Yesterday MT o-level results was released... It was at 1pm.. Suppose the teachers already knew the results.. So before hand i already knew that the percentage passes for tamil was 100%... Which means the 2 student who took the paper passed.. But just by knowing the percentage passes did not leave me at ease.. A pass can b a horrible pass also.. So at 1pm plus i get to know my results.. My aim was a B3.. And u guys know wat i got?? It was a C6! How ridiculous.. And for my oral, it was just a pass.. Not merit or distinction...

Okay i shall now say how i feel when i took my results.. Many might feel its nothing much at least i pass.. The thing is.. For the very first time, i did my paper 1 which was compo and letter in the best or fantastic way.. I mean i have never made use of high value words or phrases before and for this paper i used many..
My paper 2 was done well.. Not just well.. It was a strong B3.. That was not what i said.. That was wat my teacher said.. I let her see the paper, she marked it and said "Don worry.. Its a strong B3!" But u see my results???? I mean WTH went wrong.. Nvm lahh... Dun say so much.. Lets say my oral.. It was taken at CDSS! When i entered the room, i started talk and talk and talking and again its for the first time! The teacher didnt even ask me any questions and she said "Good, good, good..." And i only gt a pass! I mean WTH!! The guy in my class, speaks even worse then me.. He stammer alot alot alot.. The girl in my class, hardly speak tamil and its not even english! Its very broken.. Yet they both can get a MERIT! I mean what really went wrong??? I dono dono dono.. You know when i saw my results, i was just crushed deep down... Was the results a biased one?? I could hardly believe my eyes.. I just felt like crying but i still control myself.. I dunno leii.. Really.. Even now it is very hard for me to believe i gt such a horrible result... If only u were in my position will u then understand my feelings.. Now i have no other choice but to retake but now that i have decide to retake, the best i can score is B4 due to my oral.. I dunno leii.. I m darm confused and sad.. Its like when u studied so much and yet its horrible... If i never studied and gt such a result, i wunt mind.. But it was like many made me feel so confident.. Telling me how good i am.. The worse is that i score A2 in CA and class test.. But how come a C6?? I am really sad lahh... I dunno.. The moment i came home ystd, i just cried.. I could hardly slp and didnt had the appetite at all... I dunno lahh...

Ystd had night class for art as it was 4Ns submittion date.. And ours is end of this month.. So we stayed and did our stuffs.. I could hardly do anything.. I was still in a shocked mood.. So it was like i left at 12am, back home.. When i reached home, had to settle with my dad.. Some things he said, really make me feel as though i m really stupid..Make me feel like studying was a waste of time, make me feel that i m ..... Purely stupid! Which i think is true... How much i study still get such a horrible mark, isnt it true that i m stupid... Its worse when u get pressurised.. Different angles of pressure.. Needless to say my dad only, even some of ur peers make u feel like u are stupid.. They will go like " U so good also can get pass??? U sure anot??? I dunno how lousy also can get Merit!" I mean how will u feel.. At the very first, i told myself i will retake and make sure i get wat i wan... But aft a while i think back... I just get confused... I m CONFUSED!!!

Just want to end by shouting CONGRATS to all those who did well.. Especially to my beloved wifey.. Congrats for ur A1... And those who didnt do well, just make the right decision...