 2 birds.. Really pray hard that nth will happen to them.... I MISS MY MANI!! :(( Its the smaller one in green... My hse is so slient without it!

SAD SAD SAD!

- 10:45 PM

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It has been seriously a very long time since i last blog... I had many things to updte on but now i cant rmb all of them... I cant only rmb..........

Last sat... Toning at S'pore expo was hilarious... There was this "hugging mum" Who came to s'pore.. So I sis and my friend go ther to see her... When we reach there the time was already 6pm.. Then we had to take tokens... As in queue number for a chance to get hug by her.. So our queue number was Y2! Started with some story time then sing along sessions then started with hugging time... So they started their number and guess wat, the number start with A1! I was stunted... Then A2,A3..... all the way till A10.. Then B1 till B10... So imagine mine was like Y2! Then i asked a lady in charge wat time my number will appear... Then she quipped, "Around 4-5am" I was like okk nvm... We shall ton and decided to ton.. But at last we had to wait till 6.30am before it was our time! Very long but worth waiting.. As she will only come to s'pore once in a while.. So made use of the oppourtunity..

Then.... Wat else i can rmb?? Erm..... I cant really update as i need the pics which i took to do the talking..

Ok just an update on APRIL FOOL'S DAY! It was really fun to fool the people around u and see their reactions man! I fooled many and here are my apologies. But one year only once u can fool them so made use of opportunity! I also gt fooled.. Only 2 people gt heartbreaking pranks,they know who they are... And seriously i m SRY! haha.. Jew was cute... She nvr cum sch so i played a prank with her.. I called her to inform her the CA marks... Suppose we nvr gt any paper back but i lied to her and said all is received and anyhow fake a mark for her.. I lie to her and tell her all FAILED but she failed none and we nvr even gt back the paper lorr! Sry,,,, LOLS!

Erm... Thats all for update?? I think so... I aint in the best of mood so i cant really think of wat to update lorr... Haix...!!

- 10:24 PM

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CA have finally ended! All awaiting is for results.. My chem and maths papers all flung... Its really made me go crazy! I dunno wat Mdm Masrena was trying to prove... set until so difficult can!
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Results took back already... Not all but most of it... I only currently cleared my SS paper.. I m satisfied with its mark. I failed Phy, chem, maths... Rest is still left unknown. I m NOT sad at all.. Seriously i m NOT! I m taking this as a stepping stone for me to move up... I have nvr done any 'o' level type of paper before and this is my first attempt... So from this paper, i can set my standard. If this was prelim i sure will be very sad de.. So now since i have known my standards, i will start working hard...

Those who nvr do well in the CA, dun give up hope man! Its ur first attempt... So try harder again.. But if it has affected ur life, then there is nth i can do abt it! My words wunt make any difference, it just have made things worse...